disillusioned
Fuchsia
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I along with my mother visited the doctor yesterday. I've been working hard on trying to get my blood pressure down (I'm now in my 30s); I've nearly quit all drinking, eat better, cut back on sugar, etc. Meanwhile my mother is a 60 year old obese chainsmoker who binges of breakfast cerial and candy bars every other day.
My readings came back as 80/134, which is just slightly below stage 2 hypertension. When the doctor took my mother's readings, I was dreading to see the results, thinking it would be something horrible. But instead, my jaw hit the floor when the readings came back at only 116 for the upper limit.
Now, I should note my mother is already taking blood pressure pills, but even taking that into consideration, this is still utterly absurd; she's twice my age, obese, smokes constantly, binge eats of shit, eats horribly, is allergic to exercise, etc basically everything except drink or do drugs. And yet, she's CRUSHING my bp numbers.
"Muh healthy living muh skinless chicken breast muh daily exercise!!!!!!!
"
None of this bullshit fucking matters. Just like fucking everything else in life, THIS IS ALL ABOUT THE FUCKING GENES. YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF NOTHING.
I'm unironically becoming suicidal at the realization that almost literally EVERYTHING in life only gives you the illusion of control. You're in control of fuck all. Everything is a linear path, laid out for you by factors you cannot meaningfully influence. Whatever happens was always going to happen, including health outcomes.
It's brutal enough that lifestyle doesn't matter for attractiveness, but the fact it also doesn't seem to matter for health outcomes either is in many ways even more brutal.
My readings came back as 80/134, which is just slightly below stage 2 hypertension. When the doctor took my mother's readings, I was dreading to see the results, thinking it would be something horrible. But instead, my jaw hit the floor when the readings came back at only 116 for the upper limit.
Now, I should note my mother is already taking blood pressure pills, but even taking that into consideration, this is still utterly absurd; she's twice my age, obese, smokes constantly, binge eats of shit, eats horribly, is allergic to exercise, etc basically everything except drink or do drugs. And yet, she's CRUSHING my bp numbers.
"Muh healthy living muh skinless chicken breast muh daily exercise!!!!!!!
"None of this bullshit fucking matters. Just like fucking everything else in life, THIS IS ALL ABOUT THE FUCKING GENES. YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF NOTHING.
I'm unironically becoming suicidal at the realization that almost literally EVERYTHING in life only gives you the illusion of control. You're in control of fuck all. Everything is a linear path, laid out for you by factors you cannot meaningfully influence. Whatever happens was always going to happen, including health outcomes.
It's brutal enough that lifestyle doesn't matter for attractiveness, but the fact it also doesn't seem to matter for health outcomes either is in many ways even more brutal.
