RAITEIII
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Dear All,
I have almost never posted, but today I feel the need to share my pain with someone.anyone.as I have nobody to talk to about this in real life.
I recently broke up with my girlfriend, who - unfortunately - works with me every day. It was a pretty bitter break up. She is very pretty and extremely insecure, and I was not giving her enough attention / was not praising her enough / was too critical of her (according to her). Anyway, long story short, things had mellowed out and we were friends at work after 4-6 weeks of being cold to each other. Out of the blue, today, someone (?? Who knows who?) forwards me some emails and chats she has written to her new boyfriend and other friends. I read them, and they are largely making fun of me, my penis, how I am bad in bed, etc.
She laughs with him about how I have a small penis. I am 6.0 (varies from 5.9-6.1) BPEL, 4.5-6 EG. I am also 5'7 and have a small build. I never thought / believed that I had a particularly small penis, although I sometimes wished for a bigger one. Today I am the most insecure person in the world. I feel terrible, and feel crushed, as she was my first 'real' girlfriend. I also feel like I have a really tiny penis, and am even more annoyed because the chats include her talking about her new boyfriend has a 'big dick' and 'knows how to fuck' etc.
She laughs about how she hated sex with me because I never came (this part is true -- I am quite young, and she was only my second sexual relationship. I never felt fully comfortable with her, and was not fully comfortable having sex -- I felt awkward etc. -- And so could only come from blowjobs/handjobs; it also just didn't ever feel that good -- like it felt 'ok' but not mind blowing.not sure if this will be true with other girls I'm more comfortable with in the future too?). This was a sore point / point of insecurity for me. She aired this to her boyfriend and other friends. And laughed about it.
I'm not sure why I am telling everyone this on a PE board, but I guess I have nowhere else to turn right now. Any responses are welcome. I am sorry if this is an inappropriate place to post such a message, as it is only peripherally related to PE.
Speaking of PE, I have renewed my commitment to doing it. Perhaps for the wrong reasons, as I shouldn't let someone else determine my self worth. But today the issue seems all important to me. I don't want to be within the average range. I don't want anybody to ever make fun of me for this again, least of all the first person I ever trusted with myself and my body.
Thanks for reading, if you made it this far.
Bean
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I have almost never posted, but today I feel the need to share my pain with someone.anyone.as I have nobody to talk to about this in real life.
I recently broke up with my girlfriend, who - unfortunately - works with me every day. It was a pretty bitter break up. She is very pretty and extremely insecure, and I was not giving her enough attention / was not praising her enough / was too critical of her (according to her). Anyway, long story short, things had mellowed out and we were friends at work after 4-6 weeks of being cold to each other. Out of the blue, today, someone (?? Who knows who?) forwards me some emails and chats she has written to her new boyfriend and other friends. I read them, and they are largely making fun of me, my penis, how I am bad in bed, etc.
She laughs with him about how I have a small penis. I am 6.0 (varies from 5.9-6.1) BPEL, 4.5-6 EG. I am also 5'7 and have a small build. I never thought / believed that I had a particularly small penis, although I sometimes wished for a bigger one. Today I am the most insecure person in the world. I feel terrible, and feel crushed, as she was my first 'real' girlfriend. I also feel like I have a really tiny penis, and am even more annoyed because the chats include her talking about her new boyfriend has a 'big dick' and 'knows how to fuck' etc.
She laughs about how she hated sex with me because I never came (this part is true -- I am quite young, and she was only my second sexual relationship. I never felt fully comfortable with her, and was not fully comfortable having sex -- I felt awkward etc. -- And so could only come from blowjobs/handjobs; it also just didn't ever feel that good -- like it felt 'ok' but not mind blowing.not sure if this will be true with other girls I'm more comfortable with in the future too?). This was a sore point / point of insecurity for me. She aired this to her boyfriend and other friends. And laughed about it.
I'm not sure why I am telling everyone this on a PE board, but I guess I have nowhere else to turn right now. Any responses are welcome. I am sorry if this is an inappropriate place to post such a message, as it is only peripherally related to PE.
Speaking of PE, I have renewed my commitment to doing it. Perhaps for the wrong reasons, as I shouldn't let someone else determine my self worth. But today the issue seems all important to me. I don't want to be within the average range. I don't want anybody to ever make fun of me for this again, least of all the first person I ever trusted with myself and my body.
Thanks for reading, if you made it this far.
Bean
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