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When I was 18 years old I was looking forward to university, my high school years consisted of bullying and missed opprotunites I never had a steady friend group and the friend group I did have were also people that had jumped me when I was 15 but still wanted to remained friends through the duration of high school. I still did but knew that I wouldn’t keep them in my college life even though my social life became way better during my junior and senior year, I went to college in the hopes of making up for my lost teenage years. I accessed my situation and worked on my flaws, especially in regards to me learning how to talk to people
AUGUST 2020:
I went into university with an open mind, and made a lot of new friends, one of the friends I made was because I confused him for another person, I used to call him the wrong name but he never corrected me. Either way he asked me to hang out one day we went bowling, it was fun and he even got a girls number. We went back to his dorm and some other people joined us one guy we will call M and another girl we will call DD, DD and my friend were hooking up, mind you we were only there for a week max, we played video games and I got to know DD she was a really chill girl.
A couple of weeks into the semester I decided to go to M’s room to drop off some food my dad gave me that I didn’t like. Inside the room was DD and her friend. We will call her friend D. D was a 5”2 half white half Mexican girl long hair past her shoulders that was brownish blond, she work glasses and all around had the style of an alt girl. What made D so nice was that she facially alone was a Stacy-Stacylite I immediately had a crush on her. D and DD were best-friends since high school. I wasn’t the only one who liked D as well. When we hung out she even showed me pictures of her exes to everyone in the room, some of them were high tier normies and chads but of course I didn’t know what that was. I was too red pill for these fools, all you need it confidence! Who cares I had no style sense a bad haircut and looked like young asf. All you need is confidence!
Around the spring of 2021 D had gotten a boyfriend. This was unannounced to me, and when me and DD and D all came back from hanging out I asked D could she do a tarrot card reading, she would have her boyfriend on FaceTime and I even talked to him. That same boyfriend would break her arm after cheating on her in the summertime, D and DD almost had to fight him as well. I remember D told me what happend. I texted her “ I would never do that to you” but no response back from her.
Fall 2021:
For over the past year I became very close friends with D and DD, we would go to nature reserves hang out DD room and of course who can forget Walmart runs, D even taught me how to drive, but me and DD became closer friends and I used to visit her on my own time a lot. I remembered riding on the way back home from a nature reserve with me DD and D and thinking about how I fell in love with D, from how she dressed to our common interest, I could see a future with her, but one thing used to always bug me I used to wonder why was it whenever I tried to get alone with D she would always make an excuse? I would ask her to accompany me to football games or even to hang out in her room which she never let me in. She always used to tell me “I’ll let you know”, but she never did.
I remember going to DD room since we were best friends. I didn’t say anything but she was on the phone I remember hearing D say “who’s the cute lightskin that looks like he plays basketball?” And I immediately knew I needed to do something.
First time asking her out:
I remember talking to DD about asking out D and she told me no, the reason I shouldn’t she never specified, but it was a week before my birthday so I just went ahead anyways. With DD in the room I sent a long text to D explaining why I liked her.
“Sorry I’m not looking for a relationship”
I blocked D on everything. Fell into a depression and my grades slipped. I have 5 Fs and a D, idk how I even got a D in the class since I stopped attending after like the second week of November lol.
Spring 2022:
This would lead her to annoying me and asking me all the time why I unadded her on Snapchat, I remember coming back from class and seeing DD D and another guy in the room as soon as I entered D rushed out and her guy friend had to get her, she went to her room and I had to convince her to talk to me. I sat in her room and she told me that if I didn’t unblock her off of Snapchat then to leave her room, I left and we didn’t talk for a whole year.
Spring 2023:
I had another issue with a girl and unblocked every girl that I had previously blocked in the past. She told me how much she missed me.
To catch you up at this point everybody in the beginning of the story had pretty much left either because they flunked out of school or just left completely. That included DD who flunked.
I at this point was hooked on another girl so I only viewed her as a friend and asked her if she can do a tarrot card reading and love spell for me to get the girl back. She asked if I wanted to do this in person or over the phone. Of course I said in person. Little did I know the only reason why D was inviting me in the first place was because she was lonely and had no friends.
D did some spells gave me some free food and I smoked all night. I would like to add that D used to give me all the free weed and alcohol in the world but never seemed to do it with me, it was like she was always watching me drink or smoke but never her.
This turned into an every weekend thing. When me and my friends came back from clubbing at another school in another state I would come back late at night to her crib to smoke drink and hangout, before she got tired and decided to kick me out.
i started to like her again, i was still in my red pill faze. To give you an image of how i look im 6”1-6”2 black with dreads and at the time i was buff, so i though that that was enough to get Stacy D.
I remember watching redpill videos that said girls are emotional creatures and if you could make them feel emotion for you then you could date them. I took this advice to heart.
