Fck man, i miss the time that i never had.

[KD6Imp33]

All my years wasted so far, thanks to psychological shit.
Only cope i got is "muh psychological growth".
Idk, maybe there is more to life.
It is said "better late than never", coming from people who made it out of depression.
I think atleast i got learned with some guidlines for my life.

 

[Acquiescence]

I just want the pain to stop atp but also don’t want to rope

Impossible

 

[KD6Imp33]

I just want the pain to stop atp but also don’t want to rope

Impossible

I numbed the pain with marihuana, but it's really nothing going on in my life. Numbed into oblivion, doing nothing.
All i do is watch videos and listen to music, mostly trance.
They have some invented trance music, that is much stronger when you're high.
Even using the proper color for their hypnosis music, which is purple.
Purple is assoziated with the color of dissoziation/ or daydreaming.
Here, example:


Here is one where a "purple lense" is used, so most pictures that you see have a purple undertone.


Here at min 2, there is "mirroring" found but can also be known as duality, or split, which is used when describing a brain picture.
Brain picture (cut in half/ split) is also known to look similar to a butterfly, which is why it's used in MK-Ultra - Project Monarch as a symbol for split personality. It's also what people with a butterfly tattoo are known for.


I found a woman with a butterfly tattoo all over here face and neck on youtube, in the video she says she has 6 or 7 personalities.
And says that they have a different meaning to her than what i said above. She also got a little agressive when i told her that about brainwashing and Project Monarch.
Definetely one of the uncomfortable truth's.
I could dox her, but ... she's on youtube anyway....
Don't want to associate her face with my thread.

In this video they use purple and butterfly imaging:


"muh noticing continues"
So if you're bored and got nothing going on, smoke weed and chill for as long as you want. But i advise to do it alone if you tend to daydream and especially if you're depressed and dissoziate. Because with this music, you can really fall into trance. Which can be healing, when used properly.
But weed can also strengthen Paranoia, so, better don't take too much.
So if you have much crap/ pain in life, better use weed than alcohol to @NumbThePain .
Alcohol would be one of the worst things to start, speaking out of experience.
But sport is of course the best medicine, where you just fight through the pain.

 

[lowtiersubhuman]

All my years wasted so far, thanks to psychological shit.
Only cope i got is "muh psychological growth".
Idk, maybe there is more to life.
It is said "better late than never", coming from people who made it out of depression.
I think atleast i got learned with some guidlines for my life.

Huh

 

[redaraln]

All my years wasted so far, thanks to psychological shit.
Only cope i got is "muh psychological growth".
Idk, maybe there is more to life.
It is said "better late than never", coming from people who made it out of depression.
I think atleast i got learned with some guidlines for my life.

I remember jerking off 9 times a day when I was 11, fucked up my social skills and health

 

[kisslessvirgin]

it gets better

 

[KD6Imp33]

I remember jerking off 9 times a day when I was 11, fucked up my social skills and health

Same here man, i used to skip over half a schoolyear , just to be home alone and jerk off to porn on VHS cassettes, which i recorded at night time when everybody was sleeping.