dandliv
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My story:
Ever since I was a kid I've always been short. There didn't seem to be any problems with appearance and even now, too since I've had enough girls in my life but I'm a virgin. The only exception is my lack of confidence and my search for flaws.
I always felt different, I was constantly cornered at school, I was constantly breaking the rules. I either led people or they laughed at me. But what really scared me was my psychological state. Since I was 12 years old I began to notice that I was definitely not healthy. I was very nd and it constantly brought me problems.
In the summer of 24 I found out that my father had found another woman and was leaving our family. The next day I found out that he had been cheating on my mom for five years with this woman. Then I found out that I was always unwanted child. About a month after all this I was yelling at my father in the car and wanted to end him.
From that moment on my mental state got even worse. Frequent mood swings, devastation and fear of relationships. I'm afraid to get close to the woman. Most likely the reason for this was that I had learned too much about human nature and experienced too many terrible things. Plus I'm afraid of becoming like my father. I'm describing all this very briefly and it may look like a simple story of which there are a million but complete horror and chaos are going on in my head.
In the end I know that I'm going hardmax and start living Chad's life but you won't know about it anymore or after some time when it turns out that this post was mine.
Good luck to everyone, here's my progress so far.:
Ever since I was a kid I've always been short. There didn't seem to be any problems with appearance and even now, too since I've had enough girls in my life but I'm a virgin. The only exception is my lack of confidence and my search for flaws.
I always felt different, I was constantly cornered at school, I was constantly breaking the rules. I either led people or they laughed at me. But what really scared me was my psychological state. Since I was 12 years old I began to notice that I was definitely not healthy. I was very nd and it constantly brought me problems.
In the summer of 24 I found out that my father had found another woman and was leaving our family. The next day I found out that he had been cheating on my mom for five years with this woman. Then I found out that I was always unwanted child. About a month after all this I was yelling at my father in the car and wanted to end him.
From that moment on my mental state got even worse. Frequent mood swings, devastation and fear of relationships. I'm afraid to get close to the woman. Most likely the reason for this was that I had learned too much about human nature and experienced too many terrible things. Plus I'm afraid of becoming like my father. I'm describing all this very briefly and it may look like a simple story of which there are a million but complete horror and chaos are going on in my head.
In the end I know that I'm going hardmax and start living Chad's life but you won't know about it anymore or after some time when it turns out that this post was mine.
Good luck to everyone, here's my progress so far.:
