How do I get rid of this dysmorphia?

[Aatormax]

No matter how much better I look than before, I still can’t focus on much other than what I look like throughout the day and even when I’m not outside. I had to mix my adderall, Prozac, and alcohol to even hold a 30 minute conversation with this girl I like even though I’ve been told multiple times I’m out of her league. I don’t understand why if I’m out of her league I feel so much lower than her and everyone that goes to my school. I can’t stand not touching my face for like 5 minutes because my hands start getting drenched because of anxiety which then leads to me getting breakouts. I don’t even know what I look like anymore because people tell me I’m mtn or even sometimes htn but every time I meet someone new I swear they talk to me just like people did when I was a fat sub 5.

 

[India lover 52]

get off the adderall and prozac it just makes your inhib higher when your addicted and experiment with magic mushrooms and nootropics for long lasting relief

 

[iamnotaracist]

No matter how much better I look than before, I still can’t focus on much other than what I look like throughout the day and even when I’m not outside. I had to mix my adderall, Prozac, and alcohol to even hold a 30 minute conversation with this girl I like even though I’ve been told multiple times I’m out of her league. I don’t understand why if I’m out of her league I feel so much lower than her and everyone that goes to my school. I can’t stand not touching my face for like 5 minutes because my hands start getting drenched because of anxiety which then leads to me getting breakouts. I don’t even know what I look like anymore because people tell me I’m mtn or even sometimes htn but every time I meet someone new I swear they talk to me just like people did when I was a fat sub 5.

Inject Test.

 

[truecel44]

No matter how much better I look than before, I still can’t focus on much other than what I look like throughout the day and even when I’m not outside. I had to mix my adderall, Prozac, and alcohol to even hold a 30 minute conversation with this girl I like even though I’ve been told multiple times I’m out of her league. I don’t understand why if I’m out of her league I feel so much lower than her and everyone that goes to my school. I can’t stand not touching my face for like 5 minutes because my hands start getting drenched because of anxiety which then leads to me getting breakouts. I don’t even know what I look like anymore because people tell me I’m mtn or even sometimes htn but every time I meet someone new I swear they talk to me just like people did when I was a fat sub 5.

incredibly real.

 

[Aatormax]

get off the adderall and prozac it just makes your inhib higher when your addicted and experiment with magic mushrooms and nootropics for long lasting relief

Do you have any recommendations? I think I can get pretty much anything because I know someone who sells a lot.

 

[India lover 52]

Do you have any recommendations? I think I can get pretty much anything because I know someone who sells a lot.

high dose shroom trip (5g+) is the most effective and will permanently rewire your brain in a positive way but you will most likely have a ego death at that dose and it can be pretty stressful so start out with like 3.5gs or a less headspacey psyc like lsd

 

[Aatormax]

high dose shroom trip (5g+) is the most effective and will permanently rewire your brain in a positive way but you will most likely have a ego death at that dose and it can be pretty stressful so start out with like 3.5gs or a less headspacey psyc like lsd

Ego death?

 

[India lover 52]

Ego death?

impossible to describe unless you've gone through it but pretty much your consciousness leaves your body for a little bit and it can be overwhelming if your not experienced but you feel extremely at peace and zen after

 

[Aatormax]

impossible to describe unless you've gone through it but pretty much your consciousness leaves your body for a little bit and it can be overwhelming if your not experienced but you feel extremely at peace and zen after

Ok I’ll see if I can get some thanks

 

[kisslessvirgin]

get off the adderall and prozac it just makes your inhib higher when your addicted and experiment with magic mushrooms and nootropics for long lasting relief

whats with this guy and peddling shrooms

 

[India lover 52]

whats with this guy and peddling shrooms

they are a extremely underrated mentalhealth/inhib max that don't get talked about enough im just trying to bring attention to them

 

[kisslessvirgin]

they are a extremely underrated mentalhealth/inhib max that don't get talked about enough im just trying to bring attention to them

I would look into them but ik i wont take any action anyway.

 

[ImmortalKenDoll]

high dose shroom trip (5g+) is the most effective and will permanently rewire your brain in a positive way but you will most likely have a ego death at that dose and it can be pretty stressful so start out with like 3.5gs or a less headspacey psyc like lsd

ive done countless shroom trips even dmt and it never fully helped me

i find myself always coming back to this space of not being enough.

even though im aware this body isnt even me, i'm still forced to live in this physical world where we are judged and our life quality and ease is determined by our looks

idk what will help me sometimes i feel hopeless im still depressed


what is your experience with them though did they completely help your anxiety and egoic thoughts and shit?

 

[India lover 52]

ive done countless shroom trips even dmt and it never fully helped me

i find myself always coming back to this space of not being enough.

even though im aware this body isnt even me, i'm still forced to live in this physical world where we are judged and our life quality and ease is determined by our looks

idk what will help me sometimes i feel hopeless im still depressed


what is your experience with them though did they completely help your anxiety and egoic thoughts and shit?

lookism will always exist, if the cause of your mental troubles is rooted in your current circumstances/looks nothing besides improving those will help, most people that have "treatment resistance depression" don't actually have clinical depression but their lives/current circumstances are so horrible that they will be depressed no matter what treatments or drugs they take, you have to address the root cause

if its just in your head or you have trauma/abused dog syndrome after you've improved your looks then psycs are useful but if you are unhappy because of your current circumstances/looks the only way to feel better is to improve those first

in my experience they've helped me with trauma/anxiety and depression but of course we still live in a lookist society and nothing besides improving your looks will fully fix that

