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Number 1 rule.
Dont chase females as your only goal in life . take it from my lesson. ended up being in a worse position than i was before.
Decided to chase girls instead of making my future better.Never finished a school past high school. I did pretty much nothing for 4/5 years well i did but nothing that got me in a better position in life, i learned allot more about life and being more of a man. it has its pros and cons.
Bad reputation on schools.
Started at 2012 in IT school when i switched from car mechanic school in high school.
Lasted 9 months at that school suffered from anxiety and could not focus on my work anymore and my mentor decided to kick me out.
NO Girls in the Whole IT building.. actually there was only 1. but not in our class every time she passed by during lunch break the whole class would stop and look at her pass by once she passed, work continues
Anxiety
Beating the Anxiety cost me more of my years because i did it of my own energy.
when i was younger i was really fit was playing football i biked far distance etc.
I was in really bad shape, i was hella skinny no stamina like none zero... i could not bike for more then 5 minutes and get tired. i was affraid to do anything i was just stiing in my bed doing nothing playing video games watching tv. instead of getting fat, i got really skinny after hitting growth. So after 2 years of slowly getting over it i decided this is enough i need to change so i started with 10 push up everynight before bed for a week and upping the amount slowly yes i was in that of bed shape
After Math
After getting slowly in shape i was still skinny i just have a high metabolism. my mom forced me to go back to school even tho i didnt want to.
Security school - Declined. /Cook School - Declined / Creative school - Declined.. Etc
being in my room for years without social life costed me to be socially awkward i simply could not look in peoples eyes because of the situation i was in in the history of it.i learned allot about body language since mine was really bad looked down allot etc.
still struggle with it to this day. mainly because of the insecuritys i have.
Next Step
Years roll by and leaving school behind out of my mind i looked at what the next step for me is. All these set backs i had it was time for a major come back
Being single was not fun no more and not going outside ofcourse no one can see you, also lost all my friends like this, i didn't like going outside in the past.
I was a introvert, i transformed my self in to a intro/extrovert i was not fully there yet. But exactly a year ago today once December ended i said to my self its time to looks max and look my best again since i never really focused on it that much as now. it was simple get your wardrobe up-to-date and frequent haircuts.
Tinder
Trying tinder for the first time for a month and buying gold subscription really needs no explaining except for this gif.
Three is a Crowd
Time to go out should have done that in the first place. Yes alone if you are wondering. But i didnt care i felt good.
Strange Results
the first day was a disaster i must admit i was not ready yet clothes not on point hair all over the place. tried again week later or so after fixing and tweaking few things
And strangely on the way girls staring at me and smiling and i didn't know how to feel about this i just kinda swatted it away thinking its just random.
Crazy how if you try to take care of your appearance girls appreciate the effort it seems like. So i decided to do this every week maybe twice depending if the weather was good and had weird experience doing this i left the area with disappointment but sometimes good depending if i got enough validation the whole goal was do people notice me, and do i even register on the radar from girls and over the course of slow development i did i went passed my expectation i felt egotistic.
First Approach
Felt decent at times so i saw this very attractive girl working in a small store on a Saturday she looked at me i looked at her but i was afraid to approach then.
so now knowing she works there on a Saturday at least i went the next Saturday just to approach and see if i could get her number. i was already watching allot of vids on RSD type videos and the one and only AMS which i only rock with till this day very solid advice. but watching so many vids i messed up my approach was all nervous heart beating really fast and i started with ''dont i know you from somwhere'', she said '' insta maybe?'' so she pretty much thought i was a stalker and if she remembered me from last week that confirms it maybe for her. but i asked lets drink sometime take my number..... her response '' i dont really that'' i wished her a nice weekend and left the scene. i went out that day and it pretty much my whole day went downhill from there. i didnt feel sad i would feel better if i had her number but i was still proud i did it, i would feel worse if i haven't.
