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Iron
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- Mar 11, 2020
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Youth is literally the most precious thing in existence and I am being fucking forced to LDAR. Supposed to work at a summer camp with tons of other my age and have a fucking blast and it’s gone. Supposed to go to fucking Canada on a hiking trip and it’s gone. College won’t happen as normal. The senior year of high school summer is supposed to be the best and it’s being fucked by something out of my control.
What the fuck do I care about any of this for anyway. Life is so fragile and there’s so many things to do, and I’m worrying about my fucking cheekbones and height for hours a day. I have logged 3 straight days of fucking rotting on here when I’m literally not going to do any of this shit. I’m not gonna get surgery, I’m not gonna do anything that justifies rotting on a form for hours for. All I need is a skincare routine and a tan and I can leave, but fucking social media addiction keeps me coming back. Just can’t get enough of the fucking red notification. I got into this shit as a way to cope with being sad, not even being ugly because I’m fucking not. But now all I can think about is fucking Chico or jaw bones or whatever the fuck you guys are taking about.
I would’ve left if it wasn’t for the best of section. I felt like I needed that info when I don’t, I wanted to be part of the club and now I’m fucking constantly looking at where the fuck I can post and how I can get my rep to 50 what the fuck.
I have started giving a shit about things I never have before. This shit is worsening NT I swear to god. I was fucking low inhib do wtf I want but now I’m trying to gauge everyone’s height and fucking eye area in the room no wonder everyone on this forum is fucking autistic.
This shit has changed me for the worse. I went from low inhib chadlite to a fucking autistic rot boy. I spend my time here instead of snapping friends or on discord, I’m literally becoming more autistic in every way from this place. I can’t stand it but I won’t fucking leave.
And at the end of the day I’m still rotting. Everyone’s still indoors, I can’t do typical youth shit. Fuck me. I need to leave.
Tldr don’t read it’s shit
What the fuck do I care about any of this for anyway. Life is so fragile and there’s so many things to do, and I’m worrying about my fucking cheekbones and height for hours a day. I have logged 3 straight days of fucking rotting on here when I’m literally not going to do any of this shit. I’m not gonna get surgery, I’m not gonna do anything that justifies rotting on a form for hours for. All I need is a skincare routine and a tan and I can leave, but fucking social media addiction keeps me coming back. Just can’t get enough of the fucking red notification. I got into this shit as a way to cope with being sad, not even being ugly because I’m fucking not. But now all I can think about is fucking Chico or jaw bones or whatever the fuck you guys are taking about.
I would’ve left if it wasn’t for the best of section. I felt like I needed that info when I don’t, I wanted to be part of the club and now I’m fucking constantly looking at where the fuck I can post and how I can get my rep to 50 what the fuck.
I have started giving a shit about things I never have before. This shit is worsening NT I swear to god. I was fucking low inhib do wtf I want but now I’m trying to gauge everyone’s height and fucking eye area in the room no wonder everyone on this forum is fucking autistic.
This shit has changed me for the worse. I went from low inhib chadlite to a fucking autistic rot boy. I spend my time here instead of snapping friends or on discord, I’m literally becoming more autistic in every way from this place. I can’t stand it but I won’t fucking leave.
And at the end of the day I’m still rotting. Everyone’s still indoors, I can’t do typical youth shit. Fuck me. I need to leave.
Tldr don’t read it’s shit
