For as long as i can remember ive always wanted to hurt someone

[awok]

I've wanted to hurt/kill/hospitalise someone, anyone, for as long as i can remember, I dont know when these thoughts started, and when and if they will stop. The things I think about daily would make your stomach churn and im not saying that to be edgy or "cool". I need serious, serious help and im so scared to tell my therapist about it incase I slip up with the wording and end up admitting to wanting to scalp someone or smth. I went to school today and the first thing I thought about when I walked into the building is how easy it would be to do a shooting there, the place is practically filled with unfit, untrained, and low iq individuals and staff. Its like nothing I've ever seen before, I've planned attacks before but never carried out my plans, and its not like I dont want to, I really, REALLY fucking want to. But im scared, and its only the fear of getting caught that stops me. Is this normal? Am I weird for this? Is there something deeply wrong inside of me? Or am I just an angsty teenager that cant control his thoughts. Genuine questions, thats why I labeled it serious.

Help me. Please.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated and ill try to respond to everyone.

Thank you in advance.

 

[isis_Bleach]

thats actually a good thing
mirin
i used to be nice and good hearted but world turned me evil

 

[fwhr glazer]

Fully normal and natural

 

[awok]

thats actually a good thing
mirin
i used to be nice and good hearted but world turned me evil

I dont think its a good thing at all. Im terrified of my own thoughts

 

[awok]

Fully normal and natural

Primal? Like goatis s3verige acid attack???!?@?@?@??@?@ so aura so cool so primal....

 

[isis_Bleach]

I dont think its a good thing at all. Im terrified of my own thoughts

u must be good-hearted somehow if youre scared at your evil impulse. just know hymans are carnivores so its kinda normal to feel like this.

 

[BeanCelll]

Well you're seeking help so I doubt it's too extreme, probably just heavy desensitization and spending time watching and reading deranged shit all day

 

[awok]

u must be good-hearted somehow if youre scared at your evil impulse. just know hymans are carnivores so its kinda normal to feel like this.

Its not just the thought of hurting someone, I plan it too, and i dont know wether thats as "normal" as you say it is.

 

[BeanCelll]

u must be good-hearted somehow if youre scared at your evil impulse

 

[yoyoyo123123]

Primal? Like goatis s3verige acid attack???!?@?@?@??@?@ so aura so cool so primal....

High test, your hunter gatherer dna is kicking in and you want to hunt the people at your school, just like goatis primal lifestyle

 

[awok]

Well you're seeking help so I doubt it's too extreme, probably just heavy desensitization and spending time watching and reading deranged shit all day

Yeah, I hope there's still good inside of me, I really do

 

[isis_Bleach]

Its not just the thought of hurting someone, I plan it too, and i dont know wether thats as "normal" as you say it is.

yea some peiple immediately get entire plan and graphic tortute scenes popping into their head. theres not rly a fix, it actually is training ur iq tovthink like this so dw.

 

[awok]

High test, your hunter gatherer dna is kicking in and you want to hunt the people at your school, just like goatis primal lifestyle

Are we still talking about this goatis guy? Come on guys hes boring!!1!111!1

 

[awok]

yea some peiple immediately get entire plan and graphic tortute scenes popping into their head. theres not rly a fix, it actually is training ur iq tovthink like this so dw.

It feels so suffocating though. I need these thoughts to stop. Its like a constant headache that never goes away no matter how much I smoke or how long I sleep.

 

[watah]

 

[awok]

Fuck me for expressing myself i guess🫩🫩🫩

 

[idealistsynth]

hmm not necessarily a terrible thing a lot of men are quite violent in nature

just don’t act on ur urges and pursue combat sports or weightlifting as an outlet

 

[awok]

hmm not necessarily a terrible thing a lot of men are quite violent in nature

just don’t act on ur urges and pursue combat sports or weightlifting as an outlet

Maybe, but being seen feels like my skin is burning off my body soooo, probably not for me

 

[idealistsynth]

Maybe, but being seen feels like my skin is burning off my body soooo, probably not for me

then post angry or racist comments on here like the rest of the loser incels jfl

 

[awok]

then post angry or racist comments on here like the rest of the loser incels jfl

Yeah man idk, its not like I have any reason to try, im facially screwed so going to the gym will be cope anyway, but it might be good for my mh so ill deffo take it into consideration for sure

 

[asdvek]

 

[awok]

Sigh. Didn't even see my face and still didnt take me serious.

 

[enlightful]

I've wanted to hurt/kill/hospitalise someone, anyone, for as long as i can remember, I dont know when these thoughts started, and when and if they will stop. The things I think about daily would make your stomach churn and im not saying that to be edgy or "cool". I need serious, serious help and im so scared to tell my therapist about it incase I slip up with the wording and end up admitting to wanting to scalp someone or smth. I went to school today and the first thing I thought about when I walked into the building is how easy it would be to do a shooting there, the place is practically filled with unfit, untrained, and low iq individuals and staff. Its like nothing I've ever seen before, I've planned attacks before but never carried out my plans, and its not like I dont want to, I really, REALLY fucking want to. But im scared, and its only the fear of getting caught that stops me. Is this normal? Am I weird for this? Is there something deeply wrong inside of me? Or am I just an angsty teenager that cant control his thoughts. Genuine questions, thats why I labeled it serious.

Help me. Please.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated and ill try to respond to everyone.

Thank you in advance.

Ur probably not in the right state of mind while having these kinds of thoughts tho