Androgynous
I sacrifice.
- Joined
- Aug 30, 2025
- Posts
- 180
- Reputation
- 385
My main insecurity is not any physical feature but it's that I want to have eyes on me all the time. I want millions watching my every move even if they think I'm a weirdo. I am extremely ND, in good ways and bad but unlike other autists, my NT mask is very visible. Most my life excluding the past 3 years, I've been extremely extroverted and low inhib. I'm not trying to be edgy but I genuinely think I would've developed Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) if I didn't isolate myself these past 3 years, mainly due to just being anti-social, but a huge part of me still wants every single eye on me.
I would be the only one in any group who would take major risks, mostly because it was just fun, but also because I wanted to stand out and steal the spotlight.
While I really like my personality, I think this is a major flaw in character and I want to start doing things ENTIRELY for myself and not for others.
Also for you typology nerds, if any of you can decipher what I'm saying, this might make more sense.
I'm an ENTP, ILE, E7w8, Sanguine-Choleric, who's moral alignment is Chaotic Neutral. This might give you a better picture.
I would be the only one in any group who would take major risks, mostly because it was just fun, but also because I wanted to stand out and steal the spotlight.
While I really like my personality, I think this is a major flaw in character and I want to start doing things ENTIRELY for myself and not for others.
Also for you typology nerds, if any of you can decipher what I'm saying, this might make more sense.
I'm an ENTP, ILE, E7w8, Sanguine-Choleric, who's moral alignment is Chaotic Neutral. This might give you a better picture.
