high inhib is death

[whitebitchslayer]

i hate living like this its like theres a massive glass wall between and the life I want.

So this week i have been on a cruise with my family and for 4 straight days i have walked around the ship in circles as a poor attempt to make my family think i am busy "enjoying myself" they obviously saw through my bullshit and asked why I wasn't with the large groups of people my age to which I didn't have a good answer (just said I am not meant to be social JFL) and through out the day today ive had some pretty down to earth talks to myself. People seem to think I am just trying to make myself a victim and am being autistic which I considered a good amount. I wonder why i do this? why do i do everything I can to avoid other people my age (specifically attractive ones) and take their occasional passing insults like a cuck, yet i will spend time watching them? I tell myself that I am simply not intrested in being social as a cope. I think that i want to be like them and am jealous but am missing something.

I think maybe confidence is actually important, maybe I am so aware about me being unattractive that it is stopping me from associating with people... yet there are subhumans that can do everything I wish I could just fine simply because they truly belive that looks dont matter. I dont even know if being more attractive would make any difference tbh... This would explain why my only 2 irl friends are people ive known since i was 8/9 when I didnt hate myself so much.

Maybe I am so used to being disliked by everyone around me that it has a psychological effect even in a brand new environment. This is pretty feasible since generally people liked in one environment are equally liked in another, but this could also just be another effect of lookism.

Maybe it really is because of my looks and there is no hope, or it is something in my brain that can never be changed?

Today I was at the beach and made a thread or two about how many attractive foids where there, I spent about 6 hours there total I believe and not a single one noticed my presence while I was fantasizing about how they would treat me if I was CL. This was also brutal as multiple people replied to the posts saying I should talk to them and it made me think about why I genuinely couldn't do that... There wouldn't have been any real consequences as I will never see any of them ever again so why was I not able to? Maybe it was my certainty of being laughed at and shot down infront of people, but I have no idea where that came from, considering I have never cold approached a female in my life.

Maybe all of this is due to bad experiences with females in my past such as being ridiculed, talked about relentlessly, and accused of SA.

Damn I really wish I had social skills. Even if i wasnt attractive it would be nice for people to want to associate with me (although that goes hand in hand with attractiveness). Maybe jealously over what others have and are born with (the ablity to make friends everywhere they go, be freindly with girls, have relationships, low inhib, and being attractive) will drive me to extreme actions. Or maybe I will just continue to be a cuck the rest of my life fantasizing about being chad while getting dnred on self pitty threads.

Why the fuck can I not enjoy stuff like this. jfl they would jump at the opportunity to talk to me if I wasn't unattractive.

 

[whitebitchslayer]

i dont even have my fucking phone its not working so I dont have my tag list FUCK

 

[whitebitchslayer]

getting 0 views on this is insanely brutal ngl

 

[whitebitchslayer]

im just gonna start tagging niggers

@maxlooksmax @superpsycho @HostSamurai @vitaminD

 

[134applesauce456]

you are just like me bhai

but It's obviously just a mindset since you are a htn, it has nothing to do with how you look it's just in ur head; social anxiety, ND, high inhib, etc

maybe NT drugs is the solution, like balcofen or pregab (muscle relaxers)

but personalitymaxxing is wayy harder and more complex then looksmaxxing ur physical traits

 

[valentine]

nothing matters so why worry about anything

 

[whitebitchslayer]

you are just like me bhai

but It's obviously just a mindset since you are a htn, it has nothing to do with how you look it's just in ur head; social anxiety, ND, high inhib, etc

maybe NT drugs is the solution, like balcofen or pregab (muscle relaxers)

but personalitymaxxing is wayy harder and more complex then looksmaxxing ur physical traits

im not hnt jfl but thanks especially rn i look like shit

 

[whitebitchslayer]

nothing matters so why worry about anything

ur right i should go er

 

[valentine]

ur right i should go er

no thats not what i meant!

 

[quantitativePSL]

Dnrd most will read later but mirin the introspection bro, seems like you’re right from the little I’ve read, confidence matters a ton especially in MTN region which you are comfortably in

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Dnrd most will read later but mirin the introspection bro, seems like you’re right from the little I’ve read, confidence matters a ton especially in MTN region which you are comfortably in

I think I am going to introspect more and make videos to help myself when I am a little more attractive. Posting here helps alot to organize my thoughts and such so I am going to try ER style monologue videos

 

[Klasik616]

Just wear Creed Aventus bro

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Just wear Creed Aventus bro

i wear verssace eros but i dont think anyone has ever noticed they stay too far away

or i stay far away since getting too close is a bad idea

 

[Klasik616]

i wear verssace eros but i dont think anyone has ever noticed they stay too far away

or i stay far away since getting too close is a bad idea

normie fragrance

 

[quantitativePSL]

I think I am going to introspect more and make videos to help myself when I am a little more attractive. Posting here helps alot to organize my thoughts and such so I am going to try ER style monologue videos

