flexinsamu
dumbass hmtn
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19 y/o HMTN–LHTN. Almost a year ago my gf left me after a 1-year relationship. I’ve always been insecure, even if I try to hide it, and for months I genuinely thought we’d get back together. That was obviously denial, but it was the only thing keeping me from going insane.
She changed so fast, everything we had was left unfinished. That hit me harder than the breakup itself.
The point is, i probabily could have dealt with ts so much better if this past year wouldnt have been so brutal. I got rejected by almost every girl I tried with. It got so bad that as a atheist, i started genuinely thinking that someone did something to give me bad luck, and this is insane considering im the most rational person ever. It’s demoralizing.
Hoping she’d come back was my only cope. Without that, I probably would’ve lost it completely.
Last night I DMd her. I thought she’d at least respond or see me. She was cold as hell. I barely recognized the person I fell for. That interaction crushed any hope I had left.
Now I’m stuck. How do you move on when you already know you’re replaceable and she isn’t? Knowing I’ll never see her again feels like agony. Not just because she left, but because my personal and private issues from before the breakup just tripled after she left.
I don’t have the strength to keep trying, just to get rejected again and again. this year has been one long series of Ls, and the whole “things get better” idea feels like pure cope.
I’m asking seriously: how do you let go? How do you keep going when the pattern just keeps repeating? Any real advice would help, because right now I feel completely stuck.
as a non native speaker, i have fixed ts with chatgpt to make yall understand better so don’t yap bout sum “muh ai” thank you.
She changed so fast, everything we had was left unfinished. That hit me harder than the breakup itself.
The point is, i probabily could have dealt with ts so much better if this past year wouldnt have been so brutal. I got rejected by almost every girl I tried with. It got so bad that as a atheist, i started genuinely thinking that someone did something to give me bad luck, and this is insane considering im the most rational person ever. It’s demoralizing.
Hoping she’d come back was my only cope. Without that, I probably would’ve lost it completely.
Last night I DMd her. I thought she’d at least respond or see me. She was cold as hell. I barely recognized the person I fell for. That interaction crushed any hope I had left.
Now I’m stuck. How do you move on when you already know you’re replaceable and she isn’t? Knowing I’ll never see her again feels like agony. Not just because she left, but because my personal and private issues from before the breakup just tripled after she left.
I don’t have the strength to keep trying, just to get rejected again and again. this year has been one long series of Ls, and the whole “things get better” idea feels like pure cope.
I’m asking seriously: how do you let go? How do you keep going when the pattern just keeps repeating? Any real advice would help, because right now I feel completely stuck.
as a non native speaker, i have fixed ts with chatgpt to make yall understand better so don’t yap bout sum “muh ai” thank you.

