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GabachoCopium
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@fentanyl
I’ve been pondering over my experience in this community and it’s been really hard for me. It feels like every time I attempt to engage, I’m continuously met with negativity. It appears as if I am being misunderstood or even rejected regardless of how much kindness and positivity I try to show.
To me, the environment here has become overwhelming in a way that is detrimental to my mental health and emotional stability. Most times, I feel like an alien who is not wanted by everyone else and no one sees things from my angle of perspective. Sometimes, it is too difficult to shake off the idea that someone out there might be judging me unfairly or criticizing me despite all that I do to be kind.
I don’t know what could have engendered such a response but the belligerence that is observable makes me think twice about belonging here. It feels as though people have already passed their verdicts on who they think I am , and with every other interaction ,I feel more isolated and unwanted.
You people also keep on making fun of my ethnicity because I'm an Indian and try to embarrass me for it even tho it wasn't my choice to be born Indian and I haven't done anything wrong
Nowadays, I’m seriously contemplating leaving because it seems like my presence may be annoying. In case that would mean being a source of negativity for some people then maybe I should just leave for the sake of my mental health because this is the only server I rot in .