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hi all. I am a long time lurker. I found this space from Reddit. Ir took me a long time but eventually The cope ran dry and I “joined”
Inceldom, explicitly.
I think it’s over
And there’s no point wasting more energy and spirit in thinking a way out
I’ve been thinking for a whole year.
I was born with key disadvantages
A deformed skull, a dwarf body, general ugliness,
I was raised in a way that destroyed my Vision and my skull.
I failed socially.
I had my spirit eaten up by the world
I coped away my teen years in a tiny room reading naruto fanfictions and browsing r/exmuslim lol.
I went through a horrifying experience
My elder sister(mid thirties) bullied me for years(16-22)
Cursing, swearing, screaming, nonstop for years. Never felt comfortable in my own house since age 16. But I never said anything back. I was really bluepilled and believed saying or doing anything to a woman is the cardinal sin.
Then she brought her boyfriend and they had loud sex in the house all night next to my room for ages. I still hear the sickening sex noises in my head.
The sheer disrespect of it crushed me
The whole family turned against me when I tried to JUST complain about. It.
When my cuck father and older brother were shouting me down for it, that sister was standing behind him. Mocking me. She laughed and pointed out. The whole family is against you, and did a dance in glee.
I was so horrified by this turn of events. I wished death on her day after day
I spotted my dad crying in the living room
I heard him begging my mom to leave him with “some dignity”
Meaning. He does not want his daughter’s boyfriend to sleep over at the house. My mom firmly told him no, and to have compassion for his daughter.
So my father agreed with my view deep down. And yet he barked at me like a dog just because my mother and sisters were watching.
He watches Ertugrul and other Muslim warrior dramas a lot. lol. They weren’t cucks like you.
I tried to get a Job. I needed money.
My mother banned me from applying for jobs. Banned me from buying a motorcycle (with a loan, not even her money ).
There’s no point buying a car. I could learn it by just practising for a few hours I’m sure. But it’s illegal without a licensed passenger. Everything is fucking illegal in the UK man
Banned me from going out for walks.
They still bought me food . I should mention that though I don’t want to. Fuck them
I try to avoid being seen by my family the whole, entire 2024 I didn’t leave my room exvept at night to eat whatever I could. I didn’t want to end up seeing my sister and her boyfriend having sex in the house. I keep my room’s fan on full to drown out their noises
I still lost 6kg.
I’m 69kg. naturally 75kg.
mom and dad also threatened ro
Kick me out of the house if I ever said anything to my sister again. My mother gave my dad a stern talking
To and convinced him to side against me and with my sister
But as I’m technically penniless, and how expensive UK housing is. I chose to stay cucked and defeated in this house.
I fucked up.
I have no friends to help me guard the scraps of dignity. I realise now
I watched this YouTube video by a lion whisperer, Dean Schneider. He talked about a social instinct in Lions. When they’re hungry, they become much more social and friendly. Because they need to be together if they are to hunt properly.
Similarly. In me and us. I realised how
Badly I wanted friends when I was getting bullied and screwed.
Sub5s make friends with each other. So that we can help each other guard the last scrap of dignity we have left, against Chad and foid.
I got cucked by my own family
I have a gigantic gap in employment history
There’s no cheap place to live in in the UK.
I’m 22. Soon to be 23.
I can’t cope with it anymore. I’m glad I discovered blackpill
Cuase I felt it returned some of the sentience bluepilled society stole from me.
I’m ageing. Friendless. Deformed.
moneyless and doomed in the Job Market. It never even began. It really didn’t begin.
I did have strong academic ability. I scored in the top few hundred of the whole country(5mil students) in the GCSEs.
That’s my only W in life.
The rest is a pile of Ls, cuck incidents, humiliation. 10 years of that
Now it’s 2025
Still the same situation
I’m partially blind. Deformed. Penniless. Jobless. Friendless. Completely dependent on family who hate and humiliate and cuck me. And they realised I’ve finally started to hate them back.
I don’t want advices I’m sure I’ve already banged my head against these problems in a thorough way and there’s no solution
This is a declaration of defeat.
