EVERY BAD THING I COULD THINK COULD HAPPEN IN MY LIFE COMES TO FRUITION

[tim:(]

The past few years I’ve felt my life has been nothing but disappointment and boredom; getting blackpilled destroyed me. Seeing my oneitis get with a light skin and being light skin only has destroyed me. She’s moved away now; it's been nearly a year. She’s in Amsterdam. I’m typing this after a night out – no slays, just me wallowing in my own misery, seeing people my age at least get to experience having fun with foids, even if they are at best MTB. It is breaking my soul. I’ve softmaxed as best I could, but I’ve realised hardmaxxing is the only way. I hope you all ascend and escape this hellhole we call life; I really do, and to everyone on this forum trying to ascend, I truly do wish you the best.

 

[Gengar]

If she's in Amsterdam, you can hire me for 20 rupees and I can report back to you the activities she's partaking in. I'm just a train ride away from Amsterdam. What's your race, btw?

 

[tim:(]

If she's in Amsterdam, you can hire me for 20 rupees and I can report back to you the activities she's partaking in. I'm just a train ride away from Amsterdam. What's your race, btw?

My race is bottom of the finishing line

 

[Gengar]

My race is bottom of the finishing line

You're South Asian?

 

[tim:(]

You're South Asian?

Nope white North Atlantid pheno she was was half British and the rest South American and Spanish

 

[Vermilioncore]

At least you don’t have smoke stuck in your lungs

 

[Franco333]

The past few years I’ve felt my life has been nothing but disappointment and boredom; getting blackpilled destroyed me. Seeing my oneitis get with a light skin and being light skin only has destroyed me. She’s moved away now; it's been nearly a year. She’s in Amsterdam. I’m typing this after a night out – no slays, just me wallowing in my own misery, seeing people my age at least get to experience having fun with foids, even if they are at best MTB. It is breaking my soul. I’ve softmaxed as best I could, but I’ve realised hardmaxxing is the only way. I hope you all ascend and escape this hellhole we call life; I really do, and to everyone on this forum trying to ascend, I truly do wish you the best.

Fakecel

 

[tim:(]

At least you don’t have smoke stuck in your lungs

To be honest boy with the way my life is going I’d be better off dead I’ve had no fun life experiences so far last time I had a girlfriend was at 14 I’m 19 now never had any puss puss since

 

[tim:(]

Fakecel

I truly wish boy I truly wish

 

[Gengar]

Nope white North Atlantid pheno she was was half British and the rest South American and Spanish

Well either way, I hope your life gets better soon.

 

[Gengar]

To be honest boy with the way my life is going I’d be better off dead I’ve had no fun life experiences so far last time I had a girlfriend was at 14 I’m 19 now never had any puss puss since

Well, I'm 29 and I never had puss puss. Also, I like that you also say "puss puss." This means you're a stellar guy, and you are deserving of a cute girl.

 

[tim:(]

Well, I'm 29 and I never had puss puss. Also, I like that you also say "puss puss." This means you're a stellar guy, and you are deserving of a cute girl.

Well either way, I hope your life gets better soon.

Thank you my guy the same goes

 

[tim:(]

Btw @Gengar if your ever in around the city and you see a girl that looks like a fusion of Ana paulo rossio Brooke sheilds and phobe Tonkin with a big ass that’s the girl bro

 

[Gengar]

Thank you my guy the same goes

Thank you my brotha.

 

[Gengar]

Btw @Gengar if your ever in around the city and you see a girl that looks like a fusion of Ana paulo rossio Brooke sheilds and phobe Tonkin with a big ass that’s the girl bro

I barely go to Amsterdam, it's filled with tourists. But dang, idk what the girls look like that you mentioned but that last one. That's the one that makes me realize it's a big loss. I'm sorry to hear that.

 

[tim:(]

I barely go to Amsterdam, it's filled with tourists. But dang, idk what the girls look like that you mentioned but that last one. That's the one that makes me realize it's a big loss. I'm sorry to hear that.

