Dekisui
small eyes with curls sound cool but actually suck
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THIS IS MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND MORE OF A VENT AND STORYTELLING THAN ANYTHING ELSE
I'm a 177cm/5'10-5'9 66kg half korean half turk/mongolian 19 year old uni student from Germany.
I've been a lurker on .org for the 2~ years and really have made changes ever since then, including but not limited to;
// unnecessarry info start
Glutathione IV's 4x annually
Went to the gym for 2 years now around 4x a week
I'm ordering my next batch of ghkcu and cjc no dac ipa // which I btw believe has made me taller than i was supposed to be, I'm a late puber started at 14 and my growth plates seemed to be open just a few months ago when I went to the hospital for a fracture.
I grew another 3-4 cm since then
etc. // the rest is relatively obvious advice like dressing accordingly, taking care of hair, taking care of skin, taking care of body, taking diff supplements for coloring like niacin and astaxanthin for me specifically, nac selenium etc for my own gluta production etc.
// unnecessary info end
I would say I fit well into the cutecel/ prettyboy category, I look really young, more cutesy and feminine which actually lines up with my ethnic background.
Not intimidating at all, and I really like to keep talking in a very childish yet polite manner
besides the occasional girls approaching me on the street or in a mcdonalds or other public places, because as u can imagine looking inviting and not intimidating works pretty well for that type of stuff. // mainly older women 21-28 btw -- also being asian helps lmao
one big change I've noticed about how people have become insanely willing to help me with next to anything, both on the street, vendors, cashiers etc. they just end up being extremely nice to me.
I worked as an extra in a few movies and they always let me backstage and eat cake and talk to some of the main actors while the other extras had their own room with nothing but a coffee machine and nothing else. -- rant from here on I'll highlight the part when it's over
for example my parents really hate me (big surprise for someone ND i know) like genuinely despised me from the very start, which lead them to take extra measures when it came to my teenage years.
I'm a grown man and I wasnt allowed outside for longer than until 10pm.
Whenever I misbehaved they literally just destroyed something that was dear to my heart or just played a big role in my life.
Just today I came home to my closet missing and all my clothes in suitcases and on the ground.
To any confrontation about it my mom just told me im an embarassment to the family and that both my siblings were so much better than me.
Although my brother still lives with us at 32, has been too fucking lazy to finish his major up until last year and just now started working.
So as y'all can imagine I'm in a slight hurry to move out next semester because I'm still trying to live somewhat of a neurotypical life after all this shit went down
-- should be fine now
When it came to university a lot of the professors/higher ups really put in work in order to help me with my problem regarding the urgent university switch to a diff city.
Which I obviously never would've expected to happen before, this seems like people are willing to put in much more of an effort just based off what I'm used to.
Same goes to with shit i get away with saying or doing, drawing boundaries never felt easier.
People and especially women let me get away with shit that would have never worked before.
but aside from that, my main reason for this post besides ranting lmao is to kinda document and see where tf my life is gonna go from now on and the entire process of moving out as a late teen over here.
I really need to get my ass out of this home where I feel like I'm constantly supervised and kept in a cage.
I want to finally live out the life I've been constantly getting crumbs of.
I was social for a while, especially in the alternative community, had a lot of mishaps a lot of fun too, kinda got hooked on weed lmao
however after my second breakup and once i entered my second semester of uni (so a few months ago) my parents really pulled the ropes and told me theyd kick me out if I didn't put all my focus on uni.
BTW I'm not autistic, but I have been diagnosed with ADHD when I was a child and thrown into primary school at 4 because I was deemed gifted at an IQ of 128 // I know 130 counts as gifted and mine is off however idk how but my parents made it so it still went through.
I like to think to myself I'm pretty NT however i realize I have a lot of ND characteristics when it comes to my thought process.
This is just something I'll never be able to fully get rid of and I'll just have to accept that for the rest of my life
Big mess of a thread hope anyone reading this found it amusing or interesting
sorry for wasting y'alls time with a rant.
I'll be making a detailed guide on supplements and everything I took and did the past few years i feel really helped in general.
I appreciate any advice y'all can give me for the future
I'll def be getting a job, get my student money and search for a student dorm that has some free spaces.