Back to school
Mind set: Ass chasing. Logical Thinking:0
Singing up for Cosmetic school yeah... not sure if i need to add anything else to that does that sound like a good idea, that thought never crossed my mind till this day i still cant beleive i decied to do that wtf was i doing. i made some friends playing games they where cool i shared the story that im going back to school and made this decision, its not exactly a great feeling when one is a Cop and the other one is a Doctor. it made me feel like a failure long story short i went to the interview they questioned my intentions they where like you are going to be around allot of young girls they will practice messages with only underwear on. i was like hell nooo .sounds great i know but i dont wanna be the only guy there. i declined it and quickly signed up for another education this time barber. its in the same building so i was like lets do it there allot of girls there was my only motive, so im trying to convince my self i like this education just like the other one, i have interest in hairstyles but only for my self not as a job.
Strike 3 And your out!
Okay this is it i cant blow it. gonna be allot of girls i singed up for the school my clothes are on point im ready. but nothing could prepare me for what happened next to me. weeks before slowly acne started show more and more. it WOULD JUST NOT GO AWAY!!! thats a clear sign of my frustration it was SoOooOooo stubborn.
Okay atleast let my hair be on point il be under allot of women gonna be looking my best. this is a perfect example on what happened when i walked in the barber shop
Once i saw what i did in the mirror i knew there was no way back...... i was so pissed and sad at the same time. and this was 3 days before school i went home with my hoodie on so no one could see this disaster at home, in the mirror the damage was real i sat down against the wall depressed as ever. my hair means allot to me. so this whole thing rubbed on to me. depressed because my hair was messed up i gave my self a month '' okay just 4 weeks keep it together 4 weeks is over before you know it it should grow back again''.
First Day of School - Current mood: Dont look at me!
Rolled up to school to see my class everyone comes in... wheeeer wheeeere.. are the guys.... im the only dude here.15 girls 1 Dude.. WTF.
Quick Flashback remember when i was wishing that where girls in my class or even building FFS, and look what happens now... wishing there would be dudes in my class years later. the irony is real..... So be being obsessed with looks mine matters allot so me not having it like i was planning to really made me sad and the teachers picked up on it so i told them i was something else but it really was just my appearance but im not gonna tell them that. i told them i belong in a higher education bla bla bla. So them doing a back story they see i lied i never had a higher education which i signed up for. i didnt go to like a event the class was suppose go to and guess where it took place.. where i used to go out in the city, i said nope im staying home, next day teacher calls me says you where placed in the wrong class i got placed i level lower i was a bit mad but i was like screw it. went to my other class the next day atleast there where guys total of 5 including me.
Sicko Mode!
The maddness continues and i keep blabbing my mouth to every teacher the same story, trying to lie and making stuff up why i dont have the school books and why i dont show up to certain classes. i just did my own thing. and it backfired i never experienced a school like this, they watched my every move.... i mean every move.
i got called to the directors office and they requested a Motivation letter from me..im like okay lets pop some tunes while i think of something to write and i went full sicko mode and was writing to the music i was lisitng to and wrote that on the paper saved it on a usb Stick and gave it to the team leader,and its all english lyrics and at school we dont speak that language we get english class but the country im in english is not the main language '' BTW that guy is a complete prick just had to put that out there he is a cuck as a matter of fact''. he put the usb stick on not only he saved a copy of it he didnt let me show it to the director so he printed it out and gave it to the director him self this was on a Thursday i didnt show up the next day, so i show up monday again knowing im pretty much done here.. not only that on that day Thursday this girl in my class i really liked started to show interest in me. so run to the directors office on monday to explain but it was a 3 against 1 convo which was unfair i still did really well i simply didnt want to leave because of that girl, i was begging for another chance which they said they would do while they showed me the door and i ripped into this guy saying all kinds of stuff to his face, they lied to me they never let me back into class all i did was have more talks at school with this guys ugly ass face i hate that guy so much.
Terrorist!
