Extreme stress from how people treat me irl, I feel like an outcast

[Emerq]

ik DNR.. but I felt like sharing ​

Just situations that make me sick to my stomach how dehumanizing they are

I'm working out, making money, studying full-time at college, and practicing ice hockey, I also take a lot of care into my appearance yet where I live people are really aggressive towards me, no matter how well-mannered or soft spoken I am.

I haven't even slept although I will soon but I feel so traumatized I don't know how to heal anymore

Spoiler: Stressful Situations

Riding an e-bike road rage (a few hours ago today)
I was riding in the painted bike lane near the sidewalk while doing DoorDash, giving cars plenty of space. One black teenager in the passenger seat in a damaged car rolled down the window and yelled slurs at me to get off the road.

Rude apartment receptionist
I went to pick up a package at my apartment. The staff are always friendly, but this different older receptionist was very aggressive with me.

I was patiently waiting at the desk while she organized packages. She suddenly said in a lecturing tone:
"If you don't speak up how am I supposed to know you're there???"

Then the next day, I asked for a package and pointed with my finger at the box on the shelf, and she pointed her finger in front of my face pointing at me, and I said " huh? " " im sorry, I meant to point at the package "

Walking home from college
I was walking out of class leaving the campus, and this guy 50 feet away stopped to put on his gloves, he was blocking the sidewalk so I moved on the street pavement asides to pass him, and he shouts " HEY STOP WALKING LIKE A COWBOY WALK NORMALLY " in an extremely aggressive shouting tone

Class forming groups and I end up all alone
The teacher out of nowhere said for everyone to get in groups, and everyone ran towards each other, even the overweight guys with acne were picked over me, and I ended up alone so I just used my laptop until the class ended.

Now all of that was negative and people might hate me, but I made good money working that I can save on some surgeries or just saving in general, and I'm lean bulking rn.

Everywhere I go people treat me the same, if I had a camera on as a POV I feel like I could express how it truly looks

 

[jizargo]

When i walk out in public everyone steps aside and bows to me

 

[i cant lie cant lie]

I was riding in the painted bike lane near the sidewalk while doing DoorDash, giving cars plenty of space. One black teenager in the passenger seat in a damaged car rolled down the window and yelled slurs at me to get off the road.

Niggermania.club

 

[i cant lie cant lie]

Niggermania.club

Shit sounds like its straight out niggermania fuel

 

[Emerq]

When i walk out in public everyone steps aside and bows to me

life when you are good looking

people prob treat me like garbage because I don't look harmful or threatening at all, I have feminine low dimorphism and when I moved to this college flying and getting an apartment here I thought I'd feel welcome in the city that I was born

or this city is legit js full of miserable ppl

cortisol is spiking so hard rn I need to lay in grass and breathe asap

 

[spongebobsex]

ik DNR.. but I felt like sharing ​

Just situations that make me sick to my stomach how dehumanizing they are

I'm working out, making money, studying full-time at college, and practicing ice hockey, I also take a lot of care into my appearance yet where I live people are really aggressive towards me, no matter how well-mannered or soft spoken I am.

I haven't even slept although I will soon but I feel so traumatized I don't know how to heal anymore

Spoiler: Stressful Situations

Riding an e-bike road rage (a few hours ago today)
I was riding in the painted bike lane near the sidewalk while doing DoorDash, giving cars plenty of space. One black teenager in the passenger seat in a damaged car rolled down the window and yelled slurs at me to get off the road.

Rude apartment receptionist
I went to pick up a package at my apartment. The staff are always friendly, but this different older receptionist was very aggressive with me.

I was patiently waiting at the desk while she organized packages. She suddenly said in a lecturing tone:
"If you don't speak up how am I supposed to know you're there???"

Then the next day, I asked for a package and pointed with my finger at the box on the shelf, and she pointed her finger in front of my face pointing at me, and I said " huh? " " im sorry, I meant to point at the package "

Walking home from college
I was walking out of class leaving the campus, and this guy 50 feet away stopped to put on his gloves, he was blocking the sidewalk so I moved on the street pavement asides to pass him, and he shouts " HEY STOP WALKING LIKE A COWBOY WALK NORMALLY " in an extremely aggressive shouting tone

Class forming groups and I end up all alone
The teacher out of nowhere said for everyone to get in groups, and everyone ran towards each other, even the overweight guys with acne were picked over me, and I ended up alone so I just used my laptop until the class ended.

Now all of that was negative and people might hate me, but I made good money working that I can save on some surgeries or just saving in general, and I'm lean bulking rn.

Everywhere I go people treat me the same, if I had a camera on as a POV I feel like I could express how it truly looks

I thought my day was bad with everybody ignoring my gaze especially Asian foids looking down. I got stressed out so much I almost wasted munyun on some Asian hooker

 

[Dr. Mog]

people are really aggressive towards me, no matter how well-mannered or soft spoken I am

This right here is the issue. Don’t be. You don’t need to get into fights but look like you can if you wanted to. It takes time to develop that deep internal confidence. The basics would be talk slow, have slower body language movements. If somebody’s talking to you keep your eye contacted with them to make sure “I’m watching what you are saying” signal.

I have made multiple threads for people like you in the moneymaxxing section. You are not alone.

You can start reading this for starters -

https://looksmax.org/threads/start-disgustmaxxing.1914763/

The world doesn’t respect The Kind anymore son. Shape yourself by mirroring with the environment you are in.