Forever broken

[Kavkaz777]

I was a pretty popular kid all throughout middle school and elementary

I used to be good at chess as a kid naturally, with very little training, winning gold medals and whatnot, to being the worst out of all of my friends

Everything I did my friends all caught up to me

I wanted to impress my coach at a tournament but I ended up losing miserably and he yelled at me in front of everyone and I almost wanted to cry

He praised all my other friends for winning and I felt very sad

A few months later, he passed away

And I was sad because I knew I could never make it up to him now since he’s gone and I felt like a loser and utter failure I felt like a side character while all my friends were the main characters


I had a tutor that would verbally abuse me and scream at me and do weird things

Plus on top of that my parents fighting and my dad being an alcoholic and yelling bad things to me

And the cherry on top, watching all your friends progress at school, watching their parents be proud of them and genuinely love them, while I couldn’t even do basic math problems and got the worst grades out of my class and almost failed fifth grade

Wich lead to horrible arguments at home that lead to bad things obviously


Now that I’m grown up I mog them all physically and genetically but it doesn’t change anything the damage has been done and I will always be alone

I will always be broken

 

[Kavkaz777]

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[Kavkaz777]

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