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She forgot to log off her shit when she was at my place, so I had access to all her documents.Turns out she was keeping a diary, I saw my name multiple times and thought it was a good idea to read what she thought about me.
Honestly very interesting to read what a girl ur dating writes about you when she thinks nobody will ever find out, ngl.
Times where I was mentioned:
Idk who Eric is, might be her Ex.
Also jfl at her seeing me as a 'macho' man. Don't get that vibe ngl.
Also JFL at being unvaxxed, its fucking over if ur unvaxxed ngl.
Honestly reading into a girl's diary is funny asf. I might just not tell her I have access and see the shit she's writing forever.
Honestly very interesting to read what a girl ur dating writes about you when she thinks nobody will ever find out, ngl.
Times where I was mentioned:
I want to talk to Mama about Syo. I really don't know how this is going to lead anywhere. But at the same time it feels so good. So just physically. When you are physically attracted to someone, does the body just know more than the head?
I have to tell Syo that we don't match each other in terms of value. Maybe then we can argue about it. I'm kind of distracted in my head.
I don't think Syo is a foodie and I think being a foodie is important to me. It bothers me a lot with my roommate. Why am I always drawn to men who are macho and don't really share my values? Is that important? Actually yes. Or does my body instinctively know what is good for me. I think I am drawn to "relaxed" men because I always stress myself so much. Now I am already putting my own thoughts in quotation marks. I don't think Eric and Syo would necessarily see themselves as deeply relaxed, but in my perception they are. When I'm less stressed, I less need someone who is deeply relaxed. I don't think I'm ready to commit at the moment. I think it's weird to write it down like that. I believe there is a lot going on inside of me and I don't want to stop this process just to stop someone else. Does that make sense? I like to deal with myself. Don't I? Sometimes I have the feeling that I check boxes: ah, he beats me in chess, he really listens to me, he likes to watch good films with me, check, he doesn't want to vaccinate, ah shit that goes against the grain. I can't help it, I think long term.
My parents met when I was my age. Kind of awesome. I love what they have together. I want this too. A good (intense, honest, strong, inspiring) relationship is important to me. No matter how much you can optimize your life, if you are with someone who has different fundamental values, you will lead a different life with your partner. I cannot express myself. A partner reinforces things? Partner is a nice word. Ah, I'm kind of confused about Syo. I have to bring it up next time. The future is important to me. I think I switched to English because I was preparing the conversation with him. I don't want to think about this all the time. I sound like a foolish little girl.
My hair smells like his perfume. The church bells ring and I look at the clock. A quarter to 12, I actually wanted to be in the studio at 1, I said. I'm slightly annoyed by myself again that I'm getting off the quark so badly.
Idk who Eric is, might be her Ex.
Also jfl at her seeing me as a 'macho' man. Don't get that vibe ngl.
he doesn't want to vaccinate, ah shit that goes against the grain
Also JFL at being unvaxxed, its fucking over if ur unvaxxed ngl.
I fucking destroyed her. Just win at chess to get pussy -theory confirmed.he beats me in chess
Honestly reading into a girl's diary is funny asf. I might just not tell her I have access and see the shit she's writing forever.