emotional numbness

[scrunchables]

Why did things have to be like this

I go to listen to my sad music to be in sad vibes like I always was before bc of comfort. But it didn’t happen. In fact, it happens less and less.

I’d rather be sad than how I am now.

 

[scrunchables]

Not a today thing, it’s been happening for a good minute.

 

[depressionmaxxing]

Means that what you‘re feeling is old

 

[scrunchables]

Means that what you‘re feeling is old

At 19, unbearably over

People are shocked when I tell them my actual age just from how I act. I’m going to die at 30 at this rate.

 

[depressionmaxxing]

At 19, unbearably over

People are shocked when I tell them my actual age just from how I act. I’m going to die at 30 at this rate.

same. I have the same shitty feeling from when i was 15, i can‘t fix my issues and im just living and suffering with it.

 

[scrunchables]

levels of nihilism:

1: life is meaningless, I want to die

2: create your own meaning to preserve yourself

3: realize the utter pretentiousness and incongruity of this, shed it and yearn for death again

4: suicide itself is meaningless, no reason to live nor any reason not to live

5: idk, finding out Jesus is the truth mb