MansNotHot
Kratos cucks everyone, including you
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Long post to vent, because i've had enough.
After middle school i distanced myself from everyone (as if i wasn't invisible already) and now as a result i legit have 0 friends.
This takes a toll on my mental health for obvious reasons.
It's even WORSE when i see my bro, who btw gets along with me since childhood so we don't have really a different personality but looks WAY better than me, having a friend group which he goes out with.
Meanwhile i am at home rotting and fapping because nobody ever reached to be my friend or wanted me to go out with them, also they never wanted to be associated with me.
All of this pressure amplifies my depression by 10 times and as a result i can't concentrate and keep focus on my goals.
E.g. i start a diet pumped up and can't stick to it because the voice in my head goes "why lose weight if nobody will ever want you? Do you think losing fat will bring your jaw forward? Noo you need surgery and you don't have money to do that hahahaah!" And the cycle begins where i then jerk off and eat a lot.
It's a fucking loop.
And i can't do anything about it if i don't have money.
I wish i was born rich or goodlooking, 6.5/10 like my bro
Today i also realized female friends don't exist.
My "female friends" uses me as a dog on a leash to make jokes and laugh with.
Today i was tired of it and she understood and found another jester within minutes.
One time i was talking to her going outside from school and she saw this chad she knew and totally ignored me.
That's a fucking brutal balckpill experience i will never forget.
Fuck this world for not accepting me for something i can't control.
May something/someone bring light to my situation.
After middle school i distanced myself from everyone (as if i wasn't invisible already) and now as a result i legit have 0 friends.
This takes a toll on my mental health for obvious reasons.
It's even WORSE when i see my bro, who btw gets along with me since childhood so we don't have really a different personality but looks WAY better than me, having a friend group which he goes out with.
Meanwhile i am at home rotting and fapping because nobody ever reached to be my friend or wanted me to go out with them, also they never wanted to be associated with me.
All of this pressure amplifies my depression by 10 times and as a result i can't concentrate and keep focus on my goals.
E.g. i start a diet pumped up and can't stick to it because the voice in my head goes "why lose weight if nobody will ever want you? Do you think losing fat will bring your jaw forward? Noo you need surgery and you don't have money to do that hahahaah!" And the cycle begins where i then jerk off and eat a lot.
It's a fucking loop.
And i can't do anything about it if i don't have money.
I wish i was born rich or goodlooking, 6.5/10 like my bro
Today i also realized female friends don't exist.
My "female friends" uses me as a dog on a leash to make jokes and laugh with.
Today i was tired of it and she understood and found another jester within minutes.
One time i was talking to her going outside from school and she saw this chad she knew and totally ignored me.
That's a fucking brutal balckpill experience i will never forget.
Fuck this world for not accepting me for something i can't control.
May something/someone bring light to my situation.
