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Day 22 of improving my life
Missed several days almost been 6
i relapsed a lot and jerked off so much. However I’m beginning to come to an understanding that porn won’t give me what I want. It’s so pointless
I need to change my identity, my thoughts and my habits.
Today I went to work for the first time after getting back, but came home early. Told them it was the flu but of course I was just hurting from the bullshit body pain again. I will fix this issue.
Did some stuff but not super productive as I basically just “locked in” earlier this morning and pulled an all nighter so just trying to stay awake was a chore
Mental Health: I’m feeling kind of sore in the sense that I don’t want to keep dealing with this porn addiction and fighting it. However I’m willing to. I don’t give a shit about ethics btw, the only reason I want to quit porn is to save time, masturbating takes too much time, I have more important things to do. It’s a good investment for me to invest in improving my daily life and clearing addictions so I maximize efficiency . Also my mental is starting to feel slightly lonely because I’m isolated. Need to think of a solution for this otherwise the heartaches may start again. Although I think those were induced by time wasting but we’ll see.
3 things I’m grateful for:
- just got a pay raise (albeit a very small one but still good)
- my friend from highschool who cares abt me hella
- Santa Cruz pharmaceuticals
1 thing: be fully present mentally at work tomorrow
Day 22 of improving my life
Missed several days almost been 6
i relapsed a lot and jerked off so much. However I’m beginning to come to an understanding that porn won’t give me what I want. It’s so pointless
I need to change my identity, my thoughts and my habits.
Today I went to work for the first time after getting back, but came home early. Told them it was the flu but of course I was just hurting from the bullshit body pain again. I will fix this issue.
Did some stuff but not super productive as I basically just “locked in” earlier this morning and pulled an all nighter so just trying to stay awake was a chore
Mental Health: I’m feeling kind of sore in the sense that I don’t want to keep dealing with this porn addiction and fighting it. However I’m willing to. I don’t give a shit about ethics btw, the only reason I want to quit porn is to save time, masturbating takes too much time, I have more important things to do. It’s a good investment for me to invest in improving my daily life and clearing addictions so I maximize efficiency . Also my mental is starting to feel slightly lonely because I’m isolated. Need to think of a solution for this otherwise the heartaches may start again. Although I think those were induced by time wasting but we’ll see.
3 things I’m grateful for:
- just got a pay raise (albeit a very small one but still good)
- my friend from highschool who cares abt me hella
- Santa Cruz pharmaceuticals
1 thing: be fully present mentally at work tomorrow
