COVID-19 wrote my fate

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I can't think of anything more devastating to happen to me than the events of these past two years. And the thing is, it's not even the pandemic itself itself necessarily, but the downwards spiral it caused occurring in late 2020/early2021. Lockdowns blackpilled me HARD, and sooner or later, I found myself browsing forums, this one especially. My blackpill experience really hurt my confidence and basically turned me into a very insecure person. Prior, I was a TRI-ATHLETE (basketball, football, and track) which is something my father, in particular, valued a lot and was very adamant about me sustaining throughout high school. Now that I am out high school, I do not play sports anymore, and I didn't really play at all my senior year either. When I look at my father, I see that he tries to act indifferent about it, but I know he really thinks of me differently now . When I think about how different everything would be if shit didn't happen, it FUCKS me up. To no end.