itssoover0457
sensitive young man
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when i ascend to htn+ do u guys see me being a player and cheater? when my t is high enough from steroids ill constantly be horny so i would definitely pursue women, but i feel like id be empty on the inside. my soul craves loyalty and connection but i realized after being blackpilled long enough that its all about looks and that life is a game. Constantly horny, erections all day, see hot girls everywhere and the urge is insane. At the same time, the thought of actually fucking random bimbos/IG models/escorts makes me feel physically sick afterward. Like post-nut clarity hits so hard I want to kms. Feels empty, cheap, like I just betrayed my soul that wants something real.
On one hand I think that you’re only young once. Ascend, smash as many 10s as you can while you still have the looks & energy. No one cares about your "soulmate" cope when you’re 40 and washed. On the other hand I think even if I fuck 100 hot girls, I’ll wake up at 30 feeling like I sold my soul for dopamine. I want one loyal girl who actually chooses me, no roster, no looking at other guys. I want depth, not just bodies. But waiting feels like torture when the horniness never stops.
It’s like my dick wants one thing and my soul wants the opposite and they’re at war 24/7. Genuinely what do I do? i feel like soulmates dont even exist because theres no unconditional love but for some reason i want that one person. they dont exist though, at least i dont think so. i feel like it would be optimal to fuck as many hot women when i ascend when im still young. tbh i dont have any desire to live past 30. i feel like its pointless chasing the feeling of being in love and getting butterflies in your stomach because it eventually fades. u think u found the right one, but then u breakup.
thoughts?
@Htncel1 @ragingmanlet @ltnbrownacnecel @ZenithZXV @HundredManSlayer @ecstazy
On one hand I think that you’re only young once. Ascend, smash as many 10s as you can while you still have the looks & energy. No one cares about your "soulmate" cope when you’re 40 and washed. On the other hand I think even if I fuck 100 hot girls, I’ll wake up at 30 feeling like I sold my soul for dopamine. I want one loyal girl who actually chooses me, no roster, no looking at other guys. I want depth, not just bodies. But waiting feels like torture when the horniness never stops.
It’s like my dick wants one thing and my soul wants the opposite and they’re at war 24/7. Genuinely what do I do? i feel like soulmates dont even exist because theres no unconditional love but for some reason i want that one person. they dont exist though, at least i dont think so. i feel like it would be optimal to fuck as many hot women when i ascend when im still young. tbh i dont have any desire to live past 30. i feel like its pointless chasing the feeling of being in love and getting butterflies in your stomach because it eventually fades. u think u found the right one, but then u breakup.
thoughts?
@Htncel1 @ragingmanlet @ltnbrownacnecel @ZenithZXV @HundredManSlayer @ecstazy
