even if i get back into another relationship, i won’t ever feel good about myself

[tato00_0]

do yk when a gf/bf tells you you’re the most handsome/best looking person in the world? not only does it piss me off because it’s just simply not true, but it also made me realize something. no matter how much reassurance i get, how much she tries to show me that she’s loyal, how good she treats me, how comforting her words are, i won’t ever be able to stop improving every little feature about my face and body, it’ll never be enough. even with the security and comfort that you’re supposed to have in a relationship, i won’t ever feel good about myself. I sometimes hate the fact that im even aware about this stuff because im still literally only in high school. i’m supposed to be enjoying my youth, not be dieting to get down to 10% body fat, be worried about my chin to philtrum ratio or how well my zygos align with my gonions or want to have the tip of my nose align with a projected chin.

i’m sure im not at all the only guy to have felt like this, it kinda js made me change my whole outlook on life idk.