From depression is just in your head to trying not to kill myself

[depressionmaxxing]

What the fuck happend

 

[Deleted member 41006]

fear is the mind killer

 

[Saint Casanova]

Did you take the vaccine ?

 

[depressionmaxxing]

Did you take the vaccine ?

No, instead i got covid twice and lost 50% of my taste and smell forever

 

[Saint Casanova]

No, instead i got covid twice and lost 50% of my taste and smell forever

I think Covid has damaged me too, I feel different after it. I will be trying a solution to help though

 

[Deleted member 42240]

I think Covid has damaged me too, I feel different after it. I will be trying a solution to help though

Maybe the Jews weren't scamming us with the vaccine after all

 

[Saint Casanova]

Maybe the Jews weren't scamming us with the vaccine after all

Covid was a biological weapon mate. The vaccine is worse though

 

[depressionmaxxing]

I think Covid has damaged me too, I feel different after it. I will be trying a solution to help though

I knew god hated me when i told my friend all i want in life is to taste nice food and women. Now i have neither

 

[MoggerGaston]

No, instead i got covid twice and lost 50% of my taste and smell forever

depression can reduce the emotional intensity of taste and smell

 

[soulless_npc]

depression turns into demonic energy if you try to avoid it and then the demons in your head make you want to kill yourself that's why the solution is not to pretend they don't exist but learn how to integrate them and live with them on a day to day basis.

that's why so much of therapy is garbage it doesn't address jungian concepts which discuss the aspects of your person which are repressed and buried, and doing so is the same thing that causes "bipolar" mood swings and suicidal feelings. you need the whole package to feel unity within yourself.

 

[depressionmaxxing]

depression can reduce the emotional intensity of taste and smell

I barely remember my past, like there being a cloud in my head making me unable to think, i barely feel emotional connections, neither to smell and even most people

 

[wollet2]

No, instead i got covid twice and lost 50% of my taste and smell forever

me2 but they got altered to shit

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

I knew god hated me when i told my friend all i want in life is to taste nice food and women. Now i have neither

All this negative confirmation bias is the reason why you want to die

 

[The Grinch]

It could be worse. At least you’re not @Manletmachine

 

[wollet2]

depression can reduce the emotional intensity of taste and smell

covid just raped his olfactory nerves happened to me too

 

[depressionmaxxing]

depression turns into demonic energy if you try to avoid it and then the demons in your head make you want to kill yourself that's why the solution is not to pretend they don't exist but learn how to integrate them and live with them on a day to day basis.

that's why so much of therapy is garbage it doesn't address jungian concepts which discuss the aspects of your person which are repressed and buried, and doing so is the same thing that causes "bipolar" mood swings and suicidal feelings. you need the whole package to feel unity within yourself.

I never kept it a secret. I‘ve told people before what i feel and think. Sometimes i feel like i have voices in my head telling me to kill myself.
It just that my friends suck at talking about mental health, they end up saying barely anything. And i just feel like shit for opening up.

And i feel so fucking ashamed and exposed trying to tell them i hate myself. I‘ve tried everything to find a way out, i just can‘t win man

 

[depressionmaxxing]

me2 but they got altered to shit

My taste is so diffrent and plain now, fucking brutal

 

[depressionmaxxing]

All this negative confirmation bias is the reason why you want to die

All i get is negative feedback from everything i touch or talk to. Ofc i can‘t be happy or confident if all my life i‘ve experienced nothing but shit

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

All i get is negative feedback from everything i touch or talk to. Ofc i can‘t be happy or confident if all my life i‘ve experienced nothing but shit

And instead of using it as hustlingfuel to be better, you melt on a forum and even dedicate an account to continue complaining all day with a rainy beserk pfp and 8k posts

Throughout my past I (and 75% of org users) have probably went through traumatizing experiences as bad as or worse than you -- Difference is I used it as an excuse to work hard in every aspect of life. You used it to justify feeding yourself with negative thoughts daily, even making it your internet persona.

firstly stop with that "Ofc I can't be happy or confident bc of ____" That's the confirmation bias that's eating you alive.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

And instead of using it as hustlingfuel to be better, you melt on a forum and even dedicate an account to continue complaining all day with a rainy beserk pfp and 8k posts

Throughout my past I (and 75% of org users) have probably went through traumatizing experiences as bad as or worse than you -- Difference is I used it as an excuse to work hard in every aspect of life. You used it to justify feeding yourself with negative thoughts daily, even making it your internet persona.

firstly stop with that "Ofc I can't be happy or confident bc of ____" That's the confirmation bias that's eating you alive.

