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Read if you’re bored or maybe relate in some way:
So, my friend turned 16 a while ago and threw a party on saturday. Me and my best friend pull up like an hour after the party initially started and see my ex and another girl carrying balloons and cake upstairs so we go to help. Everything’s chill and we all laugh together and shit while carrying up the bags of party decoration. Then like half an hour into the party me, my hb i came with, my ex and another guy who had a joint with him decide to go smoke on the balcony. The guy who brought the joint said he’s way to high for this shit bc he ate some brownies before coming over so he dips and leaves us this 2g joint and we spark up.
Later we go inside and that shit was hitting me like crazy and it was a lil embarrassing bc like half of my classmates were there and they didn’t know i smoked but who cares. Then someone suggests we play Beer Pong and I play to socialise a lil bc i lowkey have social anxiety and I’m trying to overcome it so people don’t think of me as an nd outcast. And while we play I just happen to notice my friend who’s throwing the party playing and having so much fun. Like he’s truly happy. His loving girlfriend is celebrating with him and is staying the night, all of his friends are at his party, his favourite songs are playing and he’s just the main character of it all whilst living his bluepilled, happy life. I envied him so hard that night. Anyways while looking at his joyous face i thought to myself „when was the last time i actually had fun“ and i can’t remember. I’m not saying that my life is terrible and I hate it but I just don’t experience true happiness or any fun. I probably just smoked way too much weed in the last two years which i’m stopping NOW!
I hope i will regain my spark of life and happiness again and stop feeling this constant state of numbness.
So, my friend turned 16 a while ago and threw a party on saturday. Me and my best friend pull up like an hour after the party initially started and see my ex and another girl carrying balloons and cake upstairs so we go to help. Everything’s chill and we all laugh together and shit while carrying up the bags of party decoration. Then like half an hour into the party me, my hb i came with, my ex and another guy who had a joint with him decide to go smoke on the balcony. The guy who brought the joint said he’s way to high for this shit bc he ate some brownies before coming over so he dips and leaves us this 2g joint and we spark up.
Later we go inside and that shit was hitting me like crazy and it was a lil embarrassing bc like half of my classmates were there and they didn’t know i smoked but who cares. Then someone suggests we play Beer Pong and I play to socialise a lil bc i lowkey have social anxiety and I’m trying to overcome it so people don’t think of me as an nd outcast. And while we play I just happen to notice my friend who’s throwing the party playing and having so much fun. Like he’s truly happy. His loving girlfriend is celebrating with him and is staying the night, all of his friends are at his party, his favourite songs are playing and he’s just the main character of it all whilst living his bluepilled, happy life. I envied him so hard that night. Anyways while looking at his joyous face i thought to myself „when was the last time i actually had fun“ and i can’t remember. I’m not saying that my life is terrible and I hate it but I just don’t experience true happiness or any fun. I probably just smoked way too much weed in the last two years which i’m stopping NOW!
I hope i will regain my spark of life and happiness again and stop feeling this constant state of numbness.
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my screentime is insane i’m going to set up some time limits now
