How does your life end up like this

[Deleted member 7192]

'Stretched my GF out for first time, now I'm screwed'

https://looksmax.org/threads/stretched-my-gf-out-for-first-time-now-im-screwed.361887/

Respectfully what events in life make you end up like this, the possibilites were endless and this is it?

I can't fathom how people get put into these positions

@Chinacurry, I'm genuinely asking

 

[Chinacurry]

Long story Bhai, and very fucked up 30year arc, but I guess the best way to summarise it would be:

1) mixed race ethnic dude grows up in provincial UK, excels in sports and academics generally bit of a storybook life, despite multiple mental issue abusive ethnic father. abusive rugby coach once makes him stand in a wheelie bin in his underwear in British winter outside gym hall where girls in same class are jumping over a vaulting horse in gym knickers (basically underwear)

2) dude always has some issues stemming from decisions father made and abuse, but leaves provinces for London, and at the age of 25 more or less leaves the UK

3) Aged 35 dude moves to Hong Kong, has pretty chilled out life, generally all good, but meets a Noodlewhore on Tinder with insane bodycount and stories of how truly high value men are treated by foids, also points out ethnic dudes flaws to him, he Google's am I ugly, one of the first links is .co, falls down that rabbit hole discovers destiny may not be deterministic, nor even manifest, but entirely based on genetics and market bias in the cases where foids are dumb as fuck (generally every non white foid is dumb as shit)

4) basically dude is blackpilled (and extremely racepilled as for the first time he sees how real curries, ie not westernised Punjabi bad boys or bank execs) act and are viewed by noodlewhores) by this point, and gets a tattoo of the blackpill, tries to convince other dweebs (mainly white trucels and Asians in the west marrying girls lost JBW carousel), some accept it, some don't. Dude thinks about giving up.

5) dude watches avengers Infinity War and realises he's not the good guy in anyone's eyes, he's only ever gonna be the bad guy, even if just for how he looks, and all these fools telling him he's wrong are just idiots, and he has to accept he's the only one (except blackpilled community) who get it.

6) dude starts getting severe anxiety and depression and suicidal tendencies, even has anxiety attack in mainland China in a street with restaurants and bars cos he's thinking everyone is looking at him as a subhuman

7) covid, including the most Draconian lockdown in any country in the world happens, dude is essentially held prisoner, and has more mental issues, as well as weight issues, docs up his medicines, change his medicines, and he can't leave a city where he thinks the fatpill and racepill mean everyone looks at him as a subhuman.

8) some covid rules are relaxed, he sees subhuman men getting with decent foids, but his brain is too fried from what he has learned over last 2 years to process it, and now has severe insomnia due to other meds and constant flashbacks of initial blackpill Noodlewhore and how she was with other guys.

9) boss realises dude is mentally too fucked up, even suspects he is turning gay, and decides to send him to London for half a year to deal with his issues

That's probably it