I lose against life. I can’t cope anymore with the money situation and all the years of Humiliation.
Even the girls at school weren’t as horrible to me as my sister, and the rest of this family.
I had lots of friends as a kid but that’s ancient history by now. Looking back I can’t believe there was a time I was a confident talker and brave in a fight.
But a decade of sub5 treatment, loneliness’s and then getting cucked by my family, and then getting my employment prospects destroyed by my family,
These things together eroded the courage my kid self built
In a Muslim Pakistani family I never thought I’d go through a situation like this.
But the signs were there
My dad is literally bald indian janitor meme irl. I was actually balding at 16 myself but finasteride saved my hair
Fun fact. My mom once told me to change her iPhone’s wallpaper. By accident, my thumb hit a random image and it was just a candid pic of my dad turning to looked at something.
She snarled in such disgust and cringe and told me to change it to something else immediately! I instantly remembered Blackpill.
My father is a subhuman, friendless cuck like me
So It was Genetic destiny but I am really happy I found blackpill . It taught me the wrongs of worshipping women the way my father and brother do and it was only thanks to lurking here I gained the courage to even try and speak against my sister and her boyfriend but I lost in the end as I always do with everything
I think this is the end now.
I’m going to Kill myself soon.
I can still hang on if I really want to
There’s just no point. I haven’t had a friendship since I was in year 7. I just can’t keep going againsg impossible problems
My whole life is compilation of humiliation by women, awkward moments, and my friends keep distancing themselves from me as I lower their SMV by proximity. We had so much fun together but they didn’t want me in group photos on Instagram . I got angry and insecure and eventually they got girlfriends and I didn’t and they cut me off.
I don’t even have the normal Copes
I post this from last megabytes of cellular data I got left lol.
I’m not fcuking lazy.
I would happily work a job. I tried getting one in 2023. permission denied by mom.
Tried in 2024. permission denied
Just stay dependent on us, so we can bully you theory
And the whole time my sister gives detailed speeches on how much. Food I eat and how I need to work
Im so done
This is such a badly written note
It’s just my emotional diarrhea
Sigh
Inceldom, explicitly.
I think it’s over
And there’s no point wasting more energy and spirit in thinking a way out
I’ve been thinking for a whole year.
I was born with key disadvantages
A deformed skull, a dwarf body, general ugliness,
I was raised in a way that destroyed my Vision and my skull.
I failed socially.
I had my spirit eaten up by the world
I coped away my teen years in a tiny room reading naruto fanfictions and browsing r/exmuslim lol.
I went through a horrifying experience
My elder sister(mid thirties) bullied me for years(16-22)
Cursing, swearing, screaming, nonstop for years. Never felt comfortable in my own house since age 16. But I never said anything back. I was really bluepilled and believed saying or doing anything to a woman is the cardinal sin.
Then she brought her boyfriend and they had loud sex in the house all night next to my room for ages. I still hear the sickening sex noises in my head.
The sheer disrespect of it crushed me
The whole family turned against me when I tried to JUST complain about. It.
When my cuck father and older brother were shouting me down for it, that sister was standing behind him. Mocking me. She laughed and pointed out. The whole family is against you, and did a dance in glee.
I was so horrified by this turn of events. I wished death on her day after day
I spotted my dad crying in the living room
I heard him begging my mom to leave him with “some dignity”
Meaning. He does not want his daughter’s boyfriend to sleep over at the house. My mom firmly told him no, and to have compassion for his daughter.
So my father agreed with my view deep down. And yet he barked at me like a dog just because my mother and sisters were watching.
He watches Ertugrul and other Muslim warrior dramas a lot. lol. They weren’t cucks like you.
I tried to get a Job. I needed money.
My mother banned me from applying for jobs. Banned me from buying a motorcycle (with a loan, not even her money ).
There’s no point buying a car. I could learn it by just practising for a few hours I’m sure. But it’s illegal without a licensed passenger. Everything is fucking illegal in the UK man
Banned me from going out for walks.