Truly my guy and worst of all she came on to me first but I was to pussy too make a move and now two years later she’s gone I’ll never forget at our school graduation she wouldn’t stop coming up to me all night following me around she already had a light skin boyfriend so her friends cucked me now she’s moved to your country and I’m going there In a few months for my birthday if I see her that’s my holiday ruined

 

[tim:(]

I’ve already seen her insta following a bunch of light skins from Amsterdam she was genuinely the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen and almost everyone I know agreed which makes it worse

 

[tim:(]

So after this holiday it’s when I travel for my surgery’s I plan on having it all done by 21

 

[Funnyunenjoyer1]

If she's in Amsterdam, you can hire me for 20 rupees and I can report back to you the activities she's partaking in. I'm just a train ride away from Amsterdam. What's your race, btw?

20 rupees jfl

I'll do it for 15 shekels

 

[Gengar]

Truly my guy and worst of all she came on to me first but I was to pussy too make a move and now two years later she’s gone I’ll never forget at our school graduation she wouldn’t stop coming up to me all night following me around she already had a light skin boyfriend so her friends cucked me now she’s moved to your country and I’m going there In a few months for my birthday if I see her that’s my holiday ruined

Who are you going with? Well, I hope you will enjoy your time here and I hope you won't run into her because that'd ruin your day. And yes, I can relate to uhh, some fuck ups like that. Believe it or not but I recall someone in high school obviously liked me but I fucked it up because I was too insecure about myself. Different situation maybe, but same outcome.

 

[Gengar]

20 rupees jfl

I'll do it for 15 shekels

1 Israeli New Shekel equals 22,91 Indian Rupee

No shit you're doing it for 15 shekels.

 

[Funnyunenjoyer1]

1 Israeli New Shekel equals 22,91 Indian Rupee

No shit you're doing it for 15 shekels.

shhhh you don't need to know goyim

 

[tim:(]

Who are you going with? Well, I hope you will enjoy your time here and I hope you won't run into her because that'd ruin your day. And yes, I can relate to uhh, some fuck ups like that. Believe it or not but I recall someone in high school obviously liked me but I fucked it up because I was too insecure about myself. Different situation maybe, but same outcome.

I’m going with some friends and your situation was the very same as mine it’s a horrible experience to think back on

 

[Gengar]

I’m going with some friends and your situation was the very same as mine it’s a horrible experience to think back on

Indeed, that's why you should forget about it. In my case, the girl didn't have a big ass but she was even taller than me. She was an Amazonian cutie and I was too chickenshit to do anything. FML.

 

[tim:(]

Indeed, that's why you should forget about it. In my case, the girl didn't have a big ass but she was even taller than me. She was an Amazonian cutie and I was too chickenshit to do anything. FML.

It’s horrible my guy I wouldn’t wish this shit on my worst enemy most girls treat me like shit but this girl legit beautiful showed interest in me while now even MTB show indifference to me it’s breaks my soul surgery or death in my case i already have about 5k saved so hopefully I can atleast reach a women equivalent of 8/10 in real life to be honest could care less of what this site rates me

 

[HimmyButlerV2]

Believe it or not but I recall someone in high school obviously liked me but I fucked it up because I was too insecure about myself.

Damn really? Tell story. I thought you were a truecel.

 

[Gengar]

It’s horrible my guy I wouldn’t wish this shit on my worst enemy most girls treat me like shit but this girl legit beautiful showed interest in me while now even MTB show indifference to me it’s breaks my soul surgery or death in my case i already have about 5k saved so hopefully I can atleast reach a women equivalent of 8/10 in real life to be honest could care less of what this site rates me

You have to be careful about this surgery thing. Many people assume they will end up looking like chads and get depressed when reality hits them. So think long and hard before you decide to go for any surgery to save yourself from the same kind of experience. I have not seen your pictures so I can't even say if you need these surgeries or not but I am talking in general terms.

 

[Gengar]

Damn really? Tell story. I thought you were a truecel.

I am a truecel! And why do you want me to relive my painful memories?!

 

[HimmyButlerV2]

I am a truecel! And why do you want me to relive my painful memories?!