Read the rest. Introspection is good, I think you already figured it out though, your issues are stemming from your past experiences and internalising that nobody likes you and you’re an unattractive loser. Bluepilled af but confidence matters so much You’re kind of an abused dog right now, you go into a new environment and think what happens to you at school is gonna happen to you there, you’re not subhuman bro you can’t think like this

 

[whitebitchslayer]

normie fragrance

wait till bro hears i have blue de channel

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Read the rest. Introspection is good, I think you already figured it out though, your issues are stemming from your past experiences and internalising that nobody likes you and you’re an unattractive loser. Bluepilled af but confidence matters so much You’re kind of an abused dog right now, you go into a new environment and think what happens to you at school is gonna happen to you there, you’re not subhuman bro you can’t think like this

so weve identified the issue being my abused dog mental state and assuming im universally hated... but idk how to fix that and if I dont do something it will get worse and worse and there will be no escape

 

[zemult]

High inhib is a symptom not a cause, you're ugly and rejected so you saw the risk in trying to pursue relationships as such

Instead of fixing muh high inhib, the solution is to not be ugly by any means necessary. Only then this "high inhib" will start to fade away, as you will naturally get more positive reinforcement.

 

[Skara]

cope

 

[Skara]

high inhib is good

 

[whitebitchslayer]

High inhib is a symptom not a cause, you're ugly and rejected so you saw the risk in trying to pursue relationships as such

Instead of fixing muh high inhib, the solution is to not be ugly by any means necessary. Only then this "high inhib" will start to fade away, as you will naturally get more positive reinforcement.

currently mtn so just getting more attractive is my solution

 

[whitebitchslayer]

high inhib is good

no bro you dont get it.. today I caught myself taking a different route and being late just to avoid a group of girls because they were my age and attractive

 

[zemult]

currently mtn so just getting more attractive is my solution

Either one is possibly happening:

1) You're not actually MTN - you're overrating yourself.
2) You were fat or acne-ridden in youth, and that's given you extreme negative reinforcement and that's made you terrified to interact with people
3) Manlet

 

[Skara]

no bro you dont get it.. today I caught myself taking a different route and being late just to avoid a group of girls because they were my age and attractive

low inhib is primitive

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Either one is possibly happening:

1) You're not actually MTN - you're overrating yourself.
2) You were fat or acne-ridden in youth, and that's given you extreme negative reinforcement and that's made you terrified to interact with people
3) Manlet

feel free to judge if i am overrating myself but i have been rated mtn by hundreds of people here so I dont think so... also yes I have had really bad acnee and am 5'11 which makes me a manlet

 

[Skara]

modern humans are supposed to be high inhib, low inhib is archaic and primitive

 

[quantitativePSL]

so weve identified the issue being my abused dog mental state and assuming im universally hated... but idk how to fix that and if I dont do something it will get worse and worse and there will be no escape

I think you’re poor social skills are your biggest failo based on past threads there’s no way you act like a normal guy and get so much hate. Delusionmaxx and wait til uni to reinvent yourself as a whole new person would be a good idea, try to go somewhere where nobody from you’re old high school goes because you’re probably gonna see them and bring back that abused dog mentality

 

[zemult]

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feel free to judge if i am overrating myself but i have been rated mtn by hundreds of people here so I dont think so... also yes I have had really bad acnee and am 5'11 which makes me a manlet

Oh nigga you're like 14 years old you'll be fine jfl

 

[whitebitchslayer]

modern humans are supposed to be high inhib, low inhib is archaic and primitive

low inhib is basically a superpower

 

[zemult]

HTN potential after leaning out, darkening eyebrows, and growing up

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Oh nigga you're like 14 years old you'll be fine jfl

im 17

 

[quantitativePSL]

5'11 which makes me a manlet

Fakecel ramblings, bro heightmogs me to death

 

[whitebitchslayer]

HTN potential after leaning out, darkening eyebrows, and growing up

im not growing up anymore unfortunately my bone age is almost 20 which is fully developed

 

[whitebitchslayer]

I think you’re poor social skills are your biggest failo based on past threads there’s no way you act like a normal guy and get so much hate. Delusionmaxx and wait til uni to reinvent yourself as a whole new person would be a good idea, try to go somewhere where nobody from you’re old high school goes because you’re probably gonna see them and bring back that abused dog mentality

basically reincarnation

 

[zemult]

im 17

Even if you're 17 nigga I know the rotters on here think the average age to lose virginity is like 13 but it's ~18 and that's been backed by data

 

[zemult]

im not growing up anymore unfortunately my bone age is almost 20 which is fully developed

Just lean out and darken your eyebrows you're the definition of good genetics but retarded

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Just lean out and darken your eyebrows you're the definition of good genetics but retarded

im trying to get lean rn im on a pretty strict diet and getting heavy appetite suppressants plus im on gear

 

[pfl]

Getting more attractive wont fix it just saying

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Getting more attractive wont fix it just saying

then what will

 

