Gengar
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According to male opinions, especially the ones from here, I'm an utter ethnic subhuman. But from now on their opinions don't matter to me. I have no desire to fuck your asshole since I'm straight so why the hell should I care? I don't anymore.
This mentality was part of the reason why I decided I should get female opinions on my looks, for once. So I asked a bunch of female strangers of all races and women I knew online to not hold back.
Man, their answers were so surprising that at the time I just thought they were trolling me. But now I realize there's a limit to trolling. Young women in real life seem to agree with them. I get attention; they look at me, they smile at me. Some went as far as to break the ice by trying to start a conversation with me. Complete strangers. Mostly cute white girls, by the way.
Non-white girls too, but at lesser rates. They often just keep it limited to making eye contact with me. Some smile. Nowadays I don't look at women because I'm just not interested although I can tell sometimes they're looking at me from the corner of my eyes, but I just ignore them.
Maybe it means nothing because they're just strangers. But girls I just see as online friends have expressed interest in me too. One says she would like to marry me if I would like that as well, another one said she would let me kiss her if I wanted to. I don't, but I really appreciated the offers nonetheless.
Truth of the matter is, I'm alone because I want to be alone. It took some time but I feel so content now. I'm no longer depressed because I am finally over the girl who married someone else. I mean, what was I thinking? Barge into her life suddenly and think she would go for me and forget about the person she liked? It wasn't realistic but I'm really glad I got it off of my chest after a long time.
I admit to feeling empty inside, but this is a good thing for me. I'm finally doing alright. I wish this girl the best, I'm happy for her and I know she's in good hands and that's all that matters to me. I'll find someone else someday. Just not now.
This mentality was part of the reason why I decided I should get female opinions on my looks, for once. So I asked a bunch of female strangers of all races and women I knew online to not hold back.
Man, their answers were so surprising that at the time I just thought they were trolling me. But now I realize there's a limit to trolling. Young women in real life seem to agree with them. I get attention; they look at me, they smile at me. Some went as far as to break the ice by trying to start a conversation with me. Complete strangers. Mostly cute white girls, by the way.
Non-white girls too, but at lesser rates. They often just keep it limited to making eye contact with me. Some smile. Nowadays I don't look at women because I'm just not interested although I can tell sometimes they're looking at me from the corner of my eyes, but I just ignore them.
Maybe it means nothing because they're just strangers. But girls I just see as online friends have expressed interest in me too. One says she would like to marry me if I would like that as well, another one said she would let me kiss her if I wanted to. I don't, but I really appreciated the offers nonetheless.
Truth of the matter is, I'm alone because I want to be alone. It took some time but I feel so content now. I'm no longer depressed because I am finally over the girl who married someone else. I mean, what was I thinking? Barge into her life suddenly and think she would go for me and forget about the person she liked? It wasn't realistic but I'm really glad I got it off of my chest after a long time.
I admit to feeling empty inside, but this is a good thing for me. I'm finally doing alright. I wish this girl the best, I'm happy for her and I know she's in good hands and that's all that matters to me. I'll find someone else someday. Just not now.
