How Did I get here?(Long Rant)

[ChadL1te]

Its interesting because I dont remeber the distinct turning point, i was not super ugly ever, but i think my descension is what caused it. During highschool i had some meh success with women, nothing crazy but some makeouts and bjs and i almost fucked but i threw that relationship away like a retard

anyways by the end of senior year my acne started getting really shit, it was already bad but nowhere near this, my skull grew for the worse and fucked up my nose, then my braces fucked my jaw, and my face gained fat from bulking.

I basically went from appealed cutecel prettyboy to just some bloated retard with medium length hair and a recessed chin. I began to get depressed about my looks because all my friends were HTN and ppl made comments about my skin so i think i finally realized i needed to improve and came here. I had known about the site since late 2022 but never thought to join. I remember when I joined I told myself i was gonna improve and then leave

Now, over a year later Ive ascended a decent amount since then but nothing major. My attention from women has improved but I'm still not where I would like to be at. All i can think about some days is my failos. I don't even come at this site that much anymore but still, I was like a social beacon before with not much care about how i looked outside of skin. Now i have no skin issues, I still think my acne is the root cause of all my mental health issues. I will make a much longer thread someday possibly about this,

 

[ey88]

I just saw about this place on tiktok and made an account

 

[IBlameHoax]

I just saw about this place on tiktok and made an account

Same, I’ve lost a decent amount of my sanity from being here. I lurked for the first few weeks. But this is the most comfortable place I’ve found tbh, not an incel.

 

[ChadL1te]

I just saw about this place on tiktok and made an account

wtf did you do before though considering your large amt of posts

 

[ey88]

wtf did you do before though considering your large amt of posts

Play video games and rot on tiktok and shit

But I started rotting a lot more when all my friends left for university because I had nothing else to do

 

[moredatesmorerapes]

I just am incel, that's all

It's like there's some sort of unique essence to my existence, and that essence is inceldom

Looks are a part of it, sure, I'm no chad.
But my height is average: face slightly below, though that's mostly due to me being a fat fuck (which I haven't bothered to change despite meaning to for a long time)

Still, I'm not subhuman, and I've seen guys of my looks level have girlfriends and whatnot
You could argue they're being cucked, maybe you're right, but at least the illusion is there

I simply cannot imagine myself with a woman or having a girlfriend lmao. It seems completely absurd. I have constant fantasies about the wildest shit, I can imagine myself as emperor of the universe, but having a gf is incomprehensible to me

 

[ChadL1te]

I just am incel, that's all

It's like there's some sort of unique essence to my existence, and that essence is inceldom

Looks are a part of it, sure, I'm no chad.
But my height is average: face slightly below, though that's mostly due to me being a fat fuck (which I haven't bothered to change despite meaning to for a long time)

Still, I'm not subhuman, and I've seen guys of my looks level have girlfriends and whatnot
You could argue they're being cucked, maybe you're right, but at least the illusion is there

I simply cannot imagine myself with a woman or having a girlfriend lmao. It seems completely absurd. I have constant fantasies about the wildest shit, I can imagine myself as emperor of the universe, but having a gf is incomprehensible to me

I cant say i fully relate but i understand what you mean by unique essence

except mine is that nobody seems to take me seriously and that I have 0 sexual energy. No clue what it is, a girl even straight up told me once i should seel therapy for being sexually repressed.

 

[NorwoodAscender]

I just be vibin

 

[Xsane]

How the fuck does braces recess you?

 

[ChadL1te]

I just be vibin

youre high HTN though

 

[ChadL1te]

How the fuck does braces recess you?

the elastics

 

[moredatesmorerapes]

I cant say i fully relate but i understand what you mean by unique essence

except mine is that nobody seems to take me seriously and that I have 0 sexual energy. No clue what it is, a girl even straight up told me once i should seel therapy for being sexually repressed.

Same but that's more so because I used to act like a retarded sperg irl
if I asked a girl out in high school, she'd probably think I was joking or messing with her
I can act fairly NT now though

 

[ChadL1te]

Same but that's more so because I used to act like a retarded sperg irl
if I asked a girl out in high school, she'd probably think I was joking or messing with her
I can act fairly NT now though

I can act pretty NT and make a lot of friends

For me the problem is showing the deeper parts, ofc naturally people will want to get to know one another the closer you are which is where my problems arise

I’m great at lying about small shit but not stuff like this, and in general I’m really bad about talking about myself

So then I can’t really lie but also can’t really say much I just look insecure