iblamementalhealth
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In this community, achieving dark triads traits, whether it is physical or mental, seems to be encouraged, a goal.
I going to tell why, from my experience, it prevented me from getting in a relationship. Because, yes, mental health, personality, first impression do play a role in attractiveness.
A you can see in my profile picture, I would say I already has dark triad-ish traits, and I told myself : "why not also adopt a "dark triad personality" ?"
(Important : no need to dox me, or rate me. I am just here to help you with mental health and prevent you from doing the same mistakes as me.)
I always had little to no social skills growing up, especially with people I didn't know. I had a "glow up" (softmaxxes), I was dressing well, and people, strangers or not, noticed the change. But with physical transformation, via looksmaxxing and inevitably the blackpill, came a personality change. I adopted traits such as narcissism : I believed I was being superior to almost everyone at my school in terms of looks. I almost only cared about that. My socials skills regressed. I had adopted this autistic-like persona. Of course, I had not talked about the blackpill or looksmaxxing with anyone, but you could almost see that it had consumed me just by watching the way I behaved.
I had a small talk with a girl I didn't know, which is indubitably very rare, it was about piano. (we have one that anyone can use in my high school). She pretty much saw me and the interaction was very easy to start thanks to her openness. It was not one sided, she was asking me questions. A week or so later, I wanted to listen once more to the piano, I got there, she saw me, immediately her face brightened with a big smile. (reminder, I only talked with her once). She went up to, and engaged the conversation. Same as last time, it was very flowy, she was invested which made it rather easy to talk with her.
Unfortunately, the blackpill caught on to me, my focus drifted as I started to analyze the shape and color of her eyes. Her friend joined the conversation, but in my head I was just elsewhere. Suddenly, it was uncomfortable to talk to them. During a brief moment where the two of them were not looking nor talking to me, I rapidly went away, without even saying goodbye.
When, later, back at home, I opened TikTok, her friend had found my account, where I was posting about looksmaxxing. I deleted the videos, but it was too late, she saw them.
Since, they did not come talk to me a single time. I saw the girl, I said a simple "hello," she responded back dryly and kept walking, but she would not have said a word if I did not open my mouth.
I regret it, even though all of this happened three months ago. The girl (not her friend) was cute, I could tell form some reason she felt the same way towards me. I found her appealing, and that was the first time I received that kind of attention and positive attitude from someone the opposite sex. She was super warm , with a nice smile.
The blackpill can be an opportunity. Take it, receive knowledge from it and improve. Don't let it control you to the point were you start chasing ideals imposed by the community. (such as looking like a model, only caring about validation, adopting certain persona traits that were not yours, ect...)
After all, we just wanted to be loved.
"Mentalceldom" exist. No one talks about it. I am here to help you with your mental health, improve, and post real progress (see what is possible and what is not), so hopefully i can motivate you to improve.
Take care,
Iblamementalhealth.
I going to tell why, from my experience, it prevented me from getting in a relationship. Because, yes, mental health, personality, first impression do play a role in attractiveness.
A you can see in my profile picture, I would say I already has dark triad-ish traits, and I told myself : "why not also adopt a "dark triad personality" ?"
(Important : no need to dox me, or rate me. I am just here to help you with mental health and prevent you from doing the same mistakes as me.)
I always had little to no social skills growing up, especially with people I didn't know. I had a "glow up" (softmaxxes), I was dressing well, and people, strangers or not, noticed the change. But with physical transformation, via looksmaxxing and inevitably the blackpill, came a personality change. I adopted traits such as narcissism : I believed I was being superior to almost everyone at my school in terms of looks. I almost only cared about that. My socials skills regressed. I had adopted this autistic-like persona. Of course, I had not talked about the blackpill or looksmaxxing with anyone, but you could almost see that it had consumed me just by watching the way I behaved.
I had a small talk with a girl I didn't know, which is indubitably very rare, it was about piano. (we have one that anyone can use in my high school). She pretty much saw me and the interaction was very easy to start thanks to her openness. It was not one sided, she was asking me questions. A week or so later, I wanted to listen once more to the piano, I got there, she saw me, immediately her face brightened with a big smile. (reminder, I only talked with her once). She went up to, and engaged the conversation. Same as last time, it was very flowy, she was invested which made it rather easy to talk with her.
Unfortunately, the blackpill caught on to me, my focus drifted as I started to analyze the shape and color of her eyes. Her friend joined the conversation, but in my head I was just elsewhere. Suddenly, it was uncomfortable to talk to them. During a brief moment where the two of them were not looking nor talking to me, I rapidly went away, without even saying goodbye.
When, later, back at home, I opened TikTok, her friend had found my account, where I was posting about looksmaxxing. I deleted the videos, but it was too late, she saw them.
Since, they did not come talk to me a single time. I saw the girl, I said a simple "hello," she responded back dryly and kept walking, but she would not have said a word if I did not open my mouth.
I regret it, even though all of this happened three months ago. The girl (not her friend) was cute, I could tell form some reason she felt the same way towards me. I found her appealing, and that was the first time I received that kind of attention and positive attitude from someone the opposite sex. She was super warm , with a nice smile.
The blackpill can be an opportunity. Take it, receive knowledge from it and improve. Don't let it control you to the point were you start chasing ideals imposed by the community. (such as looking like a model, only caring about validation, adopting certain persona traits that were not yours, ect...)
After all, we just wanted to be loved.
"Mentalceldom" exist. No one talks about it. I am here to help you with your mental health, improve, and post real progress (see what is possible and what is not), so hopefully i can motivate you to improve.
Take care,
Iblamementalhealth.