My sister calls him up after getting pretty much drop kicked from the school few days later.
now i hear the most outrageous thing and my sister just had to laugh and he got offended. they called me out of being somewhat dangerous as a excuse because they kept saying there are allot of young girls here blabla bla.. so what. i was ''23 at the time btw. 24 now''.they are like around 16-19. i was bored and drew a clock one time on a piece of paper and underneath it i wrote really big '' ITS BBC TIME!'' meaning its big black clock time. xD. so i left that on a bin outside the class and they used everything against me even a silly drawing saying i was drawing ''Bombs'' yes you heard it right BOMBS!! when i heard that i had to laugh so hard. they even said i was to long in the bathroom once i did this like twice. because i was just insecure trying to compose my self. and pretty much i left empty handed no girls no nothing i tried to add her on insta but she didnt accept my follow request. it took a week to get over this but i did.
Go Hard or Go Home.
So after all this i went back to my normal days but i was stronger than ever hitting gym harder then ever this time taking it more serious than ever getting my diet on point i was hitting the gym but not so frequently and not so heavy or long.
trying to build muscle as a hard gainer is not easy but i was really committed i bought protien shakes BCAA's Etc. and will always improve my self and learn what ever i can if it will help me in my journey i will use it and will learn it.
Level UP!
So now we are here on this Looksmaxx journey, its a journey guys enjoy it keep improving your self always thats the lesson mentally as well physically.
I gave my self 1 year to improve my self before i try again you heard it right 1 year not going out not focusing on females, Me myself and i. only take care of yourself no one else will, and one else cares. my looksmaxx journey will cost money before i have that i will need to work my ass off but its worth it. So when will you go out again and try again with women? you may ask. 2020 is where i have set a realistic target. thats when i will try again. in the mean time. hit the gym eat right feel good and not everything involves just about women life is great in so many other ways. learn new things learn a new language or what ever you in to.
the motto to this is: If you look great you feel great. no one else will do it you will have to put in work if you really want it.
'' Dont try to talk it,Try to walk it.''
''Love is gonna get you killed, but pride is gonna be the death of you and me''
I hope this was not a long of a read didnt want it to make it to long but to who ever did make it this far see it was a life lesson a mistake you dont have to make because i already did. i tried to make it as entertaining as possible.
Enjoy life guys. i tried to chase ass for a year and then i realized i have allot of work to do, 2019 is time to put in the real work.!
If there is any questions feel free to ask them. dont hesitate
Dont chase females as your only goal in life . take it from my lesson. ended up being in a worse position than i was before.
Decided to chase girls instead of making my future better.Never finished a school past high school. I did pretty much nothing for 4/5 years well i did but nothing that got me in a better position in life, i learned allot more about life and being more of a man. it has its pros and cons.
Bad reputation on schools.
Started at 2012 in IT school when i switched from car mechanic school in high school.
Lasted 9 months at that school suffered from anxiety and could not focus on my work anymore and my mentor decided to kick me out.
NO Girls in the Whole IT building.. actually there was only 1. but not in our class every time she passed by during lunch break the whole class would stop and look at her pass by once she passed, work continues
Anxiety
Beating the Anxiety cost me more of my years because i did it of my own energy.
when i was younger i was really fit was playing football i biked far distance etc.
I was in really bad shape, i was hella skinny no stamina like none zero... i could not bike for more then 5 minutes and get tired. i was affraid to do anything i was just stiing in my bed doing nothing playing video games watching tv. instead of getting fat, i got really skinny after hitting growth. So after 2 years of slowly getting over it i decided this is enough i need to change so i started with 10 push up everynight before bed for a week and upping the amount slowly yes i was in that of bed shape
After Math
After getting slowly in shape i was still skinny i just have a high metabolism. my mom forced me to go back to school even tho i didnt want to.
Security school - Declined. /Cook School - Declined / Creative school - Declined.. Etc
being in my room for years without social life costed me to be socially awkward i simply could not look in peoples eyes because of the situation i was in in the history of it.i learned allot about body language since mine was really bad looked down allot etc.
still struggle with it to this day. mainly because of the insecuritys i have.
Next Step
Years roll by and leaving school behind out of my mind i looked at what the next step for me is. All these set backs i had it was time for a major come back
Being single was not fun no more and not going outside ofcourse no one can see you, also lost all my friends like this, i didn't like going outside in the past.
