Gymcell to blackpill pipeline. The black pill destroyed me

[pandamonium]

Back in kindergarten- middle school I was bluepilled about life. I was able to get girls. Women actually liked me basically one out of every three or four girls I approached liked me. Was a normal ass kid I was nt as fuck. I literally was known as the funniest kid in the class and the hottest girl in the school liked me. Going into late middle school I started being self conscious about my looks for no real reason. I randomly wanted to be way more attractive because some girl rejected me and I didn’t ever want to be rejected again. I looked on YouTube “how to get girls”. I coped with gymmaxxing for a little while. I got big but i realized i looked like the average joe with clothes on. Coped with redpill and game but after gymmaxxing my inhib was drastically increased and i couldnt even approach a girl. Spoiler alert, no ammount of “how to not get nervous when approachingn her” videos will work. Its either gaba or rope tbh. Eventually after losing my nt every girl i approachEd pretty much rejected me thats why im starting to realize nt is important af too. I got to the point where i realized its all bs. After the relationship before my last relationship i realized all the effort i put in just for it to end badly was pointless and the only chance i have is to look better and become more rich to get surgeries.


Now all i think about when im in public is “im only 6’3 its overrrrr” “im black fuarkkkkk” “damnnn i just got heightmatched by a normieeeee its overrrrrrrr”
Anytime a girl doesnt give iois i dont even bother i just think “brooooooooootalllllll never begann for blackcellllllll”

Tldr: the blackpill isnt something you find, it finds you. And when it does you have a limited time to escape and remain bluepilled and optimistic. The good thing is the blackpill will save you from wasting thousands on pointless dates

 

[mightbecooked123]

Back in kindergarten- middle school I was bluepilled about life. I was able to get girls. Women actually liked me basically one out of every three or four girls I approached liked me. Was a normal ass kid I was nt as fuck. I literally was known as the funniest kid in the class and the hottest girl in the school liked me. Going into late middle school I started being self conscious about my looks for no real reason. I randomly wanted to be way more attractive because some girl rejected me and I didn’t ever want to be rejected again. I looked on YouTube “how to get girls”. I coped with gymmaxxing for a little while. I got big but i realized i looked like the average joe with clothes on. Coped with redpill and game but after gymmaxxing my inhib was drastically increased and i couldnt even approach a girl. Spoiler alert, no ammount of “how to not get nervous when approachingn her” videos will work. Its either gaba or rope tbh. Eventually after losing my nt every girl i approachEd pretty much rejected me thats why im starting to realize nt is important af too. I got to the point where i realized its all bs. After the relationship before my last relationship i realized all the effort i put in just for it to end badly was pointless and the only chance i have is to look better and become more rich to get surgeries.


Now all i think about when im in public is “im only 6’3 its overrrrr” “im black fuarkkkkk” “damnnn i just got heightmatched by a normieeeee its overrrrrrrr”
Anytime a girl doesnt give iois i dont even bother i just think “brooooooooootalllllll never begann for blackcellllllll”

Tldr: the blackpill isnt something you find, it finds you. And when it does you have a limited time to escape and remain bluepilled and optimistic. The good thing is the blackpill will save you from wasting thousands on pointless dates

Real would rather waste my thousands with giant

 

[ezio6]

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