1966Ford
KHHEHTV Autist~Yakubian Fascist~180IQ~Afrocentrist
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God is so cruel, my life is ruined.
I'm 50m and life is miserable, yeah your life can be beautiful, but mine is more uglier than shit. Only nature has been beautiful in my life.
Lost my mother when I was a child, my father and brother both died because of covid, I'm alone now. In my entire life, I never had a gf or any partner, I never experienced that love and intimacy, I only masturbated all the time, there was no other option. Yeah love exists in other forms too, but I don't have any pet, friends or anything like that. I have friends, but seeing them with their respected partners hurt me, so I keep distance from them. I have a fine job, but no one to spend that money on, I'm tired of spending it on myself. I'm tired of being alone, also when I'll get retired, there'll be no point left in living, and even if I die, no one will ever remember me.
That emptiness has been my friend since I was 18, it's the only thing that never left me, it truly loves me. There's always a woman for everyone out there, where's mine?, why hasn't she shown up yet, I'm 50 already man. I'm unlovable. My life has been so lonely all these years. I tried to suicide when I was 35, but I loved myself so much and also my father and brother, but now in my life, there's no one left to live for. I too wanted someone to love me, but my heart has always been broken
. Women are so choosy, they only want to live with, handsome, popular, muscular men, they never give attention to someone like me, also I look ugly as hell.
I've travelled to a lot of places, but depression finds me anyway, now I can't stand it, I want to give up on life.
I don't know what sins I committed in my previous life, god is so cruel, he has never been nice.
I drop kindness, it's a curse, I don't want to be kind anymore.
I'm just waiting to die someday.
I'm 50m and life is miserable, yeah your life can be beautiful, but mine is more uglier than shit. Only nature has been beautiful in my life.
Lost my mother when I was a child, my father and brother both died because of covid, I'm alone now. In my entire life, I never had a gf or any partner, I never experienced that love and intimacy, I only masturbated all the time, there was no other option. Yeah love exists in other forms too, but I don't have any pet, friends or anything like that. I have friends, but seeing them with their respected partners hurt me, so I keep distance from them. I have a fine job, but no one to spend that money on, I'm tired of spending it on myself. I'm tired of being alone, also when I'll get retired, there'll be no point left in living, and even if I die, no one will ever remember me.
That emptiness has been my friend since I was 18, it's the only thing that never left me, it truly loves me. There's always a woman for everyone out there, where's mine?, why hasn't she shown up yet, I'm 50 already man. I'm unlovable. My life has been so lonely all these years. I tried to suicide when I was 35, but I loved myself so much and also my father and brother, but now in my life, there's no one left to live for. I too wanted someone to love me, but my heart has always been broken
. Women are so choosy, they only want to live with, handsome, popular, muscular men, they never give attention to someone like me, also I look ugly as hell. I've travelled to a lot of places, but depression finds me anyway, now I can't stand it, I want to give up on life.
I don't know what sins I committed in my previous life, god is so cruel, he has never been nice.
I drop kindness, it's a curse, I don't want to be kind anymore.
I'm just waiting to die someday.
