despair

[BlueScree]

does anyone else look in the mirror and know
that ur not ugly but that it's just not enough and that if u had better genetics then ur life would be set? u would be nt and be loved by all, have good looks and be loved by all, be smart and talented and loved by all, but WE yes WE are not. Im prob in like the top 1-5% of kids my age and top 25 in school and prob one of the better looking kids as well, but it's just not enough i still get laughed at and im still the insecure bullied kid i was in middle school and elementary and it caused a sense of despair im now taller (5'11) and look better and now am developed but i still mentally feel beneath other kids and it's genuinely the main cause of negative feelings in my life and it's to the point where i stopped hanging out with friends and going to events for school like homecoming because i feel unworthy unloved and insecure to show my face

tldr: i feel so insecure and sad that i can't function properly anymore

 

[NiZr]

thanks for the tldr but need a shorter one, dnr

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

You wouldn’t need to be more attractive or NT, all you would’ve needed is a secure upbringing that allowed you to build self-confidence organically, but you were marked by bad experiences and it still has some grasp on you. The insecurity is the remnants of those experiences that you internalized and bring around with you. You’re at least already aware that you’re not terrible, but you need to actually level with yourself and take note of cool shit that you’ve done, or at least shit that retarded people do that you don’t. Those voices keep eroding your confidence slowly, you need to actively counter it with real evidence.

thanks for the tldr but need a shorter one, dnr

fag

 

[BlueScree]

You wouldn’t need to be more attractive or NT, all you would’ve needed is a secure upbringing that allowed you to build self-confidence organically, but you were marked by bad experiences and it still has some grasp on you. The insecurity is the remnants of those experiences that you internalized and bring around with you. You’re at least already aware that you’re not terrible, but you need to actually level with yourself and take note of cool shit that you’ve done, or at least shit that retarded people do that you don’t. Those voices keep eroding your confidence slowly, you need to actively counter it with real evidence.


fag

i appreciate that gang i rly do it's been years i just gotta man up and do it you know

 

[NiZr]

fag

u like it don’t u

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

i appreciate that gang i rly do it's been years i just gotta man up and do it you know

It’s kinda like manning up, it’s also going back down to that younger little bitch version of yourself and letting him know that he wasn’t really that bad and was just surrounded by assholes.

 

[BlueScree]

It’s kinda like manning up, it’s also going back down to that younger little bitch version of yourself and letting him know that he wasn’t really that bad and was just surrounded by assholes.

good way to think of it