Can anyone explain to me why I always have a constant fog in my mind, am always forgetful, and have emotional blunting?

[ASM5]

Life has gotten unbearable, I simply do not enjoy anything anymore every thing I do is void of meaning and emotions. Every thought I have is quickly forgotten sometimes only seconds after thinking it into existence. The fog is horrible to I seriously cant stand it its like like im living at 40% of my max potential and everyone around me functions at a much higher level, can anyone please help me understand why. For the record I am on test c 500 mg a week but I had these effects before, although they have gotten worse on these drugs, I despise living like this so much I am now hopping off permanatley, however I still dealt either this issue before I hopped on just to a lesser extent, maybe it has something to do with high e2 levels, or serotonin, im not sure, I just need fixes.

TLDR: title + how do I fix it.

 

[ASM5]

bump

 

[superpsycho]

im living at 40% of my max potential

shit im living at like 15%

 

[ASM5]

shit im living at like 15%

seems like that sometimes depends on the day, the emotional bluntness got so bad I crashed into a car last week andI dead ass felt nothing, I quick spike of adrenaline thats all, when I talked to the lady about the damages I could have cared less, even though I know it will effect my life alot

 

[ASM5]

It just sucks because it feels like the rest of humanity will enjoy living in a way I will never get to

 

[superpsycho]

seems like that sometimes depends on the day, the emotional bluntness got so bad I crashed into a car last week andI dead ass felt nothing, I quick spike of adrenaline thats all, when I talked to the lady about the damages I could have cared less, even though I know it will effect my life alot

some of the things that should be important to me dont feel important to me at all.

 

[ASM5]

some of the things that should be important to me dont feel important to me at all.

like what? for me personally I have no motivation to do well in life, and I feel like although my friends like me and enjoy spending time with me but I dont reciprocate.

 

[superpsycho]

like what? for me personally I have no motivation to do well in life, and I feel like although my friends like me and enjoy spending time with me but I dont reciprocate.

my friendships/relationships, my future, my health

im slowly starting to care less and less about it

 

[ASM5]

my friendships/relationships, my future, my health

im slowly starting to care less and less about it

well if i research and find a cure ill let you know, im sure there are many on here who struggle with this to maybe ill post a guide when I figure it out

 

[superpsycho]

well if i research and find a cure ill let you know, im sure there are many on here who struggle with this to maybe ill post a guide when I figure it out

alright