depressionmaxxing
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Not long ago, all i did was to write about being depressed and suicidal.
But then i wrote a thread that i have given up everything i clinged on to and decided that my actual meaning of life is to make money
And i don‘t mean that like some youtuber, i mean extreme obsession. Same way your lungs would crave for air when drowning, am i craving for success
Not only did i work on building own ways for months without rest and being successfull, the journey on it‘s own is insanely simulating. There‘s times where i don‘t sleep for days, don‘t eat, don‘t go outside, as im so suck into my work. It‘s everything. It‘s hope it‘s the future, present, past all of it for me.
I feel dopamine every second i work, i love to work. And i don‘t mean wageslaving. I mean creating. Knowing the world is just a place, a system is just a code, everything can be moved and molded.
Whatever meaning you find it, be it money, coding or hobbys. Having something you work on and dedicate your time to is extremely fulfilling, i‘ve forgotten the blackpill and have given it much less value in my life, as it‘s not an priority anymore
-CHANGE-
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