 

[ImmortalKenDoll]

lookism will always exist, if the cause of your mental troubles is rooted in your current circumstances/looks nothing besides improving those will help, most people that have "treatment resistance depression" don't actually have clinical depression but their lives/current circumstances are so horrible that they will be depressed no matter what treatments or drugs they take, you have to address the root cause

if its just in your head or you have trauma/abused dog syndrome after you've improved your looks then psycs are useful but if you are unhappy because of your current circumstances/looks the only way to feel better is to improve those first

in my experience they've helped me with trauma/anxiety and depression but of course we still live in a lookist society and nothing besides improving your looks will fully fix that

i improved my looks a lot i legit went from sub5 to chadlite.
i wageslaved for 3 years to get trimax and in the end my jaw grew with puberty and the braces the surgeon decompensated with.

after ascending i got compliments and people sayign i look like a model but i always had the thought at the back of my head that if i look better, if i get taller, i'll recieve more love and have more value in this world. i did so much work to ascend and no matter how good i looked i never felt like i was enough.

6'0 chadlite is good

but 6'4 chad is even better

6'8 true adam is even more insane

like what is the point of all this there will always be something higher to try to achieve i dont want to have to climb this endless ladder its retarded

 

[India lover 52]

i improved my looks a lot i legit went from sub5 to chadlite.
i wageslaved for 3 years to get trimax and in the end my jaw grew with puberty and the braces the surgeon decompensated with.

after ascending i got compliments and people sayign i look like a model but i always had the thought at the back of my head that if i look better, if i get taller, i'll recieve more love and have more value in this world. i did so much work to ascend and no matter how good i looked i never felt like i was enough.

6'0 chadlite is good

but 6'4 chad is even better

6'8 true adam is even more insane

like what is the point of all this there will always be something higher to try to achieve i dont want to have to climb this endless ladder its retarded

nobodys forcing you to climb the ladder if you've already gotten a trimax chances are your looks are no longer a detriment to your life

at some point you reach diminishing returns and it would be more productive to focus on your career or other aspects in your life, looks is just one aspect, obviously if you look ugly your life is going to be worse but you've already hardmaxxed and pretty much everything you can, it would be better to focus on status/money now

 

[ImmortalKenDoll]

nobodys forcing you to climb the ladder if you've already gotten a trimax chances are your looks are no longer a detriment to your life

at some point you reach diminishing returns and it would be more productive to focus on your career or other aspects in your life, looks is just one aspect, obviously if you look ugly your life is going to be worse but you've already hardmaxxed and pretty much everything you can, it would be better to focus on status/money now

but there again that's another thing to chase, and for what? "focus on status/ money" for what reason exactly? is that going to bring fulfillment more than looks have for me? being chadlite was supposedly supposed to make anyone truly happy like heaven on earth according to org. regardless of how much money they have or whatever. i thought it was the end all be all. but im not anymore happy than i was back when i was subhuman. maybe i dont feel as utterly disfigured as back then and recognize my social status but it's not something that brings me joy. when i go to the gym and workout in front of the mirrors and see an ethnic subhuman next to me it doesnt make me feel good to see that someone else is suffering just like i did in the past. suffering from an arbitrary hierarchy that nobody signed up to be apart of.

so what is the ultimate goal. what is the end goal. i think im going through a dark night of the soul and it doesnt make sense to pursue anything. everything is one. there is no separation and if you've done shrooms you should have seen that. if everything is one why am i chasing looks for approval from the world that is just a reflection of my own infinite consciousness? why would i chase finances and a partner either?

rn i dont know what to even think because everything seems retarded vain and pointless. void of meaning

 

[India lover 52]

but there again that's another thing to chase, and for what? "focus on status/ money" for what reason exactly? is that going to bring fulfillment more than looks have for me? being chadlite was supposedly supposed to make anyone truly happy like heaven on earth according to org. regardless of how much money they have or whatever. i thought it was the end all be all. but im not anymore happy than i was back when i was subhuman. maybe i dont feel as utterly disfigured as back then and recognize my social status but it's not something that brings me joy. when i go to the gym and workout in front of the mirrors and see an ethnic subhuman next to me it doesnt make me feel good to see that someone else is suffering just like i did in the past. suffering from an arbitrary hierarchy that nobody signed up to be apart of.

so what is the ultimate goal. what is the end goal. i think im going through a dark night of the soul and it doesnt make sense to pursue anything. everything is one. there is no separation and if you've done shrooms you should have seen that. if everything is one why am i chasing looks for approval from the world that is just a reflection of my own infinite consciousness? why would i chase finances and a partner either?

rn i dont know what to even think because everything seems retarded vain and pointless. void of meaning

it sounds like your not sure what you want to do with your life, i just recommended focusing on status/money since you seem to have a self improvement mindset but some people don't care about chasing money and fame


there is no "end goal" of life everybody makes their own goals and meanings im not really sure what to tell you since i can't see inside of your head but if you have no purpose in life you will feel empty/meaningless

personally i want to make alot of money and get a wife and start a family but you might not feel the same way, i would recommend you look at people you admire and see what kind of goals you want to set for yourself

at the end of the day yes the world is just a reflection of your own consciousness but being in a physical form means you can experience your surroundings and the world in a way you will never be able to again after you pass away, its up to you to decide what experiences you want to have and what you want to do