Ending it all...Can't cope anymore

[AvgMlad]

I have given up. I can't cope anymore. I'm tired, tired of living. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Everything started going downhill two years from now. I have severe anxiety, ocd and Adhd. It's just getting harder and harder to live. I also developed a fear of school and studying because of the previous shithole school I went to. I would really feel uneasy and anxious when I'd start studying. Final exams coming up in 2 weeks and I barely know 2 pages in book. I'll most likely fail them and my parents would make my life a living hell.
On top of all that I'm a 5'6 16 yo manlet. I'll most likely stay a manlet. At best I'd grow an inch or two.
Anyways so my dad has a Vepr 12F. It's locked up somewhere, I know where but I can't find the keys. I've been searching for them for a while now. I hope I'll find them soon. And I hope one shot to the head kills me instantly. But Fuck what if I end up in a coma or sumshit? Well, there's nothing else that I can do anyway.
If anyone's gonna recommend going ER, then No. I'm not a sick fuck. I care about other's lives.
Damn it I'll die before watching AOT's final episode

 

[pentamogged9000]

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obviously not that over for you

 

[cytoplasm]

You're only 16 my man

 

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[Nebula]

I feel ya bud. I have the same thoughts exactly everyday.

 

[nav_w1]

If I could offer any advice, it would be to take a radical approach to health improvement. You seem to think that stupid, negative thoughts follow very clearly from your situation, however this really isn't the case. There are plenty of factors in your environment, some helpful and some unhelpful, yet you solely focus on the unhelpful ones. This leads me to think that your energy metabolism is subpar and reminds me of a learned helplessness state. On the other hand, it's very difficult to feel like shit about life for a prolonged time when you're healthy; you fairly quickly find solutions and meaning in a health state.

I would begin with Dr Peat's work to begin this process. Though it isn't complete, it gives the foundations from which you can explore other approaches.

If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me anytime, friend. I will not judge you brother, or bombard you with things that you "should" be doing. We can just talk about life if you like.

Take care my man.

 

[AvgMlad]

If I could offer any advice, it would be to take a radical approach to health improvement. You seem to think that stupid, negative thoughts follow very clearly from your situation, however this really isn't the case. There are plenty of factors in your environment, some helpful and some unhelpful, yet you solely focus on the unhelpful ones. This leads me to think that your energy metabolism is subpar and reminds me of a learned helplessness state. On the other hand, it's very difficult to feel like shit about life for a prolonged time when you're healthy; you fairly quickly find solutions and meaning in a health state.

I would begin with Dr Peat's work to begin this process. Though it isn't complete, it gives the foundations from which you can explore other approaches.

If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me anytime, friend. I will not judge you brother, or bombard you with things that you "should" be doing. We can just talk about life if you like.

Take care my man.

I've always wanted to open up to someone but there's no one. There's no body that would actually give a shit about me. I'm all alone. If only my parents could understand me. If only there was someone who could help me, who could guide me because I have no idea what to do. Im confused. The only thing I can think of, is running away. I had planned out everything how and what I'd do but nothings going the way I thought of it. I thought using rationale would get me through this but it doesn't. Nothing does. The stress is killing me. I'll stay like this forever. No matter how hard I try to improve I just end up in the same place. I've been coping for two years now and I don't see any difference between the then and now me. Maybe I never tried hard enough.
Now I'm just tired. I have given up. I'm too weak for this world. A weak fuck like me should have never been born

 

[siklet]

I have given up. I can't cope anymore. I'm tired, tired of living. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Everything started going downhill two years from now. I have severe anxiety, ocd and Adhd. It's just getting harder and harder to live. I also developed a fear of school and studying because of the previous shithole school I went to. I would really feel uneasy and anxious when I'd start studying. Final exams coming up in 2 weeks and I barely know 2 pages in book. I'll most likely fail them and my parents would make my life a living hell.
On top of all that I'm a 5'6 16 yo manlet. I'll most likely stay a manlet. At best I'd grow an inch or two.
Anyways so my dad has a Vepr 12F. It's locked up somewhere, I know where but I can't find the keys. I've been searching for them for a while now. I hope I'll find them soon. And I hope one shot to the head kills me instantly. But Fuck what if I end up in a coma or sumshit? Well, there's nothing else that I can do anyway.
If anyone's gonna recommend going ER, then No. I'm not a sick fuck. I care about other's lives.
Damn it I'll die before watching AOT's final episode

AOT final is trash bro you can go in peace

 

[Dr. Bludy]

