Crimson
If only you knew how bad really things are
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basically the title, don't care if you read this I just want to get this out.
Short story, dad never gave a fuck about me EVER, he was 7+ in looks so all his life he just slayed pussy and spend all of his dad+inheritance money (+200k $, I wish I was lying), never worked, had me and my other 2 brothers at his late 40s, mom, (Becky for visualization) 35 when she had me and my twin, fatherless and feminist.
Older brother always looked good because lean+pretty boy face and good at playing football, top tier childhood, still slaying to this day, dad's favourite (to the point he just wanted the custody of him, didn't care about me or my other brother) even with what I'm about to say.
Now, fast forward to today, I'm 20 my dad is 69, older brother shorter and uglier than me, still with a hot gf and good social circle.
Dad's money run out (surprise surprise), moved back with mother because she still loves him (even though won't admit it)
My dad literally became useless, can't make money, old, fat and disliked by everybody in my family.
Today I'm eating lunch, alone as always, dad comes in the kitchen, "Son:are you okay?"
I basically tell this but 20x the lenght wanting about being picked on, insecurities, and trauma from never feeling loved and even telling him my struggles with women since childhood.
"Son, I treated you badly I didn't knew what I was doing" starts crying like a baby while I'm getting ready for work, (yes I'm in college, yes I'm in debt)
"You needed me and I was never the father a child would need" basically said everything in my life is his fault and still bitching about something he knows he cannot fix
"What will you tell your children about me? Do you remember your childhood fondly" all this shit getting told to me every day of the week because he can't get a job so he is always home.
Even when I went to talk to him for "advice" he just keeps bringing that thing, EVERY DAY.
Older bro just saying shit to me like
"You know your only problem is your confidence, why are you trying so hard and dating women way below your league?"
My life just is work (to try to work again 20+ to get a house)and being reminded of childhood trauma every chance.
Fucking hate life, everything, just feel powerless and devoid, third world country also doesn't help either.
Anyways, just wanted to let it all out, thanks for reading faggots
Short story, dad never gave a fuck about me EVER, he was 7+ in looks so all his life he just slayed pussy and spend all of his dad+inheritance money (+200k $, I wish I was lying), never worked, had me and my other 2 brothers at his late 40s, mom, (Becky for visualization) 35 when she had me and my twin, fatherless and feminist.
Older brother always looked good because lean+pretty boy face and good at playing football, top tier childhood, still slaying to this day, dad's favourite (to the point he just wanted the custody of him, didn't care about me or my other brother) even with what I'm about to say.
Now, fast forward to today, I'm 20 my dad is 69, older brother shorter and uglier than me, still with a hot gf and good social circle.
Dad's money run out (surprise surprise), moved back with mother because she still loves him (even though won't admit it)
My dad literally became useless, can't make money, old, fat and disliked by everybody in my family.
Today I'm eating lunch, alone as always, dad comes in the kitchen, "Son:are you okay?"
I basically tell this but 20x the lenght wanting about being picked on, insecurities, and trauma from never feeling loved and even telling him my struggles with women since childhood.
"Son, I treated you badly I didn't knew what I was doing" starts crying like a baby while I'm getting ready for work, (yes I'm in college, yes I'm in debt)
"You needed me and I was never the father a child would need" basically said everything in my life is his fault and still bitching about something he knows he cannot fix
"What will you tell your children about me? Do you remember your childhood fondly" all this shit getting told to me every day of the week because he can't get a job so he is always home.
Even when I went to talk to him for "advice" he just keeps bringing that thing, EVERY DAY.
Older bro just saying shit to me like
"You know your only problem is your confidence, why are you trying so hard and dating women way below your league?"
My life just is work (to try to work again 20+ to get a house)and being reminded of childhood trauma every chance.
Fucking hate life, everything, just feel powerless and devoid, third world country also doesn't help either.
Anyways, just wanted to let it all out, thanks for reading faggots