having no potential is gut wrenching

[true_subhuman_here]

I have a so called roman nose I have dark circles (defo recessed infraorbitals) eyelid exposure I have thin eyebrows, not many lashes and many other problems and jesus christ is it gut wrenching to see people at school every fucking day having a good time while I am miserable, a horrible human being and ugly too. My only way out is surgery and atp I would need a fucking miracle I really hope growing up and taking care of myself is gonna do something but Im not even gonna reach mmtn tbh. I go out of my home just for school because letting people see me is a humiliation. Just imagining someone being next to me makes me feel bad for them, when my friends or girls of my class talk to me I feel bad for them to look at my fucking face. I look in the mirror in pure disgust trying to love myself at least a little bit since I was 9 or something like that. Right now I am considering 2 options: roping or try to endure pain for the next 3 years and hopefully get surgery. I really hope someone can relate or even help me and give me tips, I know all I said is a bunch of shit yall probabily heard many times, but at this point I have so much envy, hatred, disgust and self conflict I cant even keep going

 

[imlearningdude1]

Don't worry man youre prob just being too hard on yourself and even if you really have all those things you claim people have good lives being much worse so I'd say moneymaxx and go to the gym as well as improve with what you can racially. Really hoping you make it

 

[trueteentriad]

dnr

 

[Apchun144]

Surgery doesn’t care about potential
Just find a good surgeon and make your face non hideous