What have you been through bro?

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

What have you been through bro?

Don't want to leak my lore on a forum but I had it pretty bad

Poor family that recently migrated from Africa - then bunched up in one american home for a few years
Black in majority white neighborhood, prejudice and bullying wasn't too bad but it still was a setback
SA'd as a kid
Literal Subhuman from 6th grade to mid 11th grade - you should know what happens when you're ugly in school
<3.0 GPA semesters 9th - 10th
Robbed of my hard earned money as a kid from white school kids in middle school (300+)

some other stuff I'm not gonna say but there's more

Luckily I was blind to the prejudice at the time. I also had great social skills from elementary, athletic and High IQ

 

[depressionmaxxing]

And instead of using it as hustlingfuel to be better, you melt on a forum and even dedicate an account to continue complaining all day with a rainy beserk pfp and 8k posts

Throughout my past I (and 75% of org users) have probably went through traumatizing experiences as bad as or worse than you -- Difference is I used it as an excuse to work hard in every aspect of life. You used it to justify feeding yourself with negative thoughts daily, even making it your internet persona.

firstly stop with that "Ofc I can't be happy or confident bc of ____" That's the confirmation bias that's eating you alive.

I can‘t live with myself bro, there is no change or fuel to make

Don't want to leak my lore on a forum but I had it pretty bad

Poor family that recently migrated from Africa - then bunched up in one american home for a few years
Black in majority white neighborhood, prejudice and bullying wasn't too bad but it still was a setback
SA'd as a kid
Literal Subhuman from 6th grade to mid 11th grade - you should know what happens when you're ugly in school
<3.0 GPA semesters 9th - 10th
Robbed of my hard earned money as a kid from white school kids in middle school (300+)

some other stuff I'm not gonna say but there's more

Luckily I was blind to the prejudice at the time. I also had great social skills from elementary, athletic and High IQ

that is fucking brutal

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

Don't want to leak my lore on a forum but I had it pretty bad

Poor family that recently migrated from Africa - then bunched up in one american home for a few years
Black in majority white neighborhood, prejudice and bullying wasn't too bad but it still was a setback
SA'd as a kid
Literal Subhuman from 6th grade to mid 11th grade - you should know what happens when you're ugly in school
<3.0 GPA semesters 9th - 10th
Robbed of my hard earned money as a kid from white school kids in middle school (300+)

some other stuff I'm not gonna say but there's more

Luckily I was blind to the prejudice at the time. I also had great social skills from elementary, athletic and High IQ

Are you urkcel or do you have violent tendencties, there was another black on here in a white neiberhood who wanted to fight whites

 

[Freixel]

Why so suicidal bro?

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

I can‘t live with myself bro, there is no change or fuel to make

Definitely is. If I am improving w/ everything that happened YOU can mr. whitebrah

A benefit thing about being a male is the amount of opportunities to ascend SMV-wise. Once you get one (Mind/Intelligence, Money, Social Skills, Looks, Status, etc) right, it causes a chain effect -- causing an improvement all aspects of yourself in the long run.

But the first thing you need to get rid of your depressive thoughts and confirm bias. I don't have a cheat code as when I was depressed it was for a short period, but I can tell you what I did to start.

Progress is the distraction for your thoughts. Bible/God is too but idk if you're into spirituality

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

Are you urkcel or do you have violent tendencties, there was another black on here in a white neiberhood who wanted to fight whites

Idk what urkcel means but I only fought the whites and others when they attacked me first -- So when I pummeled them and stuffed dirt and grass in their mouth african style, I could claim self-defense and didn't get suspensions or expulsions on my record.