[pfl]

then what will

Idk. thats my problem
Do u think u know why u are high inhib?
Can u recall the first time u felt that feeling and find out the reason

 

[quantitativePSL]

basically reincarnation

I know a guy who does this right now in uni and slays like fucking crazy off his fake ass persona, don’t have to go this far but literally everyone reinvents themself in some way in uni, you just NEED to

im trying to get lean rn im on a pretty strict diet and getting heavy appetite suppressants plus im on gear

unironically gear might be rotting your brain hop off lol you don’t need it 5’11 bloatcel Barrett looking dude making endless threads about hating attractive people nigga you hate yourself

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Idk. thats my problem
Do u think u know why u are high inhib?
Can u recall the first time u felt that feeling and find out the reason

ive been told I have abused dog mentality.. first time I felt this was probably 5th grade after being expelled on false SA accusations because a girl thought i was creepy

 

[whitebitchslayer]

unironically gear might be rotting your brain hop off lol you don’t need it 5’11 bloatcel Barrett looking dude making endless threads about hating attractive people nigga you hate yourself

havent even started blasting since im on vaction but the gear should help my mentality since my test is hyper low (280 ng/dl) and i have a lot of issues mentally from low test l

 

[PSL DEMON]

i hate living like this its like theres a massive glass wall between and the life I want.

So this week i have been on a cruise with my family and for 4 straight days i have walked around the ship in circles as a poor attempt to make my family think i am busy "enjoying myself" they obviously saw through my bullshit and asked why I wasn't with the large groups of people my age to which I didn't have a good answer (just said I am not meant to be social JFL) and through out the day today ive had some pretty down to earth talks to myself. People seem to think I am just trying to make myself a victim and am being autistic which I considered a good amount. I wonder why i do this? why do i do everything I can to avoid other people my age (specifically attractive ones) and take their occasional passing insults like a cuck, yet i will spend time watching them? I tell myself that I am simply not intrested in being social as a cope. I think that i want to be like them and am jealous but am missing something.

I think maybe confidence is actually important, maybe I am so aware about me being unattractive that it is stopping me from associating with people... yet there are subhumans that can do everything I wish I could just fine simply because they truly belive that looks dont matter. I dont even know if being more attractive would make any difference tbh... This would explain why my only 2 irl friends are people ive known since i was 8/9 when I didnt hate myself so much.

Maybe I am so used to being disliked by everyone around me that it has a psychological effect even in a brand new environment. This is pretty feasible since generally people liked in one environment are equally liked in another, but this could also just be another effect of lookism.

Maybe it really is because of my looks and there is no hope, or it is something in my brain that can never be changed?

Today I was at the beach and made a thread or two about how many attractive foids where there, I spent about 6 hours there total I believe and not a single one noticed my presence while I was fantasizing about how they would treat me if I was CL. This was also brutal as multiple people replied to the posts saying I should talk to them and it made me think about why I genuinely couldn't do that... There wouldn't have been any real consequences as I will never see any of them ever again so why was I not able to? Maybe it was my certainty of being laughed at and shot down infront of people, but I have no idea where that came from, considering I have never cold approached a female in my life.

Maybe all of this is due to bad experiences with females in my past such as being ridiculed, talked about relentlessly, and accused of SA.

Damn I really wish I had social skills. Even if i wasnt attractive it would be nice for people to want to associate with me (although that goes hand in hand with attractiveness). Maybe jealously over what others have and are born with (the ablity to make friends everywhere they go, be freindly with girls, have relationships, low inhib, and being attractive) will drive me to extreme actions. Or maybe I will just continue to be a cuck the rest of my life fantasizing about being chad while getting dnred on self pitty threads.

Why the fuck can I not enjoy stuff like this. jfl they would jump at the opportunity to talk to me if I wasn't unattractive.

weed bro weed

 

[whitebitchslayer]

weed bro weed

that would just make me lazy

 

[quantitativePSL]

havent even started blasting since im on vaction but the gear should help my mentality since my test is hyper low (280 ng/dl) and i have a lot of issues mentally from low test l

I don’t know man lol but if it’s just test go for it

 

[whitebitchslayer]

I don’t know man lol but if it’s just test go for it

risk is worth the reward imo if i physique max thats a huge halo

will also help my frame.. since my bidelt is shit (17" but i apparently measured wrong so maybe like 18)

 

[PSL DEMON]

that would just make me lazy

Shits different for everyone ig it genuinely makes me more happy and low inhib

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Shits different for everyone ig it genuinely makes me more happy and low inhib

might have to try ngl

 

[quantitativePSL]

High inhib is perfectly fine btw bro it’s just your reasoning for it, I’ve been high inhib my whole life and always will be, never cold approached a girl and never will Despite this I’ve never felt it has been a minus in my life, if anything it’s made girls either think I’m mysterious, don’t like them so it hurts their ego and they overcompensate or think I’m shy (I am lol) and think it’s cute