Help please

[lokiiiiiiiiii]

Well I'm 21 and I'm ugly as shit. I've been trying for a while to improve my appearance, but I don't know why I see myself as ugly no matter what I do. Perhaps because of all the bullying I was exposed to throughout my school years and because of friends and family, I really hate myself and my confidence is at the bottom and I don't know what to do .
I hope you guys can give me an accurate assessment of how I look. I know that I am really ugly, but I want an accurate assessment and I want advice on why I should focus on it more if I want to improve my appearance.
I am sorry that I wrote so much , and my English is not good, so don't blame me for spelling mistakes
Thanks

 

[Heatmiser]

get off this forum broski trust me

 

[lokiiiiiiiiii]

get off this forum broski trust me

I know that there are a lot of crazy people here and bullies, but I have been through worse things in my life, so I just want to improve myself and my appearance, because I have been subjected to all kinds of contempt just because of my appearance.

 

[watah]

What’s ur race, height, and face rating

 

[lokiiiiiiiiii]

This is my picture

 

[Heatmiser]

they will giga roast you

 

[Heatmiser]

This is my picture

just waiting for the neanderthal meme

 

[lokiiiiiiiiii]

What’s ur race, height, and face rating

My height is 180, I don't know exactly what my ethnicity is, but I'm from the Middle East My rating for myself is 3 out of 10. I have repeated some pictures here below, so you can see and rate me for yourself.

 

[lokiiiiiiiiii]

just waiting for the neanderthal meme

What you mean exactly???

 

[Heatmiser]

What you mean exactly???

patience my boy