I was a introvert, i transformed my self in to a intro/extrovert i was not fully there yet. But exactly a year ago today once December ended i said to my self its time to looks max and look my best again since i never really focused on it that much as now. it was simple get your wardrobe up-to-date and frequent haircuts.
Tinder
Trying tinder for the first time for a month and buying gold subscription really needs no explaining except for this gif.
Three is a Crowd
Time to go out should have done that in the first place. Yes alone if you are wondering. But i didnt care i felt good.
Strange Results
the first day was a disaster i must admit i was not ready yet clothes not on point hair all over the place. tried again week later or so after fixing and tweaking few things
And strangely on the way girls staring at me and smiling and i didn't know how to feel about this i just kinda swatted it away thinking its just random.
Crazy how if you try to take care of your appearance girls appreciate the effort it seems like. So i decided to do this every week maybe twice depending if the weather was good and had weird experience doing this i left the area with disappointment but sometimes good depending if i got enough validation the whole goal was do people notice me, and do i even register on the radar from girls and over the course of slow development i did i went passed my expectation i felt egotistic.
First Approach
Felt decent at times so i saw this very attractive girl working in a small store on a Saturday she looked at me i looked at her but i was afraid to approach then.
so now knowing she works there on a Saturday at least i went the next Saturday just to approach and see if i could get her number. i was already watching allot of vids on RSD type videos and the one and only AMS which i only rock with till this day very solid advice. but watching so many vids i messed up my approach was all nervous heart beating really fast and i started with ''dont i know you from somwhere'', she said '' insta maybe?'' so she pretty much thought i was a stalker and if she remembered me from last week that confirms it maybe for her. but i asked lets drink sometime take my number..... her response '' i dont really that'' i wished her a nice weekend and left the scene. i went out that day and it pretty much my whole day went downhill from there. i didnt feel sad i would feel better if i had her number but i was still proud i did it, i would feel worse if i haven't.
Back to school
Mind set: Ass chasing. Logical Thinking:0
Singing up for Cosmetic school yeah... not sure if i need to add anything else to that does that sound like a good idea, that thought never crossed my mind till this day i still cant beleive i decied to do that wtf was i doing. i made some friends playing games they where cool i shared the story that im going back to school and made this decision, its not exactly a great feeling when one is a Cop and the other one is a Doctor. it made me feel like a failure long story short i went to the interview they questioned my intentions they where like you are going to be around allot of young girls they will practice messages with only underwear on. i was like hell nooo .sounds great i know but i dont wanna be the only guy there. i declined it and quickly signed up for another education this time barber. its in the same building so i was like lets do it there allot of girls there was my only motive, so im trying to convince my self i like this education just like the other one, i have interest in hairstyles but only for my self not as a job.
Strike 3 And your out!
Okay this is it i cant blow it. gonna be allot of girls i singed up for the school my clothes are on point im ready. but nothing could prepare me for what happened next to me. weeks before slowly acne started show more and more. it WOULD JUST NOT GO AWAY!!! thats a clear sign of my frustration it was SoOooOooo stubborn.
Okay atleast let my hair be on point il be under allot of women gonna be looking my best. this is a perfect example on what happened when i walked in the barber shop
Once i saw what i did in the mirror i knew there was no way back...... i was so pissed and sad at the same time. and this was 3 days before school i went home with my hoodie on so no one could see this disaster at home, in the mirror the damage was real i sat down against the wall depressed as ever. my hair means allot to me. so this whole thing rubbed on to me. depressed because my hair was messed up i gave my self a month '' okay just 4 weeks keep it together 4 weeks is over before you know it it should grow back again''.
First Day of School - Current mood: Dont look at me!
Rolled up to school to see my class everyone comes in... wheeeer wheeeere.. are the guys.... im the only dude here.15 girls 1 Dude.. WTF.
Quick Flashback remember when i was wishing that where girls in my class or even building FFS, and look what happens now... wishing there would be dudes in my class years later. the irony is real..... So be being obsessed with looks mine matters allot so me not having it like i was planning to really made me sad and the teachers picked up on it so i told them i was something else but it really was just my appearance but im not gonna tell them that. i told them i belong in a higher education bla bla bla. So them doing a back story they see i lied i never had a higher education which i signed up for. i didnt go to like a event the class was suppose go to and guess where it took place.. where i used to go out in the city, i said nope im staying home, next day teacher calls me says you where placed in the wrong class i got placed i level lower i was a bit mad but i was like screw it. went to my other class the next day atleast there where guys total of 5 including me.
