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Heartbroken that I can never be Jewish
For as long as I remember, I've wanted be a Jew. The problem is that I was born in Japan. I've lived in the US since I was 5 and I am ashamed of my heritage. I secretly hate other Japanese people, especially other women.
It breaks my heart that I can never be who I feel I was meant to be:a proud, strong Jewish woman. A woman who can keep a good home (and be allowed to take pride in that!), who takes care of her community and teaches her children their heritage. I look up to them so much.
I lurk on Judaism forums imagining I am one of them. I never post because I'm not Jewish, but I sit and imagine being a part of the discussion. I am obsessed with any media related to Jewish culture. I even started learning Yiddish just to feel closer to being a real Jew...but in reality I am still just a silly little asian girl who would never be able to fit in or find a good Orthodox husband. Even if I was converted, any Jewish man would take one look at my features and know I'm a pretender.
Reasons:
*I find Jewish men extremely physically attractive
*I believe Jews are more thoughtful and value intellectualism more
*I feel like Jewish men are kinder to their wives
*They are good husbands and fathers
*They care for the well being of other Jews and have a sense of community.
*Their rituals and beliefs are beautiful.
*They belong to something important and real
Most importantly, I feel like Judaism is the true religion. They truly are the chosen people, and that's where my heart breaks. I could convert but I know in my heart I still wouldn't be one. When it comes down to it you just can't volunteer to be chosen.
For as long as I remember, I've wanted be a Jew. The problem is that I was born in Japan. I've lived in the US since I was 5 and I am ashamed of my heritage. I secretly hate other Japanese people, especially other women.
It breaks my heart that I can never be who I feel I was meant to be:a proud, strong Jewish woman. A woman who can keep a good home (and be allowed to take pride in that!), who takes care of her community and teaches her children their heritage. I look up to them so much.
I lurk on Judaism forums imagining I am one of them. I never post because I'm not Jewish, but I sit and imagine being a part of the discussion. I am obsessed with any media related to Jewish culture. I even started learning Yiddish just to feel closer to being a real Jew...but in reality I am still just a silly little asian girl who would never be able to fit in or find a good Orthodox husband. Even if I was converted, any Jewish man would take one look at my features and know I'm a pretender.
Reasons:
*I find Jewish men extremely physically attractive
*I believe Jews are more thoughtful and value intellectualism more
*I feel like Jewish men are kinder to their wives
*They are good husbands and fathers
*They care for the well being of other Jews and have a sense of community.
*Their rituals and beliefs are beautiful.
*They belong to something important and real
Most importantly, I feel like Judaism is the true religion. They truly are the chosen people, and that's where my heart breaks. I could convert but I know in my heart I still wouldn't be one. When it comes down to it you just can't volunteer to be chosen.
