Escaping being a Hikiamori/porn addict 3 week update

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Its been 3 weeks since getting my job pretty much working 40 hour weeks.

Before getting this job I had agoraphobia and could barely leave my room to go to the gym let alone say more then a few words to people besides my parents. Everyday my condition got worse I would use porn to cope with the stress from this. Now my stress tolerance is way higher my job isn't extremely social but I am still talking to people for like 3 hours out of my shift usually and I constantly have to see people.

At first I felt like I was having a panic attack but management was very kind and always told me I did a good job. I even met a few coworkers with similar interests one of my coworks is into coding and said when I get better we can do a CS project. This is probably the best job I've ever worked at my old jobs everyone was burnt out 30 year old losers/drug addicts. This job is mainly college/HS students so I relate because everyone is either in their teens or early 20's. Also its 60% female still not completely comfortable around girls but the thought of talking to one no longer makes me want to die.

Honestly wish I had applied sooner. Being a neet is not sustainable unless your parents are ultra rich and will give you a 3 grand+ allowance. Only people with extreme physical or mental issues should ever consider this in the long run your world just shrinks. Hiding away never gets rid of anxiety it just closes the world off until even stepping outside your room gives you anxiety. The human body can only adapt it does not sustain if you close the world off even the most tiny stressers like basic small talk become the worst thing in the world its all relative.

Conclusion: I still don't feel better yet but every week I feel myself getting less anxious around people. Things like going to the gym don't produce any anxiety. The voices in my head telling me everyone is looking at me and judging me have also reduced. I realize now hiding away has only made things worse so I will do the exact opposite and see how that turns out.
@AutisticGymcel @uglymug2 @AscensionMan98 @Fxdzcki @Hiraeth @ChristianChad @Danish_Retard @fauxfox
@Thyroidoverrope33
 
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Life is a constant struggle that is the only law of life. Some people are disadvantaged from the start but that does not matter life is like a Lion and you are a Zebra whether you have a broken leg or you didn't eat that day the Lion is still going to eat the weakest Zebras. Life is indifferent to your excuses they do not justify your misery a broken man and a sane man still compete for the same shit you must find a way around your problems or die trying otherwise it is truly over.

By fair and foul means I intend to ascend my situation at any cost...
 
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Proud of you man.

Living in a shrunk world, as you say, quickly becomes indistinguishable from a prison cell
 
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Proud of you man.

Living in a shrunk world, as you say, quickly becomes indistinguishable from a prison cell
Its amazing how adaptable you are. Both to the lowest forms of existence and the highest levels of challenge. I reached levels so low I would not have believed I could go that low and then I still went lower.

But the upside is the lower you are the more dramatic changes you see when you start improving
 
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what is your job
 
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what is your job
Cafe job pretty much most of my coworkers are hot HS/College chicks and a few men here and there.
 
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I'm currently suffering from overstimulation. I'm too terminally online, I spend too much time on Twitter and Discord and I'm addicted to porn as well, I'm going to try NoFap with uglymug in November and going back to school as I'm also a neet right now, I think I also have an anxiety of being around people because when I fap, I tend to smell worse so I avoid people and it isn't as stimulating as being by myself alone. I spend too much time ruminating about my thoughts and ideas and wondering if I'm okay or not. I want to start my YouTube channel and do my art projects, but I don't have the motivation to do anything, and I know I need to get my priorities straight first.
 
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I'm currently suffering from overstimulation. I'm too terminally online, I spend too much time on Twitter and Discord and I'm addicted to porn as well, I'm going to try NoFap with uglymug in November and going back to school as I'm also a neet right now, I think I also have an anxiety of being around people because when I fap, I tend to smell worse so I avoid people and it isn't as stimulating as being by myself alone. I spend too much time ruminating about my thoughts and ideas and wondering if I'm okay or not. I want to start my YouTube channel and do my art projects, but I don't have the motivation to do anything, and I know I need to get my priorities straight first.
Yeah you gotta just get out of that funk no matter what just try spending time outside of your room. The less time you have the more likely you are to use it better.
 
Yeah you gotta just get out of that funk no matter what just try spending time outside of your room. The less time you have the more likely you are to use it better.
I try to go out for late-night walks and play with the neighborhoods cat that likes me 😊
 
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Its been 3 weeks since getting my job pretty much working 40 hour weeks.

Before getting this job I had agoraphobia and could barely leave my room to go to the gym let alone say more then a few words to people besides my parents. Everyday my condition got worse I would use porn to cope with the stress from this. Now my stress tolerance is way higher my job isn't extremely social but I am still talking to people for like 3 hours out of my shift usually and I constantly have to see people.

At first I felt like I was having a panic attack but management was very kind and always told me I did a good job. I even met a few coworkers with similar interests one of my coworks is into coding and said when I get better we can do a CS project. This is probably the best job I've ever worked at my old jobs everyone was burnt out 30 year old losers/drug addicts. This job is mainly college/HS students so I relate because everyone is either in their teens or early 20's. Also its 60% female still not completely comfortable around girls but the thought of talking to one no longer makes me want to die.

Honestly wish I had applied sooner. Being a neet is not sustainable unless your parents are ultra rich and will give you a 3 grand+ allowance. Only people with extreme physical or mental issues should ever consider this in the long run your world just shrinks. Hiding away never gets rid of anxiety it just closes the world off until even stepping outside your room gives you anxiety. The human body can only adapt it does not sustain if you close the world off even the most tiny stressers like basic small talk become the worst thing in the world its all relative.

Conclusion: I still don't feel better yet but every week I feel myself getting less anxious around people. Things like going to the gym don't produce any anxiety. The voices in my head telling me everyone is looking at me and judging me have also reduced. I realize now hiding away has only made things worse so I will do the exact opposite and see how that turns out.
@AutisticGymcel @uglymug2 @AscensionMan98 @Fxdzcki @Hiraeth @ChristianChad @Danish_Retard @fauxfox
@Thyroidoverrope33
While I detest being a work slave albeit a white collar one, neetdom is really bad for the psyche and will definitely aggravate existing conditions and give you new ones.

Good on you for getting out there.
 
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While I detest being a work slave albeit a white collar one, neetdom is really bad for the psyche and will definitely aggravate existing conditions and give you new ones.

Good on you for getting out there.
Really there isn't much choice. Most neets live in their parents house in their childhood bedroom overtime that has to kill most people inside it sure does for me.

If I had 3 grand a month allowance I would probably neet forever. I think being a wage slave is better then rotting but if I were in this job in a year or so I would probably rope since its so boring. So far thats the worst part just boredom of it. I learned how to do my job in 2 days working a job like that for years would make me go insane.
 
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Really there isn't much choice. Most neets live in their parents house in their childhood bedroom overtime that has to kill most people inside it sure does for me.

If I had 3 grand a month allowance I would probably neet forever. I think being a wage slave is better then rotting but if I were in this job in a year or so I would probably rope since its so boring. So far thats the worst part just boredom of it. I learned how to do my job in 2 days working a job like that for years would make me go insane.
Same bro. I for sure wouldn't work If I had a monthly stipend of like 3 grand. At least my job is challenging so makes the day go quickly.
 
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Ez because ur Chad.
 

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