Fuck life nothing is good but love and i fucked even that up

[phlitejfl]

i genuinely can’t find much reason to live anymore, like i think ascending might help but that doesn’t really even exist unless i blast and that could fuck up my fertility and the least i want in life is a good wife and family. my ex was a hoe and it fucked me up so bad and she still is, but the worst part is she’s better looking than me at the moment and i don’t know whether i’ll find another female who’s as good looking as her that i connect with. but how the fuck did i connect with such a hoe in the first place like honestly cunt i kant live this life it’s hell all i want is love but im stuck in a mtn body and fucked up my only relationship.