iwantochange
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i hate the way i look 90% of the time i see my flaws even if i got rated high i feel like shit
everytime a relationship dosent work for me i just feel like i look worse
i have such a bloated face ,black around my eye ,acne, even doe i do everything right
it worked before it made me look so good when i was unbloated i got told i look good and i felt like it as well i feel so bad that it dosent work for me no more to debloat the same way
i hate myself for looking for validation about my looks all the time
i hate that i try something new like a buzz cut that i did a few days ago and it made me look like shit and i go back to the same loop again
i hate that women want me for 1 time thing and not for a long term realtionship
i hate my height so much i wasted all of the money i had im my saving that open up to me at 18 yo (the age i am now) to buy hgh to get to 183cm from 180cm, costed me 1500$ and the only money i have left goes to ciggaretes cuz i feel so deppressed but i dont even smoke alot cuz it fucks my hormons
im insecure , obssessed about finding love, and wanting too look good and best all the time that it ruins a lot of things im my life
i really want freedom i want my driving licence already , but i just fail every test and feel like im stuck in place and cant move
i hate the fucking fact that after i broke up with my 1 year ex 1 month ago she started talking to one of her old exes and got to understand that the guy is taller then my (184) and shes obssesed over him even doe i gave her my all
but fking got a ltn face that look deformed
i just want to feel better and loved and realised no one will truly love me if i dont look better then most guys
fuck this world
fuck standards
and fuck my keyboard
i hope that it does get better for every men that feels like i do now
i wanted love so much that a girl payed a taxi 200$ to get me to her house just to fuck her that i didnt even cared about the sex and just wanted to feel loved by her and connected even if i knew she wants me for a 1 time thing .
if i looked better my life would've been better
everytime a relationship dosent work for me i just feel like i look worse
i have such a bloated face ,black around my eye ,acne, even doe i do everything right
it worked before it made me look so good when i was unbloated i got told i look good and i felt like it as well i feel so bad that it dosent work for me no more to debloat the same way
i hate myself for looking for validation about my looks all the time
i hate that i try something new like a buzz cut that i did a few days ago and it made me look like shit and i go back to the same loop again
i hate that women want me for 1 time thing and not for a long term realtionship
i hate my height so much i wasted all of the money i had im my saving that open up to me at 18 yo (the age i am now) to buy hgh to get to 183cm from 180cm, costed me 1500$ and the only money i have left goes to ciggaretes cuz i feel so deppressed but i dont even smoke alot cuz it fucks my hormons
im insecure , obssessed about finding love, and wanting too look good and best all the time that it ruins a lot of things im my life
i really want freedom i want my driving licence already , but i just fail every test and feel like im stuck in place and cant move
i hate the fucking fact that after i broke up with my 1 year ex 1 month ago she started talking to one of her old exes and got to understand that the guy is taller then my (184) and shes obssesed over him even doe i gave her my all
but fking got a ltn face that look deformed
i just want to feel better and loved and realised no one will truly love me if i dont look better then most guys
fuck this world
fuck standards
and fuck my keyboard
i hope that it does get better for every men that feels like i do now
i wanted love so much that a girl payed a taxi 200$ to get me to her house just to fuck her that i didnt even cared about the sex and just wanted to feel loved by her and connected even if i knew she wants me for a 1 time thing .
if i looked better my life would've been better