Sicko Mode!
The maddness continues and i keep blabbing my mouth to every teacher the same story, trying to lie and making stuff up why i dont have the school books and why i dont show up to certain classes. i just did my own thing. and it backfired i never experienced a school like this, they watched my every move.... i mean every move.
i got called to the directors office and they requested a Motivation letter from me..im like okay lets pop some tunes while i think of something to write and i went full sicko mode and was writing to the music i was lisitng to and wrote that on the paper saved it on a usb Stick and gave it to the team leader,and its all english lyrics and at school we dont speak that language we get english class but the country im in english is not the main language '' BTW that guy is a complete prick just had to put that out there he is a cuck as a matter of fact''. he put the usb stick on not only he saved a copy of it he didnt let me show it to the director so he printed it out and gave it to the director him self this was on a Thursday i didnt show up the next day, so i show up monday again knowing im pretty much done here.. not only that on that day Thursday this girl in my class i really liked started to show interest in me. so run to the directors office on monday to explain but it was a 3 against 1 convo which was unfair i still did really well i simply didnt want to leave because of that girl, i was begging for another chance which they said they would do while they showed me the door and i ripped into this guy saying all kinds of stuff to his face, they lied to me they never let me back into class all i did was have more talks at school with this guys ugly ass face i hate that guy so much.
Terrorist!
My sister calls him up after getting pretty much drop kicked from the school few days later.
now i hear the most outrageous thing and my sister just had to laugh and he got offended. they called me out of being somewhat dangerous as a excuse because they kept saying there are allot of young girls here blabla bla.. so what. i was ''23 at the time btw. 24 now''.they are like around 16-19. i was bored and drew a clock one time on a piece of paper and underneath it i wrote really big '' ITS BBC TIME!'' meaning its big black clock time. xD. so i left that on a bin outside the class and they used everything against me even a silly drawing saying i was drawing ''Bombs'' yes you heard it right BOMBS!! when i heard that i had to laugh so hard. they even said i was to long in the bathroom once i did this like twice. because i was just insecure trying to compose my self. and pretty much i left empty handed no girls no nothing i tried to add her on insta but she didnt accept my follow request. it took a week to get over this but i did.
Go Hard or Go Home.
So after all this i went back to my normal days but i was stronger than ever hitting gym harder then ever this time taking it more serious than ever getting my diet on point i was hitting the gym but not so frequently and not so heavy or long.
trying to build muscle as a hard gainer is not easy but i was really committed i bought protien shakes BCAA's Etc. and will always improve my self and learn what ever i can if it will help me in my journey i will use it and will learn it.
Level UP!
So now we are here on this Looksmaxx journey, its a journey guys enjoy it keep improving your self always thats the lesson mentally as well physically.
I gave my self 1 year to improve my self before i try again you heard it right 1 year not going out not focusing on females, Me myself and i. only take care of yourself no one else will, and one else cares. my looksmaxx journey will cost money before i have that i will need to work my ass off but its worth it. So when will you go out again and try again with women? you may ask. 2020 is where i have set a realistic target. thats when i will try again. in the mean time. hit the gym eat right feel good and not everything involves just about women life is great in so many other ways. learn new things learn a new language or what ever you in to.
the motto to this is: If you look great you feel great. no one else will do it you will have to put in work if you really want it.
'' Dont try to talk it,Try to walk it.''
''Love is gonna get you killed, but pride is gonna be the death of you and me''
I hope this was not a long of a read didnt want it to make it to long but to who ever did make it this far see it was a life lesson a mistake you dont have to make because i already did. i tried to make it as entertaining as possible.
Enjoy life guys. i tried to chase ass for a year and then i realized i have allot of work to do, 2019 is time to put in the real work.!
If there is any questions feel free to ask them. dont hesitate
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