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Sleep, I need sleep
Day 24 of self improvemenf
Spent pretty much the whole day at work with team building what not activities lol
didn’t get much time to myself, also sleep was shit
My social skills aren’t horrible but I def need to improve significantly , also my voice is strange and quiet but deep, shit is awkward af
Also I was so sleepy during meetings
Retrospective: even if I was sleepy, that was prime time to crank through the very simple easy low mental effort, low physical effort tasks, which I didn’t do. I should have done the trainings tbh, so I’ll keep that in mind for whenever I’m super tired
Mental health: kinda on the edge again of relapsing so it’s hurting my brain but not as much as yesterday. It’s begging to become very clear for me that if I don’t ascend then there’s no future. I need to get my lizard brain to understand this, and that’s where all my concentration and worry is on. Will I be able to change my mental pathways and dopamine sources before they change my life trajectory forever? I want to be in control of my life, not the environment that made me. This is the main plight I have.
3 things to be grateful for:
- glad my company pays for meals even though that’s normal
- glad to be tall again
- glad to be able to sleep tonight, very grateful for some nice sleep
1 thing to achieve tomorrow : read the first chapter of never finished by David goggins
Shit I be forgetting about water intake but I’ll get on that as well
Day 24 of self improvemenf
Spent pretty much the whole day at work with team building what not activities lol
didn’t get much time to myself, also sleep was shit
My social skills aren’t horrible but I def need to improve significantly , also my voice is strange and quiet but deep, shit is awkward af
Also I was so sleepy during meetings
Retrospective: even if I was sleepy, that was prime time to crank through the very simple easy low mental effort, low physical effort tasks, which I didn’t do. I should have done the trainings tbh, so I’ll keep that in mind for whenever I’m super tired
Mental health: kinda on the edge again of relapsing so it’s hurting my brain but not as much as yesterday. It’s begging to become very clear for me that if I don’t ascend then there’s no future. I need to get my lizard brain to understand this, and that’s where all my concentration and worry is on. Will I be able to change my mental pathways and dopamine sources before they change my life trajectory forever? I want to be in control of my life, not the environment that made me. This is the main plight I have.
3 things to be grateful for:
- glad my company pays for meals even though that’s normal
- glad to be tall again
- glad to be able to sleep tonight, very grateful for some nice sleep
1 thing to achieve tomorrow : read the first chapter of never finished by David goggins
Shit I be forgetting about water intake but I’ll get on that as well
