DarknLost
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All I want is a girlfriend, I don t care about sex, for me sex looks disgusting, I'm virgin and I think I'm asexual.
I want to have the first kiss, the first hug, with her.
I want her to be a virgin. Why do I want that? I want this because I'm a virgin and I want to experiment together. I want this because she has to appreciate the value of sex. I'm waiting for the special person and I want her to wait too. I want to be an innocent, childish love.
I want her to be alone without friends, because I do not have friends and I want to find a girl without friends
If I found this girl I would do anything for her.
In the past, I was beaten, humiliated by schoolmates because I was weak and short ... I never had friends, my father was an alcoholic who humiliated me, once he took me out of the house and spit on me. I started to lift weights , three years ago I beat my bullies.
I don't want money, i don't want sex, I don't want anything. I want someone to love me.
I have to admit, sometimes I have thoughts when I want to destroy humans / human race just because they do not understand me, they do not appreciate true love, they live for trivial things, they are monkeys that are driven by instincts.
Sometimes i want to burn and destroy people because they have sex, the reason? I want a world where only love is important, not sex, and just one person, not two, just one forever ever.
I have fantasies in which I am a kind of punisher, I am v for vendetta. I think the only people who can understand me are just mass shooters, and a few people on incels forum.
Capture and keep people captive in a small cubical, and isolate the vermin from society whilst i laugh at its mental breakdowns from the psychological white torture its undergoing
I have read a manifesto about Eliot Rodgers, Eric Harris, Dylan Kleblod, Seung Hui Cho, Timothy McVeigh, and other killers ... sometimes I find myself in what they say.
Here is my life, 8 years was exactly like that :
When i was younger i cry at this movie, i saw that movie 10 times.. when i was a kid i want that to happened to me but no ..
If i can't be loved i 'm going to make all humanity to hate me
that was my past
Future.
Now i have a relationship , a distance relationship with a girl for 6 months.
we have not seen each other , we will only see each other in 2 years.
my fear is that she can't wait 2 years, I can, she said she can, but I'm afraid
She moved into a new country Spain, and i 'm afraid before you know.. guys don't want to be friends with a girl, and they can try something, and that's why i m so jealous and posesive. i don t want her to have friends not even girls because sluts girl can make her do bad decision/negative influencing.
I will do anything for her , she save my life, now i can be a little happy and have a reason to live for.
I want to have the first kiss, the first hug, with her.
I want her to be a virgin. Why do I want that? I want this because I'm a virgin and I want to experiment together. I want this because she has to appreciate the value of sex. I'm waiting for the special person and I want her to wait too. I want to be an innocent, childish love.
I want her to be alone without friends, because I do not have friends and I want to find a girl without friends
If I found this girl I would do anything for her.
In the past, I was beaten, humiliated by schoolmates because I was weak and short ... I never had friends, my father was an alcoholic who humiliated me, once he took me out of the house and spit on me. I started to lift weights , three years ago I beat my bullies.
I don't want money, i don't want sex, I don't want anything. I want someone to love me.
I have to admit, sometimes I have thoughts when I want to destroy humans / human race just because they do not understand me, they do not appreciate true love, they live for trivial things, they are monkeys that are driven by instincts.
Sometimes i want to burn and destroy people because they have sex, the reason? I want a world where only love is important, not sex, and just one person, not two, just one forever ever.
I have fantasies in which I am a kind of punisher, I am v for vendetta. I think the only people who can understand me are just mass shooters, and a few people on incels forum.
Capture and keep people captive in a small cubical, and isolate the vermin from society whilst i laugh at its mental breakdowns from the psychological white torture its undergoing
I have read a manifesto about Eliot Rodgers, Eric Harris, Dylan Kleblod, Seung Hui Cho, Timothy McVeigh, and other killers ... sometimes I find myself in what they say.
Here is my life, 8 years was exactly like that :
When i was younger i cry at this movie, i saw that movie 10 times.. when i was a kid i want that to happened to me but no ..
If i can't be loved i 'm going to make all humanity to hate me
that was my past
Future.
Now i have a relationship , a distance relationship with a girl for 6 months.
we have not seen each other , we will only see each other in 2 years.
my fear is that she can't wait 2 years, I can, she said she can, but I'm afraid
She moved into a new country Spain, and i 'm afraid before you know.. guys don't want to be friends with a girl, and they can try something, and that's why i m so jealous and posesive. i don t want her to have friends not even girls because sluts girl can make her do bad decision/negative influencing.
I will do anything for her , she save my life, now i can be a little happy and have a reason to live for.
