Genetic determinism is destroying me

[Prøphet]

Nearly every mistake I made and limitation that blocked me from the life I want, all the ruined opportunities and relationships, it all stems from the deformities and defective dna I was conceived with. I can’t help but see the futility in everything now. If my eyes worked properly and weren’t permanently crossed I would have turned out a completely opposite person with a completely different life. If my neural wiring formed properly instead of neurodivergent I would also probably be somewhere completely different right now instead of living in constant isolation and shame and self hatred. I didn’t choose to live this life of stagnation and giving up and pain, I was destined for it. Sometimes the burden feels so heavy and unfair I want to cry just at the thought of it. You have no idea how much it tears me to pieces when I actually make an effort and play the game and something comes up for the millionth time blocking me. I wish I was more retarded because then I would see the illusion of hope as real than what it is: illusion.

 

[Urielwillascend]

been feeling like this everyday for a while now

 

[Saint Casanova]

If you made a mistake then it’s your fault. Simple as that.

Limitations, not so much

 

[Prøphet]

If you made a mistake then it’s your fault. Simple as that.

Limitations, not so much

The closer I look at my life, I realize my so called “mistakes” weren’t even made by me

 

[Saint Casanova]

The closer I look at my life, I realize my so called “mistakes” weren’t even made by me

Personally I made so many mistakes that ruined my trajectory. My life would be so different if I haven’t made them.

Either way, it is what it is I guess

 

[babadook]

at the end of the day, you cant do shit about things that you cant do shit about. In itself the statement isn't mind-blowing or eye-opening (it shouldn't be, almost all of the very few things that work, regarding improvement, are boring and obvious), what you should try to get out of it though, is look for things you think you can change but they are actually impossible or unrealistic and then parting with the dream of fulfilling those things. Its the easiest thing you can do to be a little more at peace