How do I get being an absolute mess socially?

[Proto Indo-Incel]

Im a complete mess, I feel paranoid over everything, that people gossip abt how I look, I get depressed if some foid approaches a friend for something trivial like asking for the time and I let these things ruin my mood for the rest of the night and the hang out. I get iois and people generally like to socialise with me and I can easily make "friends" if I break off of my shell, but couple with being high inib af (to the point of complete fumbling) looking low trust af (my mom always asks why Im mad when Im feeling neutral) and now having a sort of a oneitis Im too scared to do anything either online (as I dont even any presence there) or irl (I rarely see her nowadays anyway), plus its summer break so the lack of routine fucks me up even more. Another example some foids at the gym seem to give clear iois like looking and even staring but they dont approach me and sometimes giggle with their friends and I ofc assume the worst. Point is how do I even start to get over these hang ups? How to avoid ruining my nights out over those things? Etc etc (I assume im a well abused dog already)

 

[CoreSchizo]

I had a seizure reading this

 

[Proto Indo-Incel]

I had a seizure reading this

Im a bit drunk tbh

 

[mulattocel]

Low trust is a halo

 

[Proto Indo-Incel]

Low trust is a halo

It isnt when you arent above 6'2!

 

[mulattocel]

It isnt when you arent above 6'2!

Serial killer vibes if you’re not careful

 

[Proto Indo-Incel]

Serial killer vibes if you’re not careful

Lets not exaggerate kek, I just always have a face like Im mad at something and its better to not bother. Some frienfs tell me they leave me alone sometimes because of that

 

[AlphaLooksmaxxer666]

set a goal of socializing with people outside everyday

 

[AlphaLooksmaxxer666]

being low inhib

 

[everydayfun]

no one gives af or thinks about you. just internalize that.

 

[normie_joe]

no one gives af or thinks about you. just internalize that.

I think about OP.

 

[Proto Indo-Incel]

no one gives af or thinks about you. just internalize that.

I think about you everydayfun ((

 

[everydayfun]

I think about you everydayfun ((

I'm not trying to be negative, it's just helps me to know that nobody gives af. So when you do something stupid, people won't give a fuck in a few days. And if they do, they think about you a lot, or it was really funny.