I really pray that the transfer to the better uni in a bigger city is gonna go smoothly as planned y'all.
also sorry if my english was bad at certain points in this post, I'm not a native speaker but I did at least get a c2 in the oxford language test tho
Thanks for reading<3
I'm a 177cm/5'10-5'9 66kg half korean half turk/mongolian 19 year old uni student from Germany.
I've been a lurker on .org for the 2~ years and really have made changes ever since then, including but not limited to;
// unnecessarry info start
Glutathione IV's 4x annually
Went to the gym for 2 years now around 4x a week
I'm ordering my next batch of ghkcu and cjc no dac ipa // which I btw believe has made me taller than i was supposed to be, I'm a late puber started at 14 and my growth plates seemed to be open just a few months ago when I went to the hospital for a fracture.
I grew another 3-4 cm since then
etc. // the rest is relatively obvious advice like dressing accordingly, taking care of hair, taking care of skin, taking care of body, taking diff supplements for coloring like niacin and astaxanthin for me specifically, nac selenium etc for my own gluta production etc.
// unnecessary info end
I would say I fit well into the cutecel/ prettyboy category, I look really young, more cutesy and feminine which actually lines up with my ethnic background.
Not intimidating at all, and I really like to keep talking in a very childish yet polite manner
besides the occasional girls approaching me on the street or in a mcdonalds or other public places, because as u can imagine looking inviting and not intimidating works pretty well for that type of stuff. // mainly older women 21-28 btw -- also being asian helps lmao
one big change I've noticed about how people have become insanely willing to help me with next to anything, both on the street, vendors, cashiers etc. they just end up being extremely nice to me.
I worked as an extra in a few movies and they always let me backstage and eat cake and talk to some of the main actors while the other extras had their own room with nothing but a coffee machine and nothing else. -- rant from here on I'll highlight the part when it's over
for example my parents really hate me (big surprise for someone ND i know) like genuinely despised me from the very start, which lead them to take extra measures when it came to my teenage years.
I'm a grown man and I wasnt allowed outside for longer than until 10pm.
Whenever I misbehaved they literally just destroyed something that was dear to my heart or just played a big role in my life.
Just today I came home to my closet missing and all my clothes in suitcases and on the ground.
To any confrontation about it my mom just told me im an embarassment to the family and that both my siblings were so much better than me.
Although my brother still lives with us at 32, has been too fucking lazy to finish his major up until last year and just now started working.
So as y'all can imagine I'm in a slight hurry to move out next semester because I'm still trying to live somewhat of a neurotypical life after all this shit went down
-- should be fine now
When it came to university a lot of the professors/higher ups really put in work in order to help me with my problem regarding the urgent university switch to a diff city.
Which I obviously never would've expected to happen before, this seems like people are willing to put in much more of an effort just based off what I'm used to.
Same goes to with shit i get away with saying or doing, drawing boundaries never felt easier.
People and especially women let me get away with shit that would have never worked before.
but aside from that, my main reason for this post besides ranting lmao is to kinda document and see where tf my life is gonna go from now on and the entire process of moving out as a late teen over here.
I really need to get my ass out of this home where I feel like I'm constantly supervised and kept in a cage.
I want to finally live out the life I've been constantly getting crumbs of.
I was social for a while, especially in the alternative community, had a lot of mishaps a lot of fun too, kinda got hooked on weed lmao
however after my second breakup and once i entered my second semester of uni (so a few months ago) my parents really pulled the ropes and told me theyd kick me out if I didn't put all my focus on uni.
BTW I'm not autistic, but I have been diagnosed with ADHD when I was a child and thrown into primary school at 4 because I was deemed gifted at an IQ of 128 // I know 130 counts as gifted and mine is off however idk how but my parents made it so it still went through.
I like to think to myself I'm pretty NT however i realize I have a lot of ND characteristics when it comes to my thought process.
This is just something I'll never be able to fully get rid of and I'll just have to accept that for the rest of my life
Big mess of a thread hope anyone reading this found it amusing or interesting
sorry for wasting y'alls time with a rant.
I'll be making a detailed guide on supplements and everything I took and did the past few years i feel really helped in general.
I appreciate any advice y'all can give me for the future
I'll def be getting a job, get my student money and search for a student dorm that has some free spaces.
I really pray that the transfer to the better uni in a bigger city is gonna go smoothly as planned y'all.
also sorry if my english was bad at certain points in this post, I'm not a native speaker but I did at least get a c2 in the oxford language test tho
Thanks for reading<3
they just expect you to rot forever