Because I'm a nosey curry

 

[Gengar]

Because I'm a nosey curry

Exactly. Well long story short, this cute girl from my high school seemed to be into me. I made a good impression on her and her friends, very casually. Then when I saw her, she was smiling at me from afar. Instead of approaching her, or reciprocating, I just ignored her totally and since that day she never once looked at me again. I thought it's maybe because I'm ethnic that she wouldn't like me anyway, and my HS oneitis had rejected me so I didn't think she'd like me. Well, I found her sister's Facebook page and her boyfriend was some swarthy ethnic. Just brutal, man. Her parents wouldn't have minded it, unlike my HS oneitis' parents who had moved to another city just because the previous city got flooded with ethnics. That's literally what my HS oneitis told me. It's brutal, man. I could have gotten a cute Amazonian gf. Later I found out she went to the United States so I'm sure she's been with some chads over there. It's over.

 

[tim:(]

You have to be careful about this surgery thing. Many people assume they will end up looking like chads and get depressed when reality hits them. So think long and hard before you decide to go for any surgery to save yourself from the same kind of experience. I have not seen your pictures so I can't even say if you need these surgeries or not but I am talking in general terms.

I’ve been rated MTN HMTM and HTN so surgery can hopefully improve me boy I hope so anyway

 

[Gengar]

I’ve been rated MTN HMTM and HTN so surgery can hopefully improve me boy I hope so anyway

I hope so too, then! Just don't expect to magically end up looking as a chad. That's what most people think and they find out that didn't happen so they will feel worse. Shoot for some realistic goals. Before you go for one.

 

[HimmyButlerV2]

Exactly. Well long story short, this cute girl from my high school seemed to be into me. I made a good impression on her and her friends, very casually. Then when I saw her, she was smiling at me from afar. Instead of approaching her, or reciprocating, I just ignored her totally and since that day she never once looked at me again. I thought it's maybe because I'm ethnic that she wouldn't like me anyway, and my HS oneitis had rejected me so I didn't think she'd like me. Well, I found her sister's Facebook page and her boyfriend was some swarthy ethnic. Just brutal, man. Her parents wouldn't have minded it, unlike my HS oneitis' parents who had moved to another city just because the previous city got flooded with ethnics. That's literally what my HS oneitis told me. It's brutal, man. I could have gotten a cute Amazonian gf. Later I found out she went to the United States so I'm sure she's been with some chads over there. It's over.

Yeah I feel you as well. Inaction has cock blocked me. I literally had an opportunity to go out with a foid alone recently, maybe it could have escalated, but I ignored her.

I thought about this once. If you go through high school, by sheer probability, would at least one girl like you? Well, the class is half girls, but obviously it won't be evenly distributed as a lot more girls will like the good looking guys. Though, at the same time, they don't just like the same guy throughout high school right? Teenagers are hormonal and moody, so their emotions and who they like are prone to change

Well, actually, I'll flip it around. Among all the girls you meet, what are the odds that at least one has liked you? I feel like that has to be pretty high, unless you are real truecel tier.

But anyway, that's not really the point, I got distraced

Yeah that sucks for you. But it is what is. Too late to go back and change it now. At least you have made peace with your incel status. At least take solace in the fact that she probably dreamt of taking your swarthy ethnic dick at some point or the other.

 

[Gengar]

Yeah I feel you as well. Inaction has cock blocked me. I literally had an opportunity to go out with a foid alone recently, maybe it could have escalated, but I ignored her.

I thought about this once. If you go through high school, by sheer probability, would at least one girl like you? Well, the class is half girls, but obviously it won't be evenly distributed as a lot more girls will like the good looking guys. Though, at the same time, they don't just like the same guy throughout high school right? Teenagers are hormonal and moody, so their emotions and who they like are prone to change

Well, actually, I'll flip it around. Among all the girls you meet, what are the odds that at least one has liked you? I feel like that has to be pretty high, unless you are real truecel tier.

But anyway, that's not really the point, I got distraced

Yeah that sucks for you. But it is what is. Too late to go back and change it now. At least you have made peace with your incel status. At least take solace in the fact that she probably dreamt of taking your swarthy ethnic dick at some point or the other.

Wow, a well-thought out reply from you. That's a new one! Sucks to hear inaction has cockblocked you too. It sucks. But hey it's better to not think about past experiences, we can't go back and change them anyway.

That said, yeah I think it's possible at least one girl liked you even if you're not gl. I am proof of this since I was bad looking and still I had at least one girl like me in that way. Sure there were others girls who liked me as a person but that was different and not like this at all. However this case was very rare.

But knowing someone liked me, or was close to liking me that way, well that's nice at least to know. I'm sure you feel the same way. Good luck in the future bhaijaan.

 

[HimmyButlerV2]

Wow, a well-thought out reply from you. That's a new one!

Brutal

Sucks to hear inaction has cockblocked you too. It sucks. But hey it's better to not think about past experiences, we can't go back and change them anyway.

This one was literally a fucking week ago or some shit hahaha. Yeah but whatever. I try not to think about what ifs like this, because my perspective is, if she really wanted it, she would have tried more. But then again I see some girls talking about how they are shy to approach guys, and I would be shy to approach a girl too, so idk.

That said, yeah I think it's possible at least one girl liked you even if you're not gl. I am proof of this since I was bad looking and still I had at least one girl like me in that way. Sure there were others girls who liked me as a person but that was different and not like this at all. However this case was very rare.

I think when you are in high school, it is most likely. Girls then are very hormonal and don't know what they want. If you seem cool or interesting or they have high proximity to you, they may start to like you for no real reason. Starting college age they grow up more, get exposed to more guys and experiences, and they grow out of that. So it is less likely for a girl to like you for no reason.
But also, if a girl does like you like that in high school, and you manage to date her which keeps the feelings consistent, they will probably change as she ages and gets exposed to more guys. So I guess it doesn't matter at the end of the day. No winning as an incel

But knowing someone liked me, or was close to liking me that way, well that's nice at least to know. I'm sure you feel the same way.

It is hard for me to even comprehend. Like, I have known for a fact that some girls have been physically attracted to me or liked me, but I am so far removed from that whole sexual "realm" that it seems incomprehensible to me. I literally cannot imagine myself with a girl

Good luck in the future bhaijaan.

You too.

Tbh I don't want a real relationship, ever, at least with my current mindset. I just want to peacefully enjoy life on my own.

 

[Gengar]

Brutal

Well, I should know better. It's been some time since you came back, you're not the same Himmy as before.

This one was literally a fucking week ago or some shit hahaha. Yeah but whatever. I try not to think about what ifs like this, because my perspective is, if she really wanted it, she would have tried more. But then again I see some girls talking about how they are shy to approach guys, and I would be shy to approach a girl too, so idk.

Oh, shoot. Well, you know that kind of thinking goes both ways, right? She was probably thinking, "If he really wanted it, he would have tried more."

I think when you are in high school, it is most likely. Girls then are very hormonal and don't know what they want. If you seem cool or interesting or they have high proximity to you, they may start to like you for no real reason. Starting college age they grow up more, get exposed to more guys and experiences, and they grow out of that. So it is less likely for a girl to like you for no reason.
But also, if a girl does like you like that in high school, and you manage to date her which keeps the feelings consistent, they will probably change as she ages and gets exposed to more guys. So I guess it doesn't matter at the end of the day. No winning as an incel

Yes, girls also have lower standards when they're in high school. You can get away with things you cannot get away with otherwise as an adult. Indeed, by the time they're in college, it's different. The dynamics just change. There's people that married their so-called "high school sweetheart," so not all is lost. However, this may be a thing of the past. Who knows.

It is hard for me to even comprehend. Like, I have known for a fact that some girls have been physically attracted to me or liked me, but I am so far removed from that whole sexual "realm" that it seems incomprehensible to me. I literally cannot imagine myself with a girl

Why do you think you're removed from this "realm" as you call it? There has to be a reason why.

You too.

Thank you.

Tbh I don't want a real relationship, ever, at least with my current mindset. I just want to peacefully enjoy life on my own.

Eh, I see. For me, it's a matter of life and death. If I do not enter a relationship, then I may just end up roping. Ah, I'll make a new thread about this and then log out of the forum.

 

[tim:(]

I hope so too, then! Just don't expect to magically end up looking as a chad. That's what most people think and they find out that didn't happen so they will feel worse. Shoot for some realistic goals. Before you go for one.

To be honest I’d be happy with being unanimously HTN according to this forum I don’t care for being a chad just anything that’s considered good looking in the eyes of a women I’d be happy with

 

[Gengar]

To be honest I’d be happy with being unanimously HTN according to this forum I don’t care for being a chad just anything that’s considered good looking in the eyes of a women I’d be happy with

Well, for women you don't need to be chad or even chadlite. Even MTN is enough. At that point, it's not just your looks, it's also your personality that plays a role. Keep that in mind!

 

[HimmyButlerV2]

Why do you think you're removed from this "realm" as you call it? There has to be a reason why.

A few things

I had the weirdest mindset for most of high school.
Even when I first started to develop attraction to girls, it wasn’t really that strong, and I didn’t want to actually date any girl. I thought of dating and sex as something for the future, when I am older, and that I am a kid now.
I also never really found any girls THAT attractive. Like when I see guys talking about stacies or 10/10s on here, I’m like yeah, they look good, but I’m not awestruck or anything. She’s not that special.

I also had some sort of weird complex about never expressing any sexual interest irl. Idk if this was some incel coping mechanism, or I was just weirdly high inhib with that, or what, but it contributed to it.

I also saw it as kinda “ascended” to not be into that stuff, I guess?
Maybe that contributed to it, I’m not sure. I was just a really weird kid so that started it, and of course not getting much experience through the first half of college just strengthened that.

 

[tim:(]

Well, for women you don't need to be chad or even chadlite. Even MTN is enough. At that point, it's not just your looks, it's also your personality that plays a role. Keep that in mind!

My personality has been fucked because of my child hood I need to ascend my guy to atleast the point where girls are happy enough to fuck without getting to know my personality sober

 

[Gengar]

A few things

I had the weirdest mindset for most of high school.
Even when I first started to develop attraction to girls, it wasn’t really that strong, and I didn’t want to actually date any girl. I thought of dating and sex as something for the future, when I am older, and that I am a kid now.
I also never really found any girls THAT attractive. Like when I see guys talking about stacies or 10/10s on here, I’m like yeah, they look good, but I’m not awestruck or anything. She’s not that special.

I also had some sort of weird complex about never expressing any sexual interest irl. Idk if this was some incel coping mechanism, or I was just weirdly high inhib with that, or what, but it contributed to it.

I also saw it as kinda “ascended” to not be into that stuff, I guess?
Maybe that contributed to it, I’m not sure. I was just a really weird kid so that started it, and of course not getting much experience through the first half of college just strengthened that.

It just means you don't put women on a pedestal and that's both a good and a bad thing. I know because I feel the same way, like yeah, women can look good and all that, but at the end of the day, she's "not that special." No one who gives you that "woah!!" factor. I'm the same way about not expressing sexual interest irl, I think it's both a coping mechanism and also just how we are as people. You may be some form of asexual, like demisexual or something. As cringe as it sounds.

My personality has been fucked because of my child hood I need to ascend my guy to atleast the point where girls are happy enough to fuck without getting to know my personality sober

That sucks to hear. Do you think you could work on it at least? And uh, yeah even at MTN you can make sure that happens. You just need to be really extroverted.

That's it lads, I'm going to log off now. I'll listen to some music and then I'll go to sleep. It's 5:11 AM here. Have a good night y'all.

 

[tim:(]

It just means you don't put women on a pedestal and that's both a good and a bad thing. I know because I feel the same way, like yeah, women can look good and all that, but at the end of the day, she's "not that special." No one who gives you that "woah!!" factor. I'm the same way about not expressing sexual interest irl, I think it's both a coping mechanism and also just how we are as people. You may be some form of asexual, like demisexual or something. As cringe as it sounds.

That sucks to hear. Do you think you could work on it at least? And uh, yeah even at MTN you can make sure that happens. You just need to be really extroverted.

That's it lads, I'm going to log off now. I'll listen to some music and then I'll go to sleep. It's 5:11 AM here. Have a good night y'all.

I think I could if I got enough attention off women without clubbing even now if a lot of girls showed interest I’d be very happy but one rejection would lead me straight to wanting surgery again so I think I’ll stick with it like I said if I can even get to HTN by harsh raters standards my looksmaxxing journey will be complete