They were all intimidated by me bc I was black and athletic despite being subhuman.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

Idk what urkcel means but I only fought the whites and others when they attacked me first -- So when I pummeled them and stuffed dirt and grass in their mouth african style, I could claim self-defense and didn't get suspensions or expulsions on my record.

They were all intimidated by me bc I was black and athletic despite being subhuman.

Steve urkel
urkcel is black nerd that is high inhib and not violent

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

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Steve urkel
urkcel is black nerd that is high inhib and not violent

bro this is the dude they would tease me with and said I looked like him during my early years in HS I had the same haircut and some retarded glasses

I wasn't a violent ape though, I learned at an early age about emotional compression

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

bro this is the dude they would tease me with and said I looked like him during my early years in HS I had the same haircut and some retarded glasses

I wasn't a violent ape though, I learned at an early age about emotional compression

How many black guys were in your school/ ethnics?

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

How many black guys were in your school/ ethnics?

Majority of the schools I was in up until 7th grade was 70% white and about 14% blk -- rest were latinos and asians

 

[Klasik616]

depression can reduce the emotional intensity of taste and smell

Yeah it explains my lack of excitement to eat tasty food because all I do now is to avoid sugar, carbs and salt.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

Majority of the schools I was in up until 7th grade was 70% white and about 14% blk -- rest were latinos and asians

Crazy that steve urkel did that show nearly 35 years ago and people still get bullied for it. Brutal shit. I guess it helped blacks come off as less violent

 

[depressionmaxxing]

Definitely is. If I am improving w/ everything that happened YOU can mr. whitebrah

A benefit thing about being a male is the amount of opportunities to ascend SMV-wise. Once you get one (Mind/Intelligence, Money, Social Skills, Looks, Status, etc) right, it causes a chain effect -- causing an improvement all aspects of yourself in the long run.

But the first thing you need to get rid of your depressive thoughts and confirm bias. I don't have a cheat code as when I was depressed it was for a short period, but I can tell you what I did to start.

Progress is the distraction for your thoughts. Bible/God is too but idk if you're into spirituality

I‘ve been depressed since i was 16, im turning 20 now. When i say i hate myself, i don‘t mean that i lack friends, women or money, i lack looks height and whatever else.

Even if i ascend socially and get rich, i‘ll feel equally suicidal. Im unable to look at an mirrow or see a picture of myself. No front but you‘re black, you cannot see it the way i do

 

[depressionmaxxing]

Why so suicidal bro?

Looks, mental/family/social issues.
I don‘t wanna go to deep into it

 

[thegiganigga]

am i the only one who feels perfectly fine even after taking the vaccines matter of fact i haven’t got sick since 2019

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

I‘ve been depressed since i was 16, im turning 20 now. When i say i hate myself, i don‘t mean that i lack friends, women or money, i lack looks height and whatever else.

Even if i ascend socially and get rich, i‘ll feel equally suicidal. Im unable to look at an mirrow or see a picture of myself. No front but you‘re black, you cannot see it the way i do

So do you not think if you become wealthy or hardmaxx savings, you can then use that money to look good? This forum literally shows every surgery possible and different countries that do it for cheaper if you abuse 1st world bucks

I also don't understand how being black limits me from knowing what you go through ngl -- I also went through times for years on end where I avoided anything reflective

 

[depressionmaxxing]

So do you not think if you become wealthy or hardmaxx savings, you can then use that money to look good? This forum literally shows every surgery possible and different countries that do it for cheaper if you abuse 1st world bucks

I am doing hardmaxes, soon money wont be an issue either. Doing surgery doesn‘t mean ascending

 

[liberiangrimreaper]

I am doing hardmaxes, soon money wont be an issue either. Doing surgery doesn‘t mean ascending

surgery = likely facial improvements - and if you are getting cosmetic surgery done shouldn't you be optimistic since looks are your "main reason" of depression?
(i.e. "I really don't like how I look in the mirror, but it'll soon end -- I have surgeries soon)

To me it looks like you might have other things going in your mental other than looks that make you feel how you do.