They still bought me food . I should mention that though I don’t want to. Fuck them
I try to avoid being seen by my family the whole, entire 2024 I didn’t leave my room exvept at night to eat whatever I could. I didn’t want to end up seeing my sister and her boyfriend having sex in the house. I keep my room’s fan on full to drown out their noises
I still lost 6kg.
I’m 69kg. naturally 75kg.
mom and dad also threatened ro
Kick me out of the house if I ever said anything to my sister again. My mother gave my dad a stern talking
To and convinced him to side against me and with my sister
But as I’m technically penniless, and how expensive UK housing is. I chose to stay cucked and defeated in this house.
I fucked up.
I have no friends to help me guard the scraps of dignity. I realise now
I watched this YouTube video by a lion whisperer, Dean Schneider. He talked about a social instinct in Lions. When they’re hungry, they become much more social and friendly. Because they need to be together if they are to hunt properly.
Similarly. In me and us. I realised how
Badly I wanted friends when I was getting bullied and screwed.
Sub5s make friends with each other. So that we can help each other guard the last scrap of dignity we have left, against Chad and foid.
I got cucked by my own family
I have a gigantic gap in employment history
There’s no cheap place to live in in the UK.
I’m 22. Soon to be 23.
I can’t cope with it anymore. I’m glad I discovered blackpill
Cuase I felt it returned some of the sentience bluepilled society stole from me.
I’m ageing. Friendless. Deformed.
moneyless and doomed in the Job Market. It never even began. It really didn’t begin.
I did have strong academic ability. I scored in the top few hundred of the whole country(5mil students) in the GCSEs.
That’s my only W in life.
The rest is a pile of Ls, cuck incidents, humiliation. 10 years of that
Now it’s 2025
Still the same situation
I’m partially blind. Deformed. Penniless. Jobless. Friendless. Completely dependent on family who hate and humiliate and cuck me. And they realised I’ve finally started to hate them back.
I don’t want advices I’m sure I’ve already banged my head against these problems in a thorough way and there’s no solution
This is a declaration of defeat.
I lose against life. I can’t cope anymore with the money situation and all the years of Humiliation.
Even the girls at school weren’t as horrible to me as my sister, and the rest of this family.
I had lots of friends as a kid but that’s ancient history by now. Looking back I can’t believe there was a time I was a confident talker and brave in a fight.
But a decade of sub5 treatment, loneliness’s and then getting cucked by my family, and then getting my employment prospects destroyed by my family,
These things together eroded the courage my kid self built
In a Muslim Pakistani family I never thought I’d go through a situation like this.
But the signs were there
My dad is literally bald indian janitor meme irl. I was actually balding at 16 myself but finasteride saved my hair
Fun fact. My mom once told me to change her iPhone’s wallpaper. By accident, my thumb hit a random image and it was just a candid pic of my dad turning to looked at something.
She snarled in such disgust and cringe and told me to change it to something else immediately! I instantly remembered Blackpill.
My father is a subhuman, friendless cuck like me
So It was Genetic destiny but I am really happy I found blackpill . It taught me the wrongs of worshipping women the way my father and brother do and it was only thanks to lurking here I gained the courage to even try and speak against my sister and her boyfriend but I lost in the end as I always do with everything
I think this is the end now.
I’m going to Kill myself soon.
I can still hang on if I really want to
There’s just no point. I haven’t had a friendship since I was in year 7. I just can’t keep going againsg impossible problems
My whole life is compilation of humiliation by women, awkward moments, and my friends keep distancing themselves from me as I lower their SMV by proximity. We had so much fun together but they didn’t want me in group photos on Instagram . I got angry and insecure and eventually they got girlfriends and I didn’t and they cut me off.
I don’t even have the normal Copes
I post this from last megabytes of cellular data I got left lol.
I’m not fcuking lazy.
I would happily work a job. I tried getting one in 2023. permission denied by mom.
Tried in 2024. permission denied
Just stay dependent on us, so we can bully you theory
And the whole time my sister gives detailed speeches on how much. Food I eat and how I need to work
Im so done
This is such a badly written note
It’s just my emotional diarrhea
Sigh
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