
darkness97
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i was out with my friend and was fucking pissed off. everyone in my life was just constantly pissing me off and i needed a release. i recently really cut down on drinking and have been pretty consistent for a few months. but i had all this built up shit in me and i needed to let it out. i was chilling with this girl who is just a friend lol and drank and bought a bag of coke. i did the coke and it was either shitty coke or i just don't respond well to it.
i had all of this pent up energy just sitting in the car with my mid friend who was a girl. cocaine makes you either want to fuck or fight. i did neither because i knew this girl was just a friend. it had nowhere to go so i just kept talking and talking. i confessed some deep insecurities that weren't actually real. it's just i needed to say something intense. her high wore off at around 7am while i was still fucking buzzed. as soon as i got home i wanted to kill myself. i felt like such shit and never wanted to do that shit again lol.
i had all of this pent up energy just sitting in the car with my mid friend who was a girl. cocaine makes you either want to fuck or fight. i did neither because i knew this girl was just a friend. it had nowhere to go so i just kept talking and talking. i confessed some deep insecurities that weren't actually real. it's just i needed to say something intense. her high wore off at around 7am while i was still fucking buzzed. as soon as i got home i wanted to kill myself. i felt like such shit and never wanted to do that shit again lol.