RODEBLUR
Moyra Forever
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Like sure I was looksmaxxing for girls when I was 16. Now I'm 21 and I'm hardened and I can't even look at girls as humans anymore, they're genuinely vehicles of doom and despair, I suffer any time they're remotely involved with my life
Even if I ascended and they didn't treat me like the scum of the earth I would never be able to see past their true nature
I want to looksmax so I can go outside and not be laughed by randoms calling me names over my looks,
I want to looksmax so my entire day doesn't get ruined any time I see a fucking reflection of myself,
I want to looksmax so I can be a part of photos and take some of my own when I want to prove I've been somewhere without finding some Jewish way to hide most of my face,
I want to looksmax so I can have a conversation with someone and not have them realize how ND I am because I can't look at their face, because that means they'd look straight into mine, and making someone look at my face feels like an insult, and if people see my whole face and realize my ugliness they see me as less of a person,
I want to have a normal bite and not feel my teeth grinding my lower lip 24/7,
I want to looksmax by being taller not because ''muh it gets more girls'' but because height is everything, it means how serious you're taken, how likely randoms are to try to intimidate you, and it also ties into your genetic worth and how much of a person worth treating semi decently people see you as, and also just because being tall feels good, it's more practical, you're naturally stronger, your clothes are bigger sizes, they look much better on your better frame, and pocketed clothes have more storage space
I know that I'll never be a ''slayer'', I never wanted to be, but at least if I'm average instead of ugly people's eugenic urges won't kick in and they could be somewhat sympathetic to my suffering and ND failure in life rather than thinking I just ''look like that kind of person'' or deserve it
Even if I ascended and they didn't treat me like the scum of the earth I would never be able to see past their true nature
I want to looksmax so I can go outside and not be laughed by randoms calling me names over my looks,
I want to looksmax so my entire day doesn't get ruined any time I see a fucking reflection of myself,
I want to looksmax so I can be a part of photos and take some of my own when I want to prove I've been somewhere without finding some Jewish way to hide most of my face,
I want to looksmax so I can have a conversation with someone and not have them realize how ND I am because I can't look at their face, because that means they'd look straight into mine, and making someone look at my face feels like an insult, and if people see my whole face and realize my ugliness they see me as less of a person,
I want to have a normal bite and not feel my teeth grinding my lower lip 24/7,
I want to looksmax by being taller not because ''muh it gets more girls'' but because height is everything, it means how serious you're taken, how likely randoms are to try to intimidate you, and it also ties into your genetic worth and how much of a person worth treating semi decently people see you as, and also just because being tall feels good, it's more practical, you're naturally stronger, your clothes are bigger sizes, they look much better on your better frame, and pocketed clothes have more storage space
I know that I'll never be a ''slayer'', I never wanted to be, but at least if I'm average instead of ugly people's eugenic urges won't kick in and they could be somewhat sympathetic to my suffering and ND failure in life rather than thinking I just ''look like that kind of person'' or deserve it