I have given up. I can't cope anymore. I'm tired, tired of living. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Everything started going downhill two years from now. I have severe anxiety, ocd and Adhd. It's just getting harder and harder to live. I also developed a fear of school and studying because of the previous shithole school I went to. I would really feel uneasy and anxious when I'd start studying. Final exams coming up in 2 weeks and I barely know 2 pages in book. I'll most likely fail them and my parents would make my life a living hell.
On top of all that I'm a 5'6 16 yo manlet. I'll most likely stay a manlet. At best I'd grow an inch or two.
Anyways so my dad has a Vepr 12F. It's locked up somewhere, I know where but I can't find the keys. I've been searching for them for a while now. I hope I'll find them soon. And I hope one shot to the head kills me instantly. But Fuck what if I end up in a coma or sumshit? Well, there's nothing else that I can do anyway.
If anyone's gonna recommend going ER, then No. I'm not a sick fuck. I care about other's lives.
Damn it I'll die before watching AOT's final episode

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[siklet]

Dont do it

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Nigger youre only 16 let it pass its just your hormones playing withu trust me

 

[horsefacin]

Nigger youre only 16 let it pass its just your hormones playing withu trust me

seriously speaking tho they always told us in middle school that when ur a teen youll go through mood swings but never told us about the severity of them

is considering killing yourself several times in a week normal for a teen or is it just depression? I dont think any normal person at my school thinks what i think on a weekly basis

 

[Dr. Bludy]

seriously speaking tho they always told us in middle school that when ur a teen youll go through mood swings but never told us about the severity of them

is considering killing yourself several times in a week normal for a teen or is it just depression? I dont think any normal person at my school thinks what i think on a weekly basis

I think it makes you feel even worse because it makes you more emotional

 

[FML0908]

I have given up. I can't cope anymore. I'm tired, tired of living. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Everything started going downhill two years from now. I have severe anxiety, ocd and Adhd. It's just getting harder and harder to live. I also developed a fear of school and studying because of the previous shithole school I went to. I would really feel uneasy and anxious when I'd start studying. Final exams coming up in 2 weeks and I barely know 2 pages in book. I'll most likely fail them and my parents would make my life a living hell.
On top of all that I'm a 5'6 16 yo manlet. I'll most likely stay a manlet. At best I'd grow an inch or two.
Anyways so my dad has a Vepr 12F. It's locked up somewhere, I know where but I can't find the keys. I've been searching for them for a while now. I hope I'll find them soon. And I hope one shot to the head kills me instantly. But Fuck what if I end up in a coma or sumshit? Well, there's nothing else that I can do anyway.
If anyone's gonna recommend going ER, then No. I'm not a sick fuck. I care about other's lives.
Damn it I'll die before watching AOT's final episode

Hello my brother, i hope you’re doing better. I’m going exactly through the same thing as you, i felt that to my gut. You are not alone my dear brother. I’d love to have a talk with you in pm’s and i hope i can help you and give you good advice. Do not give up my friend, we’re in this together !

 

[AvgMlad]

Hello my brother, i hope you’re doing better. I’m going exactly through the same thing as you, i felt that to my gut. You are not alone my dear brother. I’d love to have a talk with you in pm’s and i hope i can help you and give you good advice. Do not give up my friend, we’re in this together !

Thanks a lot. But I think I have given up. I'm just super tired now. I don't want to be alive for another single day. But then again there's something inside of me that doesn't want to die as well. There are certain things that I want to achieve in life. Man, I'm clueless. All these mental gymnastics in my mind are making me go crazy. It feels like my head's gonna explode.
I hope things get better for you. Feel free to pm. I would love to get some advice because I have no idea what I should do. If only my parents or someone could help me. If only someone reached out their hand towards me, I would have been in a bit better condition.

 

[AvgMlad]

Nigger youre only 16 let it pass its just your hormones playing withu trust me

I've been having these thoughts for over a year now and it's just getting worse

 

[romanstock]

seriously speaking tho they always told us in middle school that when ur a teen youll go through mood swings but never told us about the severity of them

is considering killing yourself several times in a week normal for a teen or is it just depression? I dont think any normal person at my school thinks what i think on a weekly basis

im 33 yr old incel with zero hope left and all my worst fears and nowadays i never think about killing myself whereas when i was 17 socialising, working out, had hope, was still delusional thinking i'd make it, i'd wanna kill myself every 2nd day. it is hormones but also a big part was trying and constantly failing, coming home each day nothing changed nothing happening i was still a virgin. after just accepting it and giving up completely funnily enough i'm more content.

 

[ricetard]

ill Only end myself if my LL fails