I wanted D to need me more that she needed her own blood mother I planed to get her attached enough to the point that she had no other choice than to be attracted to me.
Every phone call, every text, every hangout I was inching closer to my goal. I had this girl texting me everyday, even for dumb shit like when it thunderstorms to hard and she would text me like “you hear that” I knew I got her hooked, she was giving me free weed, alchol, she was stealing out the store for me and even allowed me to borrow her car whenever I wanted. She used to ask me to do random task for her and I even rememberd she gave me a rose one time. I gave her my hoodie on the last day of school.
summer 2023:
We went from talking and texting everday to to radio silence it was like a switch flipped and I was only around when school was around. I texted her to make plans but she would say she would make them then never text me back, one day she asked me a month into summer if I wanted to come to her friend birthday party that I also kinda knew I said yes, I talked to my friend and he said for me to ask her last minute about the details as she said she would let me know but never told me, she told me it would be a hotel party.
I said yes. I had no friends and this would be my only time out of the summer that I can hang out.
Part 1, morning of hotel party July 4th:
I wake up, I get a paper check from my job I started not too long ago, and it was maybe about 30$, I start planning what I’m going to wear to the party. When my dad calls me to help clean up his apartment. When my dad ask if I could help clean up it usually means I’m going to make 100$-200$. I say yes.
While at his apartment I call my cousin who had agreed with my other friend that this girl likes me. My cousin is at work with her co worker and I’m telling her about the party. She ask me what the girl looks like. I show her.
She told me the most blackpill thing I think I’ve ever heard “she’s out of your league but your personality makes up for it.”
My heart sinks, her co worker as what I look like and after getting roasted by my cousin saying that I looked like a burnt cockaroch, I show the co worker and she says I’m cute and the girl I like looks a bit musty.
At this point my dad brings me some food and sees that I didn’t clean up much. I didn’t even want to eat which was abnormal as my whole mood was fucked up.
But I told myself either way I’m going to have a good time regardless.
Part 2, afternoon of hotel party:
I visit my same friend from above who I mistaked as someone else , I visited him and told him I’m going to go to the hotel party we smoke for a bit then I leave, he even thinks I might crack.
Imagine while leaving you see 4th of July fire works while you drive knowing that you’re oneitis dream might come to reality and you might make it out the friendzone, your 30 mins away. I get a text.
“Where are you your my only friend”
Part 3, night of hotel party:
I get to the hotel, she comes down to pick me up, she looks beautiful as always I walk into the hotel and it’s a bunch of people were all playing cards of humanity even some really good looking women and I’m texting her to play 8 ball. She keeps on calling my name for some reason despite being around a lot of people and won’t seem to leave me alone.
Drinks start to get passed out and all of us head downstairs to vibe out. I talk to 2 of her friends Bryant and another guy I forgot his name. As we’re talking she leaves the group she was in and comes to ours. The whole night it seemed like we were connected and vibing.
Everyone starts to leave as it gets late.
But at the end of the night I stay in the hotel with her n her best friend, her best friends leaves to go to Bryant’s room.
She tries to make me sleep on the couch but I say it’s too small.
Now it’s me n her in the bed this is what I’ve been waiting for for 3 years I had a 90 no fap streak I was buff finally had some style as well. But she makes it very clear that we both have our own sides n she was on some weird shi like don’t beat your dick cause she had ppl who did that or had sex next to her before. I try to watch Harry Potter because I remember stalking her twitter and her saying she wanted to watch Harry Potter with somebody she acknowledged it but nothing sparked from it. But we both went to sleep.
The next morning she was trying to rush out the room as quick as possible she kept asking me when I was going to leave , ‘along herself throwin up in the bathroom, going to her bestfriend and Bryant’s room to wake them up and catching Bryant in his underwear, me her bestfriend and D are all in the same bed and she keeps trying to rush us to leave the hotel. She said that I should pick them up some McDonalds then I can leave. We went to McDonald’s later but she sat in the back and her friend in the front.
After that she said I can leave. I went back home listening to Travis Scott Apple pie all 30 mins back. My mom was at work so nobody was at home. Her bestfriend texted me and said thanks for the gift.
The whole night didn’t make sense to me…
Why did this girl who seemed to give me all these signals that even my cousin and friends thought she liked me.
Was I not buff enough? I went and bought a gym membership the same day.
I knew who wheat waffles was and I refused the blackpill at first but it all made since to me. It never started for me it was over in a second.
Conclusion:
I decided to ask her out for the second and final time. She said that she wasn’t looking for a relationship, the crazy thing is that she went back to posting on her snap like nothing happens after rejecting me.
I decided to not contact her until she contacted me. She contacted me in the fall and asked can I help her move out. To which I responsed “boyfriend duty without the role is crazy” she got hella mad at me and this led to on and off blocking and me sinding a 5 note letter through our mutual bestfriend DD simping for her to which she completely etherd my shit. I’ll probably post the pics.
I still check her post often and she’s just out living life. While she complete my destroyed how I would view love forever lol.
And that kiddos is how I became blackpill
.
Some more stories coming soon.
AUGUST 2020:
I went into university with an open mind, and made a lot of new friends, one of the friends I made was because I confused him for another person, I used to call him the wrong name but he never corrected me. Either way he asked me to hang out one day we went bowling, it was fun and he even got a girls number. We went back to his dorm and some other people joined us one guy we will call M and another girl we will call DD, DD and my friend were hooking up, mind you we were only there for a week max, we played video games and I got to know DD she was a really chill girl.
A couple of weeks into the semester I decided to go to M’s room to drop off some food my dad gave me that I didn’t like. Inside the room was DD and her friend. We will call her friend D. D was a 5”2 half white half Mexican girl long hair past her shoulders that was brownish blond, she work glasses and all around had the style of an alt girl. What made D so nice was that she facially alone was a Stacy-Stacylite I immediately had a crush on her. D and DD were best-friends since high school. I wasn’t the only one who liked D as well. When we hung out she even showed me pictures of her exes to everyone in the room, some of them were high tier normies and chads but of course I didn’t know what that was. I was too red pill for these fools, all you need it confidence! Who cares I had no style sense a bad haircut and looked like young asf. All you need is confidence!
Around the spring of 2021 D had gotten a boyfriend. This was unannounced to me, and when me and DD and D all came back from hanging out I asked D could she do a tarrot card reading, she would have her boyfriend on FaceTime and I even talked to him. That same boyfriend would break her arm after cheating on her in the summertime, D and DD almost had to fight him as well. I remember D told me what happend. I texted her “ I would never do that to you” but no response back from her.
Fall 2021:
For over the past year I became very close friends with D and DD, we would go to nature reserves hang out DD room and of course who can forget Walmart runs, D even taught me how to drive, but me and DD became closer friends and I used to visit her on my own time a lot. I remembered riding on the way back home from a nature reserve with me DD and D and thinking about how I fell in love with D, from how she dressed to our common interest, I could see a future with her, but one thing used to always bug me I used to wonder why was it whenever I tried to get alone with D she would always make an excuse? I would ask her to accompany me to football games or even to hang out in her room which she never let me in. She always used to tell me “I’ll let you know”, but she never did.
I remember going to DD room since we were best friends. I didn’t say anything but she was on the phone I remember hearing D say “who’s the cute lightskin that looks like he plays basketball?” And I immediately knew I needed to do something.
First time asking her out:
I remember talking to DD about asking out D and she told me no, the reason I shouldn’t she never specified, but it was a week before my birthday so I just went ahead anyways. With DD in the room I sent a long text to D explaining why I liked her.
“Sorry I’m not looking for a relationship”
I blocked D on everything. Fell into a depression and my grades slipped. I have 5 Fs and a D, idk how I even got a D in the class since I stopped attending after like the second week of November lol.
Spring 2022:
This would lead her to annoying me and asking me all the time why I unadded her on Snapchat, I remember coming back from class and seeing DD D and another guy in the room as soon as I entered D rushed out and her guy friend had to get her, she went to her room and I had to convince her to talk to me. I sat in her room and she told me that if I didn’t unblock her off of Snapchat then to leave her room, I left and we didn’t talk for a whole year.
Spring 2023:
I had another issue with a girl and unblocked every girl that I had previously blocked in the past. She told me how much she missed me.
To catch you up at this point everybody in the beginning of the story had pretty much left either because they flunked out of school or just left completely. That included DD who flunked.
I at this point was hooked on another girl so I only viewed her as a friend and asked her if she can do a tarrot card reading and love spell for me to get the girl back. She asked if I wanted to do this in person or over the phone. Of course I said in person. Little did I know the only reason why D was inviting me in the first place was because she was lonely and had no friends.
D did some spells gave me some free food and I smoked all night. I would like to add that D used to give me all the free weed and alcohol in the world but never seemed to do it with me, it was like she was always watching me drink or smoke but never her.
This turned into an every weekend thing. When me and my friends came back from clubbing at another school in another state I would come back late at night to her crib to smoke drink and hangout, before she got tired and decided to kick me out.
i started to like her again, i was still in my red pill faze. To give you an image of how i look im 6”1-6”2 black with dreads and at the time i was buff, so i though that that was enough to get Stacy D.
I remember watching redpill videos that said girls are emotional creatures and if you could make them feel emotion for you then you could date them. I took this advice to heart.
I wanted D to need me more that she needed her own blood mother I planed to get her attached enough to the point that she had no other choice than to be attracted to me.
Every phone call, every text, every hangout I was inching closer to my goal. I had this girl texting me everyday, even for dumb shit like when it thunderstorms to hard and she would text me like “you hear that” I knew I got her hooked, she was giving me free weed, alchol, she was stealing out the store for me and even allowed me to borrow her car whenever I wanted. She used to ask me to do random task for her and I even rememberd she gave me a rose one time. I gave her my hoodie on the last day of school.
summer 2023:
We went from talking and texting everday to to radio silence it was like a switch flipped and I was only around when school was around. I texted her to make plans but she would say she would make them then never text me back, one day she asked me a month into summer if I wanted to come to her friend birthday party that I also kinda knew I said yes, I talked to my friend and he said for me to ask her last minute about the details as she said she would let me know but never told me, she told me it would be a hotel party.
I said yes. I had no friends and this would be my only time out of the summer that I can hang out.
Part 1, morning of hotel party July 4th:
I wake up, I get a paper check from my job I started not too long ago, and it was maybe about 30$, I start planning what I’m going to wear to the party. When my dad calls me to help clean up his apartment. When my dad ask if I could help clean up it usually means I’m going to make 100$-200$. I say yes.
While at his apartment I call my cousin who had agreed with my other friend that this girl likes me. My cousin is at work with her co worker and I’m telling her about the party. She ask me what the girl looks like. I show her.
She told me the most blackpill thing I think I’ve ever heard “she’s out of your league but your personality makes up for it.”
My heart sinks, her co worker as what I look like and after getting roasted by my cousin saying that I looked like a burnt cockaroch, I show the co worker and she says I’m cute and the girl I like looks a bit musty.
At this point my dad brings me some food and sees that I didn’t clean up much. I didn’t even want to eat which was abnormal as my whole mood was fucked up.
But I told myself either way I’m going to have a good time regardless.
Part 2, afternoon of hotel party:
I visit my same friend from above who I mistaked as someone else , I visited him and told him I’m going to go to the hotel party we smoke for a bit then I leave, he even thinks I might crack.
Imagine while leaving you see 4th of July fire works while you drive knowing that you’re oneitis dream might come to reality and you might make it out the friendzone, your 30 mins away. I get a text.
“Where are you your my only friend”
Part 3, night of hotel party:
I get to the hotel, she comes down to pick me up, she looks beautiful as always I walk into the hotel and it’s a bunch of people were all playing cards of humanity even some really good looking women and I’m texting her to play 8 ball. She keeps on calling my name for some reason despite being around a lot of people and won’t seem to leave me alone.
Drinks start to get passed out and all of us head downstairs to vibe out. I talk to 2 of her friends Bryant and another guy I forgot his name. As we’re talking she leaves the group she was in and comes to ours. The whole night it seemed like we were connected and vibing.
Everyone starts to leave as it gets late.
But at the end of the night I stay in the hotel with her n her best friend, her best friends leaves to go to Bryant’s room.
She tries to make me sleep on the couch but I say it’s too small.
Now it’s me n her in the bed this is what I’ve been waiting for for 3 years I had a 90 no fap streak I was buff finally had some style as well. But she makes it very clear that we both have our own sides n she was on some weird shi like don’t beat your dick cause she had ppl who did that or had sex next to her before. I try to watch Harry Potter because I remember stalking her twitter and her saying she wanted to watch Harry Potter with somebody she acknowledged it but nothing sparked from it. But we both went to sleep.
The next morning she was trying to rush out the room as quick as possible she kept asking me when I was going to leave , ‘along herself throwin up in the bathroom, going to her bestfriend and Bryant’s room to wake them up and catching Bryant in his underwear, me her bestfriend and D are all in the same bed and she keeps trying to rush us to leave the hotel. She said that I should pick them up some McDonalds then I can leave. We went to McDonald’s later but she sat in the back and her friend in the front.
After that she said I can leave. I went back home listening to Travis Scott Apple pie all 30 mins back. My mom was at work so nobody was at home. Her bestfriend texted me and said thanks for the gift.
The whole night didn’t make sense to me…
Why did this girl who seemed to give me all these signals that even my cousin and friends thought she liked me.
Was I not buff enough? I went and bought a gym membership the same day.
I knew who wheat waffles was and I refused the blackpill at first but it all made since to me. It never started for me it was over in a second.
Conclusion:
I decided to ask her out for the second and final time. She said that she wasn’t looking for a relationship, the crazy thing is that she went back to posting on her snap like nothing happens after rejecting me.
I decided to not contact her until she contacted me. She contacted me in the fall and asked can I help her move out. To which I responsed “boyfriend duty without the role is crazy” she got hella mad at me and this led to on and off blocking and me sinding a 5 note letter through our mutual bestfriend DD simping for her to which she completely etherd my shit. I’ll probably post the pics.
I still check her post often and she’s just out living life. While she complete my destroyed how I would view love forever lol.
And that kiddos is how I became blackpill
.Some more